Christianity Oasis Forum

[dema]

I looked up a couple of the topic studies. Good job, whomever did them.

There is still the daily issue that my husband is trying to do better and is dealing with a lot of issues that he brought on himself and is still trying to lean on me. But, I am no longer strong enough to be leant on. And I am not at all sure that I want his leaning.

I feel strongly that particularly due to the verbal abuse, in light of the rejection of Christianity, that I am free to leave this marriage. Not required to, free to.

And the response of my heart is usually, "Not today." Some days, things go pretty well and I think that the marriage will make it. Other days, I feel that my husband will always be a weight around my neck, sucking away all the goodness and light in the world.

Today is the latter. But, today both his and my children and grandchildren will be here.

How can life look so different on different days?

[Dora]

Dema I'm thrilled you are able to see he is trying to make changes.

Possibly you are the one who will show this lost soul that he is to lean on God. Though he may reject your words about God now, in the dark moments when he's hit the bottom those words may surface and be the seeds God uses to save him.

I'd like to encourage you to keep seeking God and His good will. Praying for you and him.