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This is how I came to my Father
Hello Ev-1;
I welcome you here and I thank you for reading what I have to post. I have never really written down my testismony, even tho I have told this to many. So please bare with as I try to go through this.
I came to my Father and Lord on April 4 of 2006. This was my last time that I used any drugs that day. I had been doing drugs and alcohol for over thirty years of my live. I started out with just a little bit back when I was 14. Slowly though the years my usage went up and down do to my finances that I had for that year.During this time I seen allot of my friends that I knew of died from their usage. Some of these people were very close and some not so close, but all of them friends no matter what.
Ever lost I can remember that it brought all of us close, but only close enough to get a party together to mourn their passing. Just a poor excuse for a party I later seen in life. I stayed on this ramped rampage for years.Then I reached my adult years and this trend just got worse. When I moved in to a new town I thought that this would help me. Well old treats always find their ways home. Military got me started on a right path, but I found out that there was more to have in there then on the streets and I was just all to willing to partake in this new experiment. Now I will just fast forward intop my thirties, because everything was just a repeat of the start.
I remember this day very will I was living by myself in a different town. One of the guys that I worked with got in to a very bad wreck, in which he almost died. I spent the next two days cleaning the paper work out the truck. I went through so much blood that it made me very ill to think about it. Then I thought about want he was enduring and I felt worse for his family and him. One month later the other gentlemen that I worked with in this store died from an alcohol related accident. Officers at the seen that we knew, and spoke to afterwards said that he never realized what had hit him. We buried him three days prior to this conversation. When I had found out the night of his death I engulfed myself in a fifth of whisky, and feeling the need to go on I placed a 45 in my mouth and pulled the trigger. To this day I can only say the only reason why I am here is beyond me.
Time to jump forward again. I survived that and still had no reason to quit what I was doing. At times I had slowed down, but never stopped.I lost my job through a dirty drug drop in, or around 2000. I could only keep my job if I went throuhg a rehab group. I took the hint and I had my sobriety for 11 months and 3 days. Then yes I fell off the wagon. I went back to what I had been taught thinking that this was the only way of live. Only way that I knew of that is.
I got really heavy into the drugs and I just keep getting deeper. On one weekend end the oppetunity presented itself again. I combined the drugs that I was using, mostly cocaine, and meth, with a hand full of depressants. For good measures I added alcolhol to wash everything down with. Then during one episode I saw a glisp of me in the mirror. I could not even look at myself, and I knew that I needed help.
I have prayed before, but never like that night. That night I gave everything to my Father and asked for His will in mine. It is no longer what I need to do, but now what I can do For.
I got back into my A.A. and started attending church. I know just did not hear the words, but I lived through the words. Through the help of my Father and my friend here and abroad, I have retained my sobriety for 2 years. I am thankful for being saved now for the same amount of time. I am moving into the direction that I need to and everyday my father leads me .
Thank You Everyone and thank you Father for my gift of today.
I welcome you here and I thank you for reading what I have to post. I have never really written down my testismony, even tho I have told this to many. So please bare with as I try to go through this.
I came to my Father and Lord on April 4 of 2006. This was my last time that I used any drugs that day. I had been doing drugs and alcohol for over thirty years of my live. I started out with just a little bit back when I was 14. Slowly though the years my usage went up and down do to my finances that I had for that year.During this time I seen allot of my friends that I knew of died from their usage. Some of these people were very close and some not so close, but all of them friends no matter what.
Ever lost I can remember that it brought all of us close, but only close enough to get a party together to mourn their passing. Just a poor excuse for a party I later seen in life. I stayed on this ramped rampage for years.Then I reached my adult years and this trend just got worse. When I moved in to a new town I thought that this would help me. Well old treats always find their ways home. Military got me started on a right path, but I found out that there was more to have in there then on the streets and I was just all to willing to partake in this new experiment. Now I will just fast forward intop my thirties, because everything was just a repeat of the start.
I remember this day very will I was living by myself in a different town. One of the guys that I worked with got in to a very bad wreck, in which he almost died. I spent the next two days cleaning the paper work out the truck. I went through so much blood that it made me very ill to think about it. Then I thought about want he was enduring and I felt worse for his family and him. One month later the other gentlemen that I worked with in this store died from an alcohol related accident. Officers at the seen that we knew, and spoke to afterwards said that he never realized what had hit him. We buried him three days prior to this conversation. When I had found out the night of his death I engulfed myself in a fifth of whisky, and feeling the need to go on I placed a 45 in my mouth and pulled the trigger. To this day I can only say the only reason why I am here is beyond me.
Time to jump forward again. I survived that and still had no reason to quit what I was doing. At times I had slowed down, but never stopped.I lost my job through a dirty drug drop in, or around 2000. I could only keep my job if I went throuhg a rehab group. I took the hint and I had my sobriety for 11 months and 3 days. Then yes I fell off the wagon. I went back to what I had been taught thinking that this was the only way of live. Only way that I knew of that is.
I got really heavy into the drugs and I just keep getting deeper. On one weekend end the oppetunity presented itself again. I combined the drugs that I was using, mostly cocaine, and meth, with a hand full of depressants. For good measures I added alcolhol to wash everything down with. Then during one episode I saw a glisp of me in the mirror. I could not even look at myself, and I knew that I needed help.
I have prayed before, but never like that night. That night I gave everything to my Father and asked for His will in mine. It is no longer what I need to do, but now what I can do For.
I got back into my A.A. and started attending church. I know just did not hear the words, but I lived through the words. Through the help of my Father and my friend here and abroad, I have retained my sobriety for 2 years. I am thankful for being saved now for the same amount of time. I am moving into the direction that I need to and everyday my father leads me .
Thank You Everyone and thank you Father for my gift of today.
Last edited by greengo31 on Mon Feb 18, 2008 10:35 pm, edited 1 time in total.
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greengo31
Dear Greengo31,
Hello, and thank you for sharing that with all of us, you are an inspiration to many that have been down the road you have been and are needing to know that they are not alone, or even to those that are on the path now and feel there just is no hope or any way of getting out of the pain they are stuck in. We are glad to have you here at Christianity Oasis, you are where the Lord chose for you to be. He led you here for a reason, He knows your heart.
Have a blessed evening in the Lord as He continues to shine through you today and always.
Sincerely,
SimplyBreezy
Hello, and thank you for sharing that with all of us, you are an inspiration to many that have been down the road you have been and are needing to know that they are not alone, or even to those that are on the path now and feel there just is no hope or any way of getting out of the pain they are stuck in. We are glad to have you here at Christianity Oasis, you are where the Lord chose for you to be. He led you here for a reason, He knows your heart.
Have a blessed evening in the Lord as He continues to shine through you today and always.
Sincerely,
SimplyBreezy
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SimplyBreezy - Posts: 130
- Location: United States
- Marital Status: Waiting on God
Greengo my buddy
What an awesome testimony my friend.
Praise God!
Amen. It is beyond you, but He knows exactly why, and what He has planned for you. Green, you are here cuz God has a purpose for your life. And He will show you how to use all those experiences, to bring glory to Him. As this testimony has done.
You have seen what the world has to offer, and you have experienced things that many of us havent, and this experience will not be in vain. With it you will be able to reach those, who are there now, and looking for a way out, cuz you know what it is like, and you now know the true path to peace and love. And I am so thankful that you have chosen that path.
In case you dont yet know, we have a program here at the Oasis, Many Called Few Chosen, for those who feel they are called by God to serve Him. This program will show you how to use your spiritual gifts to bring glory to Him. Should you wish to check it out, here is the link
Many Called Few Chosen ... http://www.ChristianityOasis.com/ManyCa ... /Forum.htm
luv u green
May He always bless and keep you.
What an awesome testimony my friend.
Praise God!
To this day I can only say the only reason why I am here is beyond me.
Amen. It is beyond you, but He knows exactly why, and what He has planned for you. Green, you are here cuz God has a purpose for your life. And He will show you how to use all those experiences, to bring glory to Him. As this testimony has done.
You have seen what the world has to offer, and you have experienced things that many of us havent, and this experience will not be in vain. With it you will be able to reach those, who are there now, and looking for a way out, cuz you know what it is like, and you now know the true path to peace and love. And I am so thankful that you have chosen that path.
In case you dont yet know, we have a program here at the Oasis, Many Called Few Chosen, for those who feel they are called by God to serve Him. This program will show you how to use your spiritual gifts to bring glory to Him. Should you wish to check it out, here is the link
Many Called Few Chosen ... http://www.ChristianityOasis.com/ManyCa ... /Forum.htm
luv u green
May He always bless and keep you.
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lizzie
greengo
Hello friend. I enjoyed your writing and as you know I relate to most of it. We share a common bond. You have been an inspiration to me since you became a member here. You have helped many here just by being real.
I can tell life is much more fulfilling today as you seek to do as God would have you to do each day. "But For The Grace Of God".
God has done for us what we couldn't do for ourselves and one thing He has done is given me people such as you who always has something positive to say.
You have an opportunity as I, to use your past experience to help others.
I give Him all the glory as I know you do too.
Thanks for sharing and may God continue to use you and open doors for you to be used of Him.
Luv Ya, Real
I can tell life is much more fulfilling today as you seek to do as God would have you to do each day. "But For The Grace Of God".
God has done for us what we couldn't do for ourselves and one thing He has done is given me people such as you who always has something positive to say.
You have an opportunity as I, to use your past experience to help others.
I give Him all the glory as I know you do too.
Thanks for sharing and may God continue to use you and open doors for you to be used of Him.
Luv Ya, Real
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realtmg - Posts: 1051
- Location: KY. LAKE
- Marital Status: Divorced
many called few chosen
you James are called
your life is a walking testimony
I was truly moved by what you have written
very brave and bold, many do not talk about
their past but yet except being saved.
your testimony will help others see the lies
of satan himself. one can overcome. To me Hon
its clear, you found your way to oasis by the power
of God to bring in his hurting sheep.
love ya bonnie
your life is a walking testimony
I was truly moved by what you have written
very brave and bold, many do not talk about
their past but yet except being saved.
your testimony will help others see the lies
of satan himself. one can overcome. To me Hon
its clear, you found your way to oasis by the power
of God to bring in his hurting sheep.
love ya bonnie
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bonbon1
Oh My SCONE
You have NO idea how you honesty has blessed me today!
I am ing for you lots!
I am ing for you lots!
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Poefenjaf - Posts: 72
- Location: South Africa
- Marital Status: Single
Hello Greengo,
God bless you, brother in Christ.
Despite your troubled past, you have an anointing on your life. I felt the presence of Him in your spirit the first time we spoke in Chat -- not so much as in the words you shared, specifically, but by the sweetness emanating from your spirit.
God is so very Good.
So glad you are here with us.
God bless you,
Sister Mack
God bless you, brother in Christ.
Despite your troubled past, you have an anointing on your life. I felt the presence of Him in your spirit the first time we spoke in Chat -- not so much as in the words you shared, specifically, but by the sweetness emanating from your spirit.
God is so very Good.
So glad you are here with us.
God bless you,
Sister Mack
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Mackenaw - Posts: 2414
- Location: NY
- Marital Status: Married
Greengo,
You are still here and boy has that made alot of people happy.
I understand addiction my friend and hats off to your courage
and honesty. Praise the Lord for giving that to you.
As long as you are in the Word your life will keep getting better
and I cant think of a more desreving guy..
GBu,
FA
You are still here and boy has that made alot of people happy.
I understand addiction my friend and hats off to your courage
and honesty. Praise the Lord for giving that to you.
As long as you are in the Word your life will keep getting better
and I cant think of a more desreving guy..
GBu,
FA
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