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[pamelatrostle]

I found this website yesterday and immediately started working step 1. Journaling is not easy for me but I am willing to do what God puts in front of me to do. I have struggled with an addiction to prescription pain pills for the past 25 years. Today I am sober and am thankful to Jesus for taking that obsession from me. As you may have guessed my life up to this point has been a series of chaos.I lost my husband, children and was homeless at one point. God carried me thru because I had lost all hope. Suicide was a real option. There were times I didn't want to wake up and just getting out of bed was all the strength I could muster. But I continued to pray and talk to Jesus. Today I have my family and home back. Thank God! My struggles today seem minor but am determined to embark on this spiritual journey. I need help though. I am alone most of the day due to health issues. Sometimes its just good to know that I am not alone. I have days when Gods presence seems distant. On those days all I can do is pray and hang on. I am a worrier which creates high anxiety. I want Gods peace in my life. If anybody can relate to this please let me know.

[HisOwn]

pamelatrostle » Fri Aug 09, 2013 9:36 am
I am starting a new thread for Pamela. May GOD answer her heart's cry.
this is what Pamela shared:
"I found this website yesterday and immediately started working step 1. Journaling is not easy for me but I am willing to do what God puts in front of me to do. I have struggled with an addiction to prescription pain pills for the past 25 years. Today I am sober and am thankful to Jesus for taking that obsession from me. As you may have guessed my life up to this point has been a series of chaos.I lost my husband, children and was homeless at one point. God carried me thru because I had lost all hope. Suicide was a real option. There were times I didn't want to wake up and just getting out of bed was all the strength I could muster. But I continued to pray and talk to Jesus. Today I have my family and home back. Thank God! My struggles today seem minor but am determined to embark on this spiritual journey. I need help though. I am alone most of the day due to health issues. Sometimes its just good to know that I am not alone. I have days when Gods presence seems distant. On those days all I can do is pray and hang on. I am a worrier which creates high anxiety. I want Gods peace in my life. If anybody can relate to this please let me know."

[pamelatrostle]

Thank you for the response. Im not real good navigating the computer yet and so am still a little slow. What is threading?

[HisOwn]

you did a "thread" when you asked me that. You can click "post reply" or "quick reply" like you did and from now on this is YOUR personal "thread" to journal or ask questions. But you are also welcome to click on mine called stepping stones and ask or post, just thought you might like your own.
It takes time to get used to how forums can work.
You are doing GOOD.
God bless you and look forward to chatting with you here and in the room.
Hugs ...HisOwn

[pamelatrostle]

Today is day 5. I feel finally that Im on the right path. My weed is impatience. I want Gods peace so badly that I am willing to trust it will come. I have hope and that is something I haven't had for a long long time. Reminding myself to just be grateful for the things I have:warm bed,food,family and last but not least my faith back! Sometimes I feel frustrated because I would love to be out feeding the homeless or in general helping another human being but due to transportation problems,its just not possible right now. So Im trying to do what God puts in front of me today.Im computer challenged but its been a lifesaver. God has lead me here.Thank God for this ministry and the people that take their time to help us. Somebody said 'YOU CANT SOLVE A PROBLEM WITH THE SAME MIND THAT CREATED IT".

[HisOwn]

Thank you for sharing Cool quote.

[chriswag]

Thanks for sharing. God bless you and hope you continue strong in your walk with GOD.

[Jamie808]

Just wanted to say welcome Pamela. I'm so glad God lead you here. I love you in the Lord and are excited about the new work God is doing in your life. He has helped me SO MUCH since being here and I've only been here about 3 weeks.
I did the same thing you're doing. I just jumped in and started a study and kept at it. A couple day's it was hard, but the Lord gave me a HUGE BLESSING from doing it.

BTW...I totally get the impatience thing. Someone told me yesterday that "waiting on Him" is an act of love.

God Bless You
Jamie

[wellswimmer]

I am new to this site, but just read your post on step 5 I think. We all have something we struggle with for some reason. I understand yours implicitly. Not easy by any means. One single second at a time if necessary. I have a very steep hill I have to walk home EVERYDAY. And the weather where I live is outrageously hot and humid. I have often found myself thinking "I cannot do this today." but one foot after another always brings me to the threshold of home.

So much love for you, in your struggle for that one more step. Prayer and encouragement. Peace will come.