Christianity Oasis Forum

[mlg]

rmarie, you have to take some time out of your busy day, to sit and talk with God. He wants to know what you are doing, He wants to be invited to spend the day with you. Give him the time you would anything else. I know it's easier to be lazy, but if you want to heal, then you are going to have to do your part also. God isn't going to push you into talking and sharing with HIM, but he's not going to share with you either, if He is being ignored.

Praying for you sis, keep doing the steps. You are growing, and I know you can feel the changes.

luv ya

[rmarie]

(Day 11)

I feel that I have completely surrendered myself to Jesus, but maybe not. I am not sure anymore about me. I know that God loves me, but those bad thoughts of me not loving me are coming back. I know that this is just the devil trying to get me to follow him and go away from God.
NO, DEVIL!!!!!! I LOVE JESUS TOO MUCH TO BELIEVE WHAT YOU ARE TRYING TO TELL ME!!!!!!

[mlg]

Yes, rmarie you can't listen to Satan's lies. He is telling you these things, as he doesn't like you doing the things you are for God, or the fact that he is loosing your thoughts to a new relationship with God. Keep up the fight. You have the God given Power over Satan to send him packing. Do just that.

luv ya

[rmarie]

(Day 12)

I know that everyday, I fall. The devil gets me to believe that I am worthless, ugly, dumb, and all those negative things that I hear in my head. Before, when I fell, I would just sit there and not get up. I felt like, God I am so not worth it. Just leave me here. I am a bad person.
Now when I fall, it is easier for me to get up. I just tell God that I am sorry for believing others and ignoring him. He is truly amazing and I am so glad to have a forgiving God.

[Guest]

awesome!! Rmarie thats great turning to God and saying I need you and Im sorry and letting him pick you up and dust you off is a wonderful step forward!!

Im so happy for you!! keep trusting in our father!!!

[rmarie]

(Day 13)

I am not really feeling that great today. I feel unwanted and unloved. I know that God loves me, and he is sitting next to me as I type this. I feel like the biggest disappointment in the world. I know that God loves me and is trying to get me help. He sent me to this really awesome chat room where there are people who truly understand how I am feeling. They don't try to understand, they just do. He has sent me many people in my life to help me with this journey towards him. He has never given up on me, even when I have given up on him. He loves me. For real. He isn't like, I will love you, no matter what. I created you this way. Now, I personally feel at times that I don't deserve this amazing love that God has for me. I am a sinner. Why would someone want to love me with this unconditional love? I know why. He wants me to know that no matter what is happening with me, someone loves me. That someone is God himself.

[susidivah]

AMEN rmarie!

Remember we are ALL sinners, unworthy of grace, but He died for us because of that awesome unconditional love we can't fathom.

It was great seeing you last night in program and getting to chat with you a lil. I was just reading the rest of your blog and sis, you really have come a long way! One more day, then the adventure truly begins: using what you have learned everyday to keep changing for Him and adding your garden to the Kingdom.

Keep fighting rmarie... remember we here as well

Susi

[rmarie]

(Day 14)

Today is my last day of this CCC. I have learned so many new things to help with me with my journey with God. All this time, I was looking everywhere for him, and he was sitting right next to me, waiting for me to open my eyes and see him. His love for me is so amazing. He never left me. It amazes me that he would wait for me. I just can't uderstand it. I have left him behind so many times, but he waited for me. He loves me. He waited for me to find him. He never forgot me. He knows every mark on my body. This was an amazing journey for me. Thanks to everyone who has been there with me these fourteen days. God has put some amazing people in my life.

[Guest]

woo hooo congrats on finishing up your last day!!!

Keep your eyes focus on the Lord and he will guide you through everything.

[mlg]

rmarie, you finished the race sis, I'm so proud of you, and I know you are proud too. Now that you have finished the Counseling, keep pushing forward to the next plan God has for you. I'm sure it's going to keep getting better and better.

luv ya sis