Changes

[Sylvia]

Change #1
When I was drinking I used to love going to pubs. Now for you who don't know pubs are something like bars except they have better food.
My husband said he heard of a new pub with really good food and wanted to know if I would go. I told him I would just have coffee and I would go.
Now for those of you who don't know, I have severe panic attacks that have in the past lead to seizures. When you see me I am very obvious that I have medical problems. I shake, have problems walking, can't think and have pieces of time just blank out. When we got to the pub we put our order in and I got coffee and sat there. It wasn't long before I felt a feeling of uneasiness flood me. At first I thought I was having another panic attack but this felt different. I hardly touched the food. I just wanted to get out of there. When I left I told my husband I had taken the Holy Spirit into a place He did not want me to be. I hated being there.

Change #2
Through prayer lately God is putting people into my mind that He is telling me I need to ask their forgiveness for things that happened many years ago. I talked to one lady I definately blew my testimony too. It was after my Dad died, I found out I had cancer and ended up not being able to do my job any more. I sort of took it out on her. She forgave me. I have one more person God wants me to contact. What happened with her happened at least 15 years ago.

Philippians 1:6 " For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus"

Love You all
Sylvia

[realtmg]

Sylvia, Great post. Be thankful that the Holy Spirit was doing His job and you wouldn't have heard Him if you were not doing yours. WOOO HOOO. So good to have you here and you will find answers and God's love here. Keep up the good work and thanks for sharing with us. GBU Luv ya Real.

[splash]

I too am a victorious alky and feel very uncomfortable going to places with that pub atmosphere. My hubby can't seem to understand why I'd rather wait for a table in the restaurant when the only one available is in the bar, and i feel like I'm acting weak toward temptation to make a big deal of it. I also have been contemplating the forgiveness issue.... and wondering if it's right to confess and ask forgiveness of someone for something I did in the past when it will only bring them pain.

I enjoy chatting with you and Sylvia I'm really glad you're here.

[follower_of_Jesus]

yes the holy spirit is awesome
you are a good decision maker, thats why I am very picky and choose places to eat out at that don't serve alcohol, I dont trust myself so early in my sobriety to chance it.
i went out to eat with my sisster and my brother n law last winter just a couple months after entering sobriety and they served alcohol there and i didnt say anything to my sister and brother n law but the things that were going through my head were just too much I was so happy once we had left and were on our way home. so now i am very picky about where i go
thank you lord for getting to this point

[Sylvia]

Well, I sort of dragged my feet on telling the second person who God brought to my mind on asking their forgiveness. Then on Wednesday Chat room Realtmg talked about step 8. As those of you who were there Wednesday night I didn't say much. I dragged along until today Friday when during my time with the Lord I was telling God how much I loved Him. As clear as day a voice in my head said "what about _____?"
I didn't even have her address any more and so I went under white pages on the internet and found the address (and phone number) I knew it was her because she happens to be a pastors wife and her husbands name had the "Rev." before it. I prayed Lord do I have to call her? Can't I just write a letter? Are you going to ask me to call her? As clear as day a voice in my head said "no, don't call, that would be putting her on the spot, she might not be ready to forgive" So, I wrote, and wrote, and wrote. I had asked God to give me the words and He did. It is sitting in the mail box now. Praise God! It took me 15 years but I finally did it!
Thank you Real Solutions, you helped me do this.

[dubya]

awesome slyvia Praise the Lord !!

The Truth will set you free.....The Holy Spirit is an awesome friend


God bless

[realtmg]

Sylvia. Amen sis. You see, this program requires action on our part. You went to all the trouble to make amends for something that happened long ago. And now you feel good about this. Praise God. I can remember that God waited to the last minute to give me a subject for that program. I'm glad I waited on Him to give this to me. Now I know why He gave this subject to me. This program is for me too you know. I work this steps that are provided and they help me also. I just want to take the time to give God praise and glory for the things I see happening in many lives here as well as my own. Amen?
Keep on keeping on my friend and thanks for sharing with us. GBU. Real.

[follower_of_Jesus]

awesome sylvia the truth has set you free
and as this one song goes......
I can see clearly now the rain is gone.. I have no OBTICLES in my way.
keep your faith in the lord your on the right track
god bless you sylvia

[splash]

Wow Sylvia! You Go Girl!