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[Bristollayne]

I'm not a gardening type of person. My parent's are huge into weeding and I'm not fooling anyone. When I was a kid we got paid 3cents per dandalion root. We broke our parents when we were younger and our yard was GREEN! I'm sure that killed gardening for me.

Gardening my own life: In the last year I have switched from various music groups to strictly a Christian Radio Station, mybridgeradio.net where I am able to listen to commercial free and news select radio. I down loaded tons of songs onto my smart phone and plug my headphones in as often as possible.
I bought a purse. Yeah, I know, I'm a girl and this is my first purse. Why did I buy a purse? So I could carry my daily devotional at all times. Yup, I wanted my Bible with me where ever I was going. I am able to do the same thing with my new smart phone but opening up my Bible at church or out and about is comforting. For Valentine's Day I got a Bible Case which had all the bells and whistles of a purse but the main purpose is for the BIBLE! I love it!
I was introduced to a church that was non-denominational with my last bf and continued to go until I asked my landlord's where a good church in town was, they sent me to theirs. We, as a family, attended once in the summer which turned out to be the not so best day to attend due to the pastor being out of town for the youth retreat. We did return six weeks later and haven't been to any other church since. I learned, though I had already known, that I am a dirty, rotten, filthy, stinken, stupid sinner and I accepted that. It was and still is the TRUTH.
I started reading the Bible. Though I was never taught the books of the Bible nor was I encouraged to memorize scripture, I have now made it through the first four books as of today. I finished Numbers this afternoon. I'm sure once I am through reading it I will read it in a different light over again. I am looking forward to that.
I started to pray. All my life I have had conversations with my dead grandma, just because I didn't know her well. I detested God for allowing the things that happened to me to happen and I always used the phrase, "God and I are in a fight. I won't win but I'm still fighting." (Honestly, fighting Him isn't a good idea)
Once I started to pray (talk) to God, I grew to know Him, just not close enough, which is where the Bible comes in. God has worked His plan through me but only when I look back do I see His accomplishments. I have asked for forgiveness and have confessed all the sins I know I've committed. I'm sure there are some that I don't even realize are sin.
I began just this week to pray when I get up, where I would pray throughout the day and at night always but never in the morning, unless I had already been in my car. I see and feel how He is humbling me. I am gracious for His attention to little grasshopper, me. I pray at meals and with my children. I have even brought God into our conversations asking them who are we living for and they say God. I love that they know it now unlike me at their age.
I need to read more in the Bible, a specific time each day, so that I become obedient in His Word, and reliant in His Promises!
I need to focus on God more and not on myself.
I need to be submissive to my husband. (ladies please, if this is difficult for you also, please share)
I need to reduce my cursing. I'm not a swearing sailor but when I am angry I am bad.
I need to stop thinking I need to fit in, where I am as natural as I can be legally. I do not purchase fashionable clothes, or eat at high priced places. I do not wear makeup or style my hair like girly/girls. This would be me spending too much focus on myself. God has provided for me, why Jones it out?
Thank you for allowing this type of communication. With a common purpose and an AWESOME GOD, we know we can be what He wants us to be.
May you find peace while trying to weed your garden also! ~Bristollayne