Springs, streams, and rushing rivers: whisp blog

[Whisperingsprings]

mlg you have no idea how grateful I am for your tips. It helps to take some stress away.

I've also been praying that God would change me. To help me see things a bit differently. This is a painful process though and it seems that so much pain has occurred already. I . . . . am running out of something or other emotionally. I am becoming angry

Your advice and prayers with my praying is very helpful. Thank you.

[mlg]

Hey sis....yep I know...I call it stages..first the grieving and hurting stage....then the anger stage...then the exhaustion stage...then the healing stage...it takes time sis...but getting through it with Jesus is easier.

Another tip sis...don't ever say anything bad about the kids dad in front of them...lest they rebel against you later...keep your feelings about what dad has done and is doing to you away from the kids..I know it's hard...but it's best for the kids.

luv ya

[Whisperingsprings]

Got it. Thanks for that tip too. I don't want them to think bad about their dad and he feels the same.

Last night I took extra of my antidepressant with my usual dose of mild sedative to sleep. I still didn't sleep well. The couch . . . .

I should name this couch. I've spent so much time on it over the last 2-3 years, . I think it's going to be a friend with a name and everything eventually.

I'm tired. I need a short nap if nothing else. Then I need to get to work. Laundry, getting the kids active etc. I think the oldest one is watching tv again. what to do? Maybe Starbucks

[mlg]

maybe today would be a good day for the library as well...take the kids to look for some books they might like to read and that would give you a bit of quiet as well.

luv ya sis hang in there

[Whisperingsprings]

oiye

[Whisperingsprings]

My goodness, that was rough.

How is it that a 2-5 minute conversation can turn one upside down, nauseous, stressed out, and wondering what in the world just happened?

Oiye!!!!!!

Anywhoosie, got through that moment. Read with the children and now they are finally in bed. I am struggling with bedtime time - if that makes any sense. However, reading a bedtime story even just 3 pages helps immensely. I feel like I'm getting somewhere.

I didn't realize that I was such a focus driven person. I guess figuring out what I wanted by a young age (pre tween) must have done that for me. I could sit and hate all the mess that I went through as a child, but that is the very stuff that is keeping me alive and keeping my children alive and healthy.

Those stumbling blocks of pain, God is now using for stepping stones. Nothing was wasted. Well, to be perfectly honest, it seems like almost nothing was wasted. Some of the other stuff . . . I sit and wonder in saddness. At times, I see it more clearly than others. The final result - I mean for me. And, everything turns out okay for me. But, I can't see for my babies. That is concerning. very . . . . very . . . . concerning.

hugs to everyone,
goodnight,
whisp

[mlg]

you keep your focus on God and those kids and you will get through all of this. You are a good mom...a mom that cares in a world of so many uncaring people. Those children need you and God knew you'd take good care of them when He entrusted you with their care.

Praying for you sis.

luv ya lots

[Whisperingsprings]

Thank you mlg. You really know how to cheer a person through craziness.

Have a good day everyone.

[Whisperingsprings]

No tattling.

Ya know, sometimes venting is venting.

Sometimes venting is tattling.

And those are 2 very different things that can happen with the exact same bit of information.

[mlg]

how very right you are sis...I think you hit the nail on the head with that one.

luv ya

[Whisperingsprings]

If anyone finds a coffin,

could you please send it to 1313 Dead Duck Road, Shallow Grave, Georgia 13131-1313?????

I could really use a peaceful long nap about now. (sigh)

Just one more night of work tonight and and then hopefully better sleep.

[mlg]

Head up sis...God's still on His throne and He has the strength to get you through all things.

luv ya