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[broken_memories]

Hmm, ok this stepping stone was interesting. I was told to forgive myself. This has me thinking alot. I have not been to bed yet so I figured it was ok to do the lesson and then go to bed. God's grace is enough to cover my sins. I am still skeptical about this to be honest. I know that God was both man and God but I am leery of trusting the man. Yea, I know that because he was part man he understands feelings and all the things that follow in that but man is weak and falls to earthly temptation. I am not sure. Ok, now to write notes on what I see from the beginning of the lesson to the end. I know that God gave his only son for my salvation and all I have to do is reach out and grab it. It is a free gift. "Believing in Jesus, cleanses away OUR past sins." Ok... so what if I am still not believing in God all that much. I have said that I do believe there is a God. Yes, I do believe in God but I dont trust him. I understand that He layed his life down for mine and I also know its not just to recieve and say ok Im not going to hell. I know there is work to be done to get to where He wants me to be. Well, there's my hang up... How do I get to that place where He wants me to be? I know it takes trust, but how can one trust when life has hurt them so deeply? Just something that is running through my head. I know that the best thing to do is when I fall to dust myself off and get back up to fight even harder and endure even more. How long must I endure before the path is semi safe? So, faith establishes my works... I am seeing myself in alot of trouble there. God can forgive and forget. This makes me think of that song by Casting Crowns... East to West. That He takes my sins and throws them as far away as possiable and remembers no more. Maybe He can forgive my sins. Maybe I need to just trust a little. Not enough to hurt but just enough to prove He is trustworthy? So, God used King David's bloodline for Jesus even after adultery had taken place. Maybe by me trusting some He can take the mess i have made in my life and make it a message for others? So, my sins cannot undo God's grace. I need to repent to get it. This sounds too easy. I dont have to work towards His love or anything. Not even to gain trust. LET GO AND LET GOD! Let go of MY problems, and Let God remove them! I am seriously wondering if this is even possiable. I see that the hardest things for me to do is to forgive myself and trust God. I am not sure how to do that but I can try and seek answers by asking questions. God's grace... huh? Just repent and accept... no strings attached. I will think on it, maybe even pray on it.

[dema]

It is interesting to read the geneology of Jesus. The women mentioned are:

The woman who was Uriah's wife. The account doesn't mention her name. And yet David was a man after God's own heart.

Rahab - who had been a prostitute.

Perez - who tricked her father-in-law into gettting her pregnant by pretending to be a prostitute.

Ruth - who was a Moabitess and was banned from the congregation of the Lord.

The women who were good, obedient Jewish women aren't mentioned. But the ones who were outrageous are. And bearing children was the shining star of a woman's life. So mentioning them here was showing them as blessed.

God chose younger sons and smaller tribes and people who did not fit in. God is God. And he knows the flesh is weak.

I'm sorry you were hurt. You were hurt through the free will of man. That is the source of all hurt. Satan has no power over the race without mankind giving him power.

Yes, what you said is trued. Let God be God and you be the little child. Wish I could get that right all the time myself.

Hugs.