Christianity Oasis Forum

[rmarie]

(Day 5)
When it is time for me to put my blame on someone, I usually put it on me. I feel that if I blame myself, then the person that I am actually mad at, won't get more angry with me. Blame is one of those hard things for me. I know that what is going on with me isn't my fault, but I just start blaming myself. I know that God knows that I struggle with this. He is waiting for me to realize that I am not the one to be blamed. I am love and I was created out of love. This is a really hard concept for me to put my mind around, but I know that no matter what, God will always be there waiting for me.

[mlg]

rmarie, your right it is easier to blame ourselves, but what happens that is that blame we carry around becomes harder because it's baggage. Think of a suitcase. When it's empty, it's easy to roll, when you add clothes to it, it becomes harder and harder to roll. The more you add the harder to carry. This is how blame does us. The more we tack on the harder it becomes to deal with.

Keep doing the steps. God does love you, you were created out of His love, and with Him things will be easier.

luv ya sis

[rmarie]

(Day 6)

I am still feeling at peace. I am not good at charts and I know that is what it says to do. I know that I struggle with prayer. I go to church every Sunday with my mom. I just know that I am not really on track with my faith, but I am trying really hard. The thing I struggle with is that I know I should pray, but I can't seem to find time to do it. I don't want to do it right away in the morning, and then my whole day is gone.

[mlg]

rmarie, noone likes to do charts. They seem hard, but they are good for you. They help develop routines and stability. When time seems limited, then we have to find things that we are doing that we don't really need to do, and replace that with some time for our Father in Heaven. Got to get rid of the little selfish things we want to do, but aren't really important. Keep seeking God rmarie, be patient, don't get frustrated. Start with just a few things on your chart, and add to it as you go along. Then it won't seem so overwhelming.

Praying for you.

luv ya

[lizzie]

rmarie sis

I know what you mean about prayer. But u know what, prayer doesnt have to be one particular time or conversation.

Cuz prayer is talking to God, and we can do that whenever we want to. Even during the day, we can take a few moments to say hi to Him or tell Him how we feel or ask Him to help us with a situation.

So if you miss those morning times of prayer, dont think u cant talk to Him any other time, cuz He is always there.

Thing is, we are creatures of habit. (tho its rare to hear someone say I have a good habit ) If we get into a routine of not doing something, then it makes it harder and harder to start doing it. The enemy loves when he can distract us to the point where we dont spend any time with God cuz we feel we have so much on our plates. But if we closely examine how we spend our time, we get to see exactly how much time we spend on the world as opposed to how much time we spend on the things of the Lord and with God Himself.

Thats where the charts will help you They help us to replace bad habits with righteous ones

Luv u rmarie sis
lizzie

[rmarie]

(Day 7)

So, today I went to church with my mom. It was really great. I am still feeling at peace. I know that God is there with me. He is watching me take one step at a time. I love how much he loves me. I know it probably sounds wierd. I am so happy to know that someone loves me. Yea, my mom loves me, but that at times isn't enough for me. I know that my friends love me, and that is great, but the greatest love that I have is the love I have from God. He created me in his image and he knows every move I make. He is a totally awesome God.

[mlg]

rmarie Keep on praising the Lord sis. I'm so glad you see how much He loves you and you accept His love. He is smiling on you, I just know it.

Day 7 woohoo you've made it through halfway. Are you excited? You should be for yourself and the growing between you and the Lord. Keep the fight, reach the finish line.

luv ya lots

[rmarie]

(Day 8)
I am really excited and proud of myself today. Usually when I start doing something like this, I quit half way through. I am starting to realize that God created me the way he did for a reason. He loves me so much and he wants to make sure that I know it. He has brought me to an amazing chat room and has put people in my life that are so encouraging. He has showered me with friends who would do anything they could to help me wtih my struggles. I love this amazing God who is my creator.

[mlg]

Glad to see you haven't given up yet. Remember when you place God in your life, things get easier, and quitting is not an option. God will help you through everything, He wants you to finish the journey with HIM. God loves travelling with you. I see you are enjoying it just as much as He.

Keep on striving.

luv ya rmarie

[rmarie]

(Day 9)

I know that I need to have more things in my life that are God based. I love to listen to Christian music. I really love books that talk about God. I try to surround myself with friends who encourage me on this walk with God. That doesn't happen like I want it to. I struggle with finding friends who aren't juging me because I am a Christian. I do have friends that are there for me and could care less if I am a Christian. They encourage me to live my life as a better Christian. I love these people with my whole heart. They are awesome and caring. I thank God for them.

[mlg]

Sis you are so right, you see the Christian walk can be a solitary one at times. As you become closer to God, those that don't walk with Him, will find you odd and peculiar. That's a good thing. Remember with God you are never alone, and find your happiness in HIM, then it won't be so bad, if you don't have any friends around at times. Sis, I've been told before that I'm too Christian....there isn't such a thing. A Christian should always walk like Jesus, and be proud to be the Christian that everyone sees, regardless of the persecution from others. Think of how the disciples were persecuted because they were Believers. The walk of a Believer has never been easy, but it IS Worth It.

Keep up the good work sis. Praying for you.

luv ya

[rmarie]

(Day 10)

Prayer is something that I really struggle with. I know that when I pray, I am talking to God. I mean to do it in the morning, but my morning turns into night and then I am going to bed one more time not praying. I use to pray all the time. That is until I became angry with God and started to doubt in him. I thought, " If you are really real, then you wouldn't let this awful thing of me bing sick happen." Well, I was wrong to think that. God knew that when I was 17, I was going to get these awful headaches and that I was going to be put on steriods. He knew that these steriods were going to make me sick and never want to eat. Ever since I started doubting in him, my relationship with him has crumbled. I haven't been able to pray since. Many people have told me that I should talk to Jesus as if I was talking to a friend. I could talk to him, but I am really lazy.