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[Jamie808]

"People usually think of me being cross or angry but not hurt" - quote from the study that the Holy Spirit said.

The point I'm getting is that the Holy Spirit is my friend and an amazing friend at that. My job is to hold His hand, walk with Him, trust Him work on the relationship, spend time with Him, listen and do things that I know would please Him and stay away from things that I know won't please Him.

Personally, I'm feeling the struggle. I feel alone without people to share and compare things of the Lord that I'm yearning to learn. I'm feeling again (a usual thing for me) that even with all this study there is no fruit. No direction from God; no place to say the things He is teaching me to say and no place to do the things He has given me to do. Does He want me to be a pastor ? People have said I should be ? That idea seems remote. I can honestly say I've never felt at home in ANY church I've been in and have often been disappointed or hurt there. I must also say that of course I've been part of the problem as well. I'm a sinner and carry my fair share of defects into any organizational setting Even though I'm drawing closer to God like I never have before I still feel like there's no one who understands me or who can teach me truth. (Yes I'm a very self centered blob at times. Oh and don't ya know I'm a victim too - ) Seriously Lord. How dare me complain and bother u with selfish things when my life is great and others struggle so mightily; with the world in such a state of fear, you have set me free. Thank U Jesus.

Anyway, thanks for bearing with me in my venting. I forgot to say that out of yesterday's study I have confessed arrogance, entitlement and a sense of self-righteousness as my sins. Please forgive me Lord for my sins. I am a sinner saved by Your grace.

In Jesus Name
Jamie