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[sweetlittleangel]

Im still a learner..
Sweetlittleangel a.k.a sla.. why I choose this username?.. that is because it reminded me of.. there is always an angel around us and among us.. in time of need there is always a helping hand to keep us strong and standing tall.. it could be our family n frens or strangers (very thankful to all of them).. there is always, always a sweet little angel will be there to help us.. well, a little bit testimony about me.. would rather not to talk about it at first.. but should not keep God's goodness for myself.. i have underwent for spinal implant surgery years ago for my scoliosis.. had it since 11 yrs old.. before that, i was physically normal.. i had two major curve on my spine.. which is pretty severe.. as the spine hold everything in our body, more or less the s-shaped spine has affected my other body functional system including respiration system (the affected rib cage has squeezed my organs which are the lungs n the heart)..i could only breath in 250ml oxygen out of 2500ml (supposed to be 1000ml n above is considered healthy) and also affected my nerves system.. other than that i couldnt feel more of my rib as it has moved away from where its supposed to belong.. on the day of my operation.. my parent wasnt there with me.. why? it was because the doctor got to tell me about the exact date and time.. at the very last minute.. which was the nite before my surgery.. whoa!.. that very same fternoon the doctor told my parent that the surgery have been be postponed to the following week.. so the very next morning (8am) i was stretched out frm the ward and only escorted by two lovely nurses towards OT.. still clearly remembered it was very cold and i was shivering in the operation theatre.. not because i was scared.. but because of the very low temperature in the OT.. they had to regain my normal body temperature before they could proceed with the surgery.. so they put some hot water balloons on my feet n on my hands.. and then they put the drip on.. to my suprised i didnt even feel scared or panicked.. i was very calmed n relaxed and i was lying on the stretcher in the operation room.. i know it was God had granted me with His peace n His comfort.. He was there with me and holding me.. and then they put on oxygen mask.. and poof... the next thing i knew was i was lying in the ICU room.. the operation took 12 hours (9am-9pm) i wondered wether all the surgeons had taken their lunch or not during the surgery.. lost several pints of blood.. ty to the whoever donors.. next, i was admittted to ICU.. 2 days coma.. friday was the day of my operation n i was awake frm coma on sunday morning.. the first thing i heard in my ears was awake was my aunt's voice.. only could hear it but couldnt open my eyes.. she said to me that her son has draw something for me.. but sadly, couldnt see the drawing.. and after that doctors checked my sense of touching on my leg.. they were afraid if still have it or i might loss it which means paralyzed.. and praise God.. i could still move my leg when doctor asked me too.. they all amazing.. since there s one young man had the same operation as mine.. but im really sorry for him because he got paralyzed fter his operation.. yes, the doctor have told us earlier tht was the risk.. and very thank God tht i was ok.. later at nite.. i could slowly opened my eyes.. as i looked around the ICU (it not like i see u or u see me.. j/k) it filled with all unconcious patients and all were breathing with the helped of ETT machine including me.. there were wires everywhere.. the drip, the pulse wire, the blood drip and the plasma drip..it was a scary environment to be considered.. but thanks God i wasnt scared by the surrounding.. on the second day..afternoon.. in that ICU.. smtg has hhpnd to me.. my lungs got infected n I could hardly breath as it was very painful.. i thought i was dying.. but suddenly.. with all my might.. i raised my right hand (with all the drip n other wire sticking on it).. and i waved to evry person whoever is passing by my bed..as I was really hoped they could help me out.. i felt soo desperate just to breath in..just one more breath or small amount of oxygen.. then i was unconcious.. for the second time i was brought to OT.. the surgeons made a small hole on my right upper shoulder to drain out the dirty blood.. after that they would gave the painkillers shot on my wrist (it was morphine if i may say it here) every 4 hours (ouch, hurts..since i was swelling they kinda hard to find my vein.. they ve to inject the needles few time to get to the right vein).. 4 days later.. they had slowly put out the breathing machine and the oxygen mask.. and they teached me to breath on my own.. they wouldnt want me to depend only on the machine.. i was transferred to a normal ward.. and was hospitalised for 2 month.. i couldnt walked on my own for about 4-5 months.. went for a few physiotherapy session.. i couldnt get up frm my bed on my own.. had to be assisted by my mother.. i have to learn evrything frm the start.. feel just like a baby.. until one morning.. i didnt even realized how i got up on my own! ty God! i was very suprised.. and was sitting by my bed and wondering how did i managetoo.. i knew it was God!.. time to time.. finally i iould walk on my own.. too i was suprised.. hmm.. praise God! there s been a lot of helping hands n i received a lot of prayers frm relatives n frens.. before I was discharged.. the doctors reminded me not to fall down anytime because if I did, my spine might break n it ll put me into a risky situation.. but I did fell twice since then.. one was when we visited a cave.. the trail was so slippery and zapppp! i fell on my back.. my parent was panicked n i too.. but thanks God, I was okay.. second was in the fish pond.. was very excited chasing the fish n there i went.. fell again.. n one big rock just beside my head.. I would have hit that rock.. but Jesus is my rock! powerful than tat rock.. yihoooo... He has protected me cause i was ok.. frm the surgery.. they ve implanted a metal rod along my curvy spine.. yes it hurts sometimes n stiff.. in fact evryday (even now when im typing).. but im used to it and have learned to live with pain.. most of all learned the art His patient and the art of silent.. God had granted me with a peace of mind about my situation.. so i dont harbor a bitterness about it.. i believe God had plan for me.. thats why He created us.. i dunno why.. but im focusing on God's will n to God's glory.. yes there s up n down in my life along the way till now.. there were other more challenges other than physical challenge.. since life is a constant battle..we have to face those battles one after another.. have to fight it with God helping us through it all.. the faith race for us to run.. run the race and focus on Jesus.. never let the trials to distract.. focus on the eternal reward.. and im still under construction.. reaching to another level of faith one after another.. towards faith maturity.. He is still at work with us.. and in the end God's Will be done.. God catched me everytime im fell n rested on His shoulder when im tired.. i tried to live one day at a time.. with God gave me strength to.. we all do have scars in our life.. and that scars tell that we had live and God was there with us.. HE had been there all along.. I guess thts all for now.. I will keep it updated whenever I remembered some of it.. since it somehow affected my memory too.. God bless all n love all in Christ

2 Corinthians 4:8, 9
We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair;persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.

2 Corinthians 4:18:
So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

[Mackenaw]

Hello Sweetlittleangel

What a lovely testimony to our Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ. Thank You Jesus.

Thank you for sharing. You are such a sweet inspiration.

God's blessings to you, Sweetlittleangel.
Love,
Sister Mack

[rmarie]

Thanks, Sweetlittleangel for sharing your testimony. You are a true inspiration. With all that you went through, you still looked to God. That is amazing. I wish that I had that strength when I was struggling with things in my life. Thank you so much.

[stargazer777]

AWWWWW lil angel!
how very strong you are and an amazin inspiration to all around ya!
you represent Christ so vibrantly in your life sis, i wonder what those nurses and caregivers were thinkin when they saw the peace in ya. sis thank you soooo much for sharing this too, its very uplifting and glorious to see God in His lil angels. (beautiful name by the way)

I'll see ya soon lil angel, God bless ya!
-ur sis in Christ, starry!

Jesus Rawkz!!!

[Show Forth the Praises]

What a beautiful testimony!

The doctors, nurses and others surely saw Jesus in you.

I've had two major spinal surgeries, but no implants. I've lived with pain for 23 years.

God bless you as you are a wonderful miracle and testimony.

Stay strong in our Lord.

Your sister in Christ--------

PAMELA