Christianity Oasis Forum

[chbalco]

well today I screwed up once again..I followed my own desires and texted my ex gf and told her that I wouldnt answer any more of her text or calls and after I sent it I realized it sounded horrible..so I called forgetting she was at work..She answered and yelled at me and told me that she is at work and she has nothing to say to me..and hung up..well of course my pride was hurt so I text her and said your right im sorry..then sent another text that said yelling at me in front of your coworkers may make you feel powerful...but thats just your pride..something for you to think about

MAN...I want to give up..BUT I WONT..I WILL CONTINUE THIS AMAZING JOURNEY THAT I HAVE STARTED BY SEEKING THE LORD..it is still my pride that is getting in the way of moving on in my life..I hate that she has this power over me..I just want to give it all up and just be a man and do Gods will..of course all of the emotions are flowing back into me..but I made a public confession on fb and twitter..Today I give up my selfish pursuit of my own free will and completely surrender to Gods will for my life and choose to seek the things he has planned for me

Every time I take a step forward I take 2 steps back...How can I let myself be so distracted by 1 person who clearly has absolutely no respect for me..I want to think about her not being the person that I fell in love with anymore and think about how she is acting now..But I also know that God doesn't want me to think badly of people..When I am at peace..I feel the holy spirit inside of me like electricity..But when my spirit is broken..I have all of these emotions flooding back into me..I'm just so confused again...Honestly I just wish God would send another Girl to me..Not for pleasure..But for companionship..I know God,Jesus and the Holy spirit love me..But I really need someone to show me physical companionship right now..like I said not for pleasures of the flesh..but for companionship...Please dear Lord send me a female companion that I can have fellowship in the Lord with to encourage me and keep me upright when I feel weak..NONE of us are meant to be alone in this world..we all need to feel loved..Please Lord Jesus I beg you

[Ruthk34]

It is never easy to change, it takes time and a lot of patience. It won't happen over night. Pride is a tough one but you can do it one day at a time or even one moment to the next. Never give up. God is with you and so are many of us too.

Praying for you