Christianity Oasis Forum

[dabs316]

Remember that song, Mack? I'm up to Stone #8, Trials, counting them all joy. Not for the trial but for the chance to obtain victory through faith. Well, I mistakenly was thinking that the self-accusing thoughts of my mind were a thing of the past. I didn't spend much time in prayer this morning. I had a niggling feeling I shoulda not done that. Last night I had an excellent time with God, giving Him praise and thanks for all He has been doing in my life these past few months, recounting the journey. It was a sweet time. Maybe that's why I felt I could skip by this morning.

This afternoon as I was typing, I got hit with an onslaught of the "old" waves of thinking. In comes jealousy, pride, slander, etc. The whole gamut! I didn't stop at the time, I just wrote thoughts down to come back to and deal with later which I did in my private journal. I acknowledged the thoughts as sin, asked for forgiveness, and put them under the blood of Christ, affirming that I stand forgiven in Him. I am the righteousness of God.

I have to admit this is new territory for me. Normally I would not forgive myself and would hurl a tsunami of negative accusations against myself -- which I now know is from the enemy. But to put it under Christ's blood feels like I haven't beaten myself up sufficiently - you know, pay what I owe. I'm talking feelings now - not rational thought. I know that is not reality but it is something that is not comfortable to me yet. It's like slipping my feet into someone else's shoes.

BUT I CHOOSE to accept God's forgiveness because Jesus paid a price I could never pay. I receive it and stand on that solid foundation.

[Mackenaw]

Hello Dabs

God bless you this day.

Oh Dabs, I'm so happy for you. Wooooooooohooooooo!!!

That's how you do it, take it to the cross. Repent, pray, seek His face, and be renewed. Amen!!!

God is so Awesome. Thank You Jesus!!!

Yes, it will take a while for it to start feeling more "natural" if you will, because you are still learning who you are in Christ. In some ways we're a stranger to ourselves. But, keep believing and seeking Him and then one day it won't feel as "out of character". Our emotional "reflexes" will also bow to Him, given a little time; especially when you keep reaching for Him and His blessed fruit.

God is so Good.

Thank you for sharing, Dabs.

God bless and keep you.
Love,
Mack

[GrandStander]

I used to dwell on the past ...not so much now, His Grace is sufficient..truly so. Do you have to forgive yourself? (confess, repent, ask FOR forgiveness and sin no more basically) If you place some type of self forgiveness then you are placing God's forgiveness as inferior to your own......and that is not the case. Focus on His Grace, His Grace, His Grace.............and Look "ABOVE" then forward! God Bless..onward and UPWARD!!