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[goldieluvs]

Ty all for ur wonderful comments and love. Day three. God's Grace. What an awesome subject. Something that took me quite a while to fathom. Sometimes I am just amazed by the miracles God works in peoples lives, including my own. Just six months ago, i was a different person and have grown alot in many ways, thanks to people here, the lessons, reading and praying and of course God. He is so totally awesome. I have a hard time conceptualizing that amount of love. To love someone so much to be willing to die for them even before they were ever born. Maybe He allready knew me and knew what kind of life I would have. I dunno, i think im gonna have to study that one. I would be SO LOST without Gods Grace. Today, I am just thankful that God has done so much for me. And that He never left me even when i was angry and stubborn and refused to see how He helped me. Thank God, He didnt give up on me.

[mlg]

goldieluvs, God's grace is amazing sis. In fact what's more is that many times we will decide to leave God's presence to wander off our own way, but if we decide to turn around and come back to Him, He's always there waiting, and He welcomes us back with open arms. He doesn't shun us, and he doesn't kick us back out the door, He just says welcome Home my child, so glad you decided to return.

Thank God He does love us so much, that He extends His grace to each and everyone of us, continually.

Keep doing the steps goldieluvs. You are travelling a whole new path now...growing closer in your walk with God.

luv ya sis

[goldieluvs]

Day 4. Forgiveness. Boy thats a toughie. I can see where i have forgiven some past deep hurts, but do no continue a relationship with that person. Is it wrong? I dunno, i dunno even where he is at. I feel guilt about a past event involving my furbaby Goldie, even tho I know God has forgiven me. I still hurt and grieve over her loss as it was my fault. One person i harbor resentments over who was my drug dealer. Again, that sounds off key because I always had a choice. Something Im working on I guess. I hope to one day be able to forgive like Jesus does. To have that kind of love for others despite what they do. Will be about that. Asking God to help me with those hard feelings and to let them go, ones about myself and ones about others.

[mlg]

goldie, forgiving others is sometimes one of the hardest things to do, especially when the person who has hurt you could care less that you are hurt. But that being said, it's what God would have us to do. It will also bring peace to your life. Right now your carrying around the grudges of your past with you, and they are holding you back from truly reaching your potential in your relationship with the Lord. You have to let it all go sis, and allow yourself to heal. No it's not easy, but God's there to help you do this. I will be praying for you also in this matter.

Goldie the Lord loves you so much. He so wants to see you grow sis, keep stepping out onto the path of Love, right behind Jesus one step at a time, one day at a time. You can do this sis.

luv ya goldie

[goldieluvs]

Day 5 Blame. My problem is Me, and I am selfish. Lots of mixed feelings. In trying to accurately analyze this have realized some character aspects that are not Christlike. I do alot of things wrong. and I think to say that myself is the problem is the whole root of the garden. Little pieces get pulled out but Me will always be the problem and which many obstacles come as a result, with God's help I am Overcoming some of the obstacles and with Gods continued Grace, overcoming will continue. Its like there are some HUGE things that need to be gone and outta my life and heart and mind for good, for God's glory. I desperately that I will continue to turn the reigns over to God. Jesus take the wheel. I like that song.

[susidivah]

Hey Goldie!

I blink my eyes and you are on Day 5 Sounds like you are walking along confidently with Him... wanted to comment on your last two steps...

Forgiveness- yes that's a toughie for me too, I think for many Constant every day meditation and devotional time with our Father has helped me a lot with rememberance that He wants us to love and forgive without condition. Being mindful in the moment of the unforgiveness, too, can help renew our thoughts and actions to His desires. Prayer is always good at this time too, at least I've discovered! I could go on and on...

But, the blame game I can relate to even more Selfishness can be my middle name even still at times, sis. Working on the weeds will eventually help with the roots, for what you plant next will be much more glorious and pleasing to our Lord and to YOU as an overcomer! But this time you take the glory and accomplishment not as your self but as He through you...

God bless, Goldie, you are doing great!
Susi

[mlg]

goldie

Well I must share with you, selfishness is something that many of us go through. We want, want, want, but don't want to give anything in return, and let something interfere with what we want, and oh boy it's on...

In truth, we have to let go over our own desires, when we truly desire to walk with the Lord. Our life should be all about Him, and not about us at all. The Lord will bless us with gifts, that will be far greater than our selfish desires.

Blame...looking for someone else to blame, as well as blaming ourselves. Two things we have to let go also. Ok so we all mess up, we've all done things we aren't proud of, it's time to take those things and say, I'm gonna do better, and those things are in the past, and I'm moving forward. If we sit around trying to find someone to blame, then we are only holding ourselves back and not allowing ourselves to move forward in our life as well as our relationship with the Lord.

Keep doing the steps goldie. Your growing in the Lord every step you take.

luv ya

[goldieluvs]

I was unable to complete the sixth step. I did manage to read it. It is going to take me awhile to digest it. Well, I had posted at my previous site on the 21st and i posted about feeling at peace and that I realized it came from trusting in God and talked about focusing on worldly things instead of God, I lose sight and then the world comes crashing in like a freight train and that right then I was at peace regardless of cicumstances. that I realized a few things and htat I knew no matter what I have gone thru or will go thru that as long as I stayed focused on God that it is so much easier and wished em peace ( O we need a peace sign for us hippies)

Ok well I received an IM from my friend ( who used to run the Christian aspect of the site) that stated they were asking all posters to not talk about God due to some drama about 9/11 and was trying to settle things down on the site.

This may be where i should've just Let Go and Let God, but I made a final posting. Where i made a general statement to all posters that was titled you got to stand for something or u'll fall for anything and that the site had been helpful to me in many ways and encouraged them to continue using the site as long as it has a positive influence in their lives. Life has many advenues of healing and i wished them peace.

And then under that I mentioned several friends where i said i was IM'd by a friend there who advised me that my previous post was inflammatory. (this person's name was included in the list) where i was leaving the site as i found myself confronted with the thought of staying here and essentially denying my faith, in that i cannot post it in public forum. and that i couldnt do, that I stand for God and my faith. I told them i luvd them all and wished em peace. ( mod- tell O we need a peace smilie for us hippies)

Ok as a response to that post my friend Imd me and said that I was baiting and trying to destroy the site. I told that friend that i was not trying to be inflammatory in my post cuz if i had i wouldve said alot more. And said i would take her off friends list as she had stated she was removing me from hers and that i was going to honor her request. And i said that I had always been open about my beliefs on the site before

Im looking for opinions. Should i have just stopped posting? Was the last post inflammatory/baiting? I dunno. Please share ur opinions over whether i was righteous or if shouldve just not posted at all after the IM?

[mlg]

goldie, a few things come to mind here. When Jesus was walking around teaching the people the way to Life, the Pharisees did everything they could to get him to quit. The same today, my sister. Satan doesn't want us to share God with the world, instead he will do anything he can, including making excuses of why you can't talk about God in worldly websites etc. I will tell you my sister, if God laid on your heart to place that post on that forum, then you would never have had peace if you had not.

Now, let's talk about this "friend". When you choose the Lord, there will come a time, you will loose friends and family. I know I have sis. The thing is, God is worth the loss. He is still here with me, and He's with you also. I know it hurts, and it's not easy, but the Holy Spirit will bring you comfort and peace. All you can do now is pray for this friend, and let them go. One of the hardest things I ever did was have to let a friend go, because they decided they didn't want to be my friend anymore...all because I chose God. But, God has blessed me and will do the same for you, with friends to replace the one you have lost.

Praying for you goldie.

luv ya sis

[goldieluvs]

Awww bless ya mlg thanks sis! I spent more time reviewing step six. its almost the halfway mark of the program. I see that this is a lifelong path. I will be working on my accountability log. I know there is much for me to let go of and give over to God. I just gotta continue to roll it onto Him. God's will, not mine. . I really need to learn to pay better attention. Am glad theres a peace sign here . GBU sis and thanks for the prayers. God is working in my life i know. I just gotta keep giving it over. God's will, not mine

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[Christianity Oasis]

( O we need a peace sign for us hippies)

Here ya go ...

[goldieluvs]

Awww bless ya O... ty so much bro. I LOVE this place.

Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound. That saved a wretch like me, I once was lost, but now i am found, twas blind but now I see. Thru many dangers, toils and snares. I have allready come. Twas grace thats brought me safe thus far... and Grace will lead me home.


Luv ya