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[InQuestofAwe]

all this time I've been worried about repentance. like I didn't know what it meant. some people say it's like a 360 turn around, a total change, and other people say it's being sorry and I've even had people tell me that it's just saying "I repent" out loud. The total change part made sense so I wanted that but I couldn't figure out how to do it. Gods been reminding of lots wife off and on for a while now and I couldn't figure out what he was getting at. But when I saw the words "idle time" in today's step It was like "oh I know where this is going. and it just hit me, and then this sermon started on tv about lots wife and how she had that longing in her heart for sodom and thats why she looked back. I just realized that the only way to repent from my sins and stop sinning is to completley focus on God. I used to love Him and focus on him and then I got distracted and stopped looking at him and I forgot that he was beautiful, and my heart got cold and angry and my spirit was starving so I was violent and greedy. but the only thing that can save me is to obsess over Him and devote myself entirely to him and what ever he takes away was useless to begin with and whatever He demands is good please please pray for me that I won't lose this revelation. because it is in my heart. words that I have heard and spoken are alive and I don't want to lose this little bit of lucidity. When I was little I had a dream that I was asleep in bed with my parents and we heard trumpets. and my dad woke up all calm and said "well it's the rapture" and then the whole room was filled with this beautiful soft blue light and God's voice said "Arise" and my parents stood up in bed and they floated and the light changed them so they were wearing beautiful clothes and their faces and bodies were changed and they were just floating and staring up and He said It again "Arise" and I was too scared to get up I was afraid that he couldn't possibly mean me, but he said it again and I still just sat there. That dream has haunted me my whole life but I think now that I know how to stand up. I have to give myself to Him. I'm gonna make a chart now.

[dema]

When a child isn't loved properly as a child, she has trouble receiving love as an adult. When a child is taught that she is only loved for what she does, then she runs around crazy-like trying to earn God's love.

God's love is free. The Bible says that Jesus went through the cross like a woman in childbirth. The child beeing born hasn't DONE anything.

Sometimes people struggle to be good enough, to be lovable enough... it is like a horn blowing revele

I can't do do enough, I can't do enough, I can't do enough in the mo-ooorning

I can't do enough, I can't do enough, I can't do enough at all

I pray three hours in the morning
I read three books in the evening
I beat my back in the night time
But I'm not good enough at all.


Jesus died for your sins. They are forgiven. God wants your presence. And he wants you to listen.

"Oh, no, Oh , no, Oh, no. I can't listen. God hates me. I can't hear how God hates me. I can't hear what a sinner I am."

While we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.

God wants to tell you he LOVES you. Relax. Listen. Sit. You don't have to work hard. You don't have to prove that you are passionate for God. Sit with him. Listen. Let him put his arms around you.

People kill more house plants by overwatering. People get more frustrated with religion by over doing.

Let go. Relinquish. Don't worry about your sins. They are forgiven. Don't worry about what you need to do. The most important thing is just being. Just be. Be a little newborn babe in the arms of Jesus. Be there.

God is in the peace. Seek peace.

I think lots of people need to hear this so I will post it elsewhere as well. Hugs.

[Mackenaw]

Hello InQuestofAwe

God bless you this day.

Yes, Amen, I think you've got it...you've got Him, and wooooohoooooo The Holy Spirit is bearing witness with your spirit and you are indeed receiving His blessed message. Keep your eyes upon Jesus!!! Hallelujah!!! Thank You Holy Spirit for the awesome revelation given to InQuestofAwe.

Keep embracing the blessed message within the Scriptures/His Word shared in each Stepping Stone. It is nourishment to your soul. He is loving you through HIs Word and growing you up strong.

Prayers continue to rise to our Lord in the name of Jesus on your behalf. May God's blessed will be done.

God bless and keep you, InQuestofAwe.
In Christ Jesus' love,
Sister Mack

[Paloma]

wow, this post really inspired me. It's true...because when we turn our complete attention to God, we change. The changes may not be apparent to others, or maybe not even to ourselves, but when we give ourselves wholly and completely to God, He shapes and molds us...I love that saying, "I'm not where I used to be, and I'm not where I should be". Something like that, but I think that says it all. God is not done working with me, I'm not at the finish line, but I'm not at the starting line of this race too. I'm walking steadily towards the finish line--the place that God has already prepared for me.

[InQuestofAwe]

walking is good. running seems to get me tripped up.