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[sweetlittleangel]

Dear rain, glad to see u starting to grow. yes i understand its never easy to forgive ourselves..but that God wants us to do! it sometimes rooting frm feeling tht we owe something n we want to pay for it..but the good news is He has paid it all for us! dun let urself feeling guilty cuz thats the enemy wants..n pls dun believe in the lies sis. The truth is, u aredi forgiven and He wants u to be free n say it outloud to urself tht u re free ! keep growing sis, u are doing awsome! God is on ur side!

[rain]

step 6...

getting to toe root of the problems....was really hard for me to do and Im not sure of I got most of it but I did the best I could. I would love to be alittle more enthusiastic about todays step cause it did actually make me feel alittle better, but I also really feel like cutting today and not even this step helped me figure out why I really want to. maybe I just wanna control my life cause its spinning out of control again...or maybe Im just really really angry, Im not sure. maybe Ill go back and look over the steps again before I go to bed.

[mlg]

Rain the thoughts you have of cutting are some of the weeds you have to begin pulling from your life. As soon as you get that thought, you have to pull it out, and replace it with Jesus. In other words, sing a Chrisitan song, or put on some Christian music. It's hard when it's quiet, or when your focus is not on the Lord, to pull these weeds, so get the Spirit moving and get to pulling wooohooo.

Keep doing the steps sweet girl. Praying for you.

luv ya

[rain]

step 7...

I had to kind of work my way up to doing the step today, I had one of those days where I just didnt want to do anything however the good news is that meant I didnt feel like doing anything stupid. although I have to admit that I really messed up last night and I reached for the blade again.....today when I read this step I realized that I have to stop this. if I have to eject anything, it has to be what is making me do this to myself. my body is a temple for God and Im single handedly destroying it. I have to push on with what I learned in the step today, I have to keep going. if not for me then for God.

[mlg]

Amen sis you have to push on, you fell down last night, today you get up and get back to doing what God asks of you. It's hard sis, I know, but remember Jesus is there with His hand out saying come on my rain, I'll help you if you will but let me. Sis, I'm also here for you. Keep fighting the good fight, because one day the rewards will make it all worth it.

Praying for you sweet girl.

luv ya

[sweetlittleangel]

Amen rain! yes rain, its all about Him and ur relationship with Him. Sometimes we tend to ask Him working for us..but tht is not the case. He is working inside u..through u n ur situation..and remember He has overcome the world n claim His promises sis, its is urs! praise God tht He granted u with His strength to overcome the urged to go back to the blade! we can do all things through Christ who strenghten us (philipians 4:13). stand on His strenght sis, n keep clinging on Him. God be with u. Love ya !

[rain]

step eight

"O wretched man that I am! Who will rescue me from this misery" Ive felt that feeling so many times and Ive never really known how to save myself from it, only today I realized that I cant save myself. Im just a human and Im not capable of it. the only person that can truely save me is God. I cant rely on myself to make the right decisions anymore, I need God to help me to do that. I need God to help me replace my weeds with flowers. I need God to help me. theres no other way to put it. I just need God. I cant do this on my own.

[mlg]

With man nothing is possible, with God all things are possible. You've figured it out now sis, God is the answer. Now allow Him to be your answer. Let Him provide you with the Strength, Love, and Joy to get through each day ahead. Some days will come easy, and some days not so, but know that whatever day it is, He made that day. For today is the day the Lord has made, so let us rejoice and be glad in it.

Your doing great rain. Look how far you have come in the steps. Wooohooo girl you got it goin' on now....and Jesus is smilin' on you.

luv ya

[rain]

step nine

I really dont wanna do this step. not because I dont want to break any habits but because as some of you guys know, my grandad died yesterday and I just dont have a whole lot of motivation to do anything right now. I could hardly get myself up to go to church this morning. on top of that I can only really think of one habit that I really desperately want to break, everything else is not really a priority to me.

[mlg]

rain my sister sorry to hear about your granddad. May you find peace and comfort in knowing he is in the Lord's hands now. Glad to see that you went ahead and did the step, even when you really didn't feel like it. Good to see the perseverance in you sis. The Lord is so proud of you, I just know it.

As for breaking habits, begin to work on that habit that you really want to break. Work at it daily, and soon you will have brokent that habit.

Keep on reaching for the Light sis. You can do it.

luv ya

[rain]

step 10

prayer just happens to be a habit that Im trying to pick up to replace another....its not really working as well as I thought, mostly because I feel like theres a big disconnect between me and god and I find it so hard to talk to people that I dont know how Im even gonna really start talking to god.

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Hey there, Rain.

So did you miss me?? So sorry I've been somewhat out of the loop. I, too, lost someone close to me recently. (I'm soooo very sorry about your grandpa.) But as I recently heard someone say, death is a "comma," not a "period." As Christians, death is an experience steeped in HOPE!! Hope and gratitude in and for our Lord and Savior who guaranteed us, as believers, eternal life. Praise Him!!

On to your recent post about not being able to talk to God because you don't "know" Him. I think one of the big mistakes we ALL make is looking at our own lives and trying to work backward or forward from there to figure out God. WRONG!!

We need to go to HIS word of truth to learn about Him, and ourselves, too! What do we find there? In Jeremiah, it tells us that God knew us before we were even in the womb. And, somewhere (not always great with citations), it tells us that we love God because HE FIRST LOVED US!!

Rain, we don't convince ourselves to love God. When we simply turn to Him in sincerity with our concerns, even our concern that we don't feel close to Him, we realize He is not just coming to us, but that He is ALREADY THERE, in our heart. He places His Holy Spirit right inside our heart. Just reach out to Him, Rain. Don't fake love you don't feel, and don't pretend. Be authentic and genuine. Desire to grow in your relationship with Him, and let Him lead you.

Hang in there, Rain. Above all else, you are growing in your relationship to Him -- that's what this is all about.

See you soon!!