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[Mackenaw]

Hello Dora

God bless you this day.

What an uplifting and inspiring post -- full of hope and the love of Christ.

Awesome! Thank you for sharing.

God bless and keep you.
Love,
Mack

[Dora]

Thank you Mack. I never know if what I share is appropriate. I don't seem to have that filter of what to type and what not to type. When talking I tend to be more quiet than talkative. Unless my bipolar takes me into mania. Then I talk talk talk.

I don't have any great revelations today.

I did fail and had a few sips of alcohol last night. I dumped out the rest of my glass. I didn't like the way it made me feel. I think it's because of the strong psych meds I'm on. Alcohol and meds just don't mix. Who needs alcohol when we've got Christ anyway.

Todays bible study is about trusting in God. We don't have to be anxious about anything. Trust is difficult isn't it? The more I rely on God and know that He loves me and has a good and perfect plan for me and my loved ones brings so much peace. We are so blessed to have such a loving Father. He is so amazing!

My mom lost her leg because her blood wasn't flowing to her extremities. She needs her second leg amputated as it's covered in huge sores. We've been praying and God has answered that prayer. My sister shared this about my mom, "I just can't say how great our God is! Mom's nurse came in Tuesday to doctor her leg. She stopped and said "Wilds your leg is bleeding!" It kind of scared mom and Glenda but the nurse said "No that's a good thing! That means you're getting blood circulating down your leg!" That means IT'S HEALING!!!!!!!!"

Isn't that amazing!!!!!! If God can and is willing to do that He can do anything.

“But blessed is the one who trusts in the Lord,
whose confidence is in him.
They will be like a tree planted by the water
that sends out its roots by the stream.
It does not fear when heat comes;
its leaves are always green.
It has no worries in a year of drought
and never fails to bear fruit.”

[Dora]

After my church has fallen apart I'm coming closer to the understanding of what the church is. We are the church. If I'm in a house of worship or I'm at work I'm at church. Looking for God in all things. Especially at this time I'm looking for him for peace to my broken mind. Though on the highest dose of many medications that are suppose to help me I still struggle with suicidal idealizations and self harm thoughts. Ugh. I'm just so ready for peace. I do find it when I focus completely on the Holy Spirit. It's so hard to walk though life focusing on Him so completely. I had prophecy spoken tonight that I'm going to be completely healed and able to help others one day. I ache for that day.

On a good note God has blessed my husband. He has been off the chemo pills for three weeks and his levels are where they are suppose to be. He's claiming to be healed. It's thrilling to see God working in his life.

God is good in the good and in the bad. He's still good. He's still God.

[Mackenaw]

It is so good to hear from you. (((hugs)))

You and Cubby continue in my prayers to The Lord in the name of Jesus. God's will be done.

Isn't it wonderful having The Holy Spirit with you throughout the day and night? Thank You Lord God Almighty.

God bless and keep you, Dora.
Love,
Mack

[mlg]

Hi Dora,

Just stopping by to let you know that I love you.

Take care

[Dora]

Aw thanks Mlg! Hug! I love you too!

Things have been whirlwind. My son was diagnosed with depression. My mother in law was diagnosed with lung cancer, and I was diagnosed with mild cognitive dysfunction. That explains a lot! On the good side my spouse isn't taking any chemo right now and only needs to see a doctor once a month. That's really good news! Despite the negative that comes into our lives we are so blessed by Jesus. I've quit drinking wine because it makes the cognitive dysfunction worse. Therapy is teaching me a lot of how to overcome many of my mental issues. I'm so glad God brought me to this place where I can get therapy.

[ciny]

Hi Dora I have been having a hard time telling my church family from the world ...you are so right our bodies are the the church and were ever we go is the church weather we are at work or at home or on the street praying for you that Jesus floods your heart and mind with his peace and comfort !

[Dora]

Thank you Ciny! Thank you so much.

I was thinking the other day how God is so huge. He could be scary. Wish one whisper he could burn this entire planet in seconds turning it into nothing but ashes scattered through the universe. But He doesn't. Instead He is a God that wants to be near us and in us and all through us and our days. A loving God that is tender and sweet. We can not begin to understand just how amazing He is or we would be blown away. Our natural bodies couldn't handle that knowledge so for now we can feel just the perfect amount of God through the Holy Spirit.

Life is ruff but then there's God! His love and kindness and forgiveness.

[ciny]

Your welcome Dora amen God is always here to listen to us and loves us with an everlasting love and always willing forgive us we have a hope and a future in him !

[Dora]

Wow! I have no right to be here. I"m no way a called person.
I'm sick. Mentally. I need a hospital.
Other alters of me showed up this morning when I took a dive. I was to tired to continue. I couldn't come back until my dog licked my face. She grounded me and brought me back. I'm so messed up. I can see how someone who's been through what I went through could be this way but I thought I was more rounded.
I may be gone a while while I seek help. I need more than I'm getting.

[ciny]

Wow! I have no right to be here. I"m no way a called person.
I'm sick. Mentally. I need a hospital.
Other alters of me showed up this morning when I took a dive. I was to tired to continue. I couldn't come back until my dog licked my face. She grounded me and brought me back. I'm so messed up. I can see how someone who's been through what I went through could be this way but I thought I was more rounded.
I may be gone a while while I seek help. I need more than I'm getting.

You are called Dora you have helped sooo many people on here including me you reached out to me when i first joined this site and always say the right thing that i needed to here to go on keep fighting the faith you are way stronger that you think you are there is nothing wrong with getting the extra help you need to heal praying for you and i'am here for you love you God is right there with you !!

[Mackenaw]

Hello Dora (((hugs)))

God bless you this day.

I echo what Ciny wrote...You are called! Amen!
I am sending up prayers to The Lord in the name of Jesus on your behalf. I pray you get the medical and psychology support you seek by God's leading. God's will be done.

Jesus loves you, Piney. The Lord will never leave nor forsake you. Whatever our ailments, The Lord is there with us.

I love you, Piney. You have touched so many lives and hearts over the years...for the good. And one of those lives and hearts is mine.

God bless and keep you.
Love,
Mack