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[4getmenot]

My Miracle grow formula & weeding methods. I am going to start with another list of sorts. #1: forgive Mom. A: For adopting me out. I now see that you at your tender age thought you were doing the best thing for me & you did. #2: forgive my Mom that raised me. A: I know that you were much older & I disrupted your life, we did talk about this, I as an adult now understand where your feelings came from. I forgive you & myself for the hurt this caused us. B: I am sorry that you & our church separated ways, but being pulled into a spiritual realm of deception & lies as a teenager this did not help me. I still struggle today to let it go. C: I forgive your prescription drug abuse, and your sharing it with me. But now I can see how tight of a grip the liar had on you Mom. I always knew the truth of God I just needed to put it in to action. Aunt Francis & Uncle harry held my hand though everything they could ( God bless them both). And I forgive the hurtful words that were said between us Mom.

I forgive my Brother & in turn recognize & take responsibility for not being a good sister for you. I pray that our relationship will one day be as it should in Gods Love.

I forgive my x husband. The anger that took root in our marriage, the people manipulating our relationship.
I forgive the people who were involved in the destruction of my newly rebuilt family.
I forgive you my daughter for being deceived with lies of a better life away from our home, and your choice of that.
I forgive my in laws, their ways are different than mine. Ok so I am not of a certain religion. I am adopted, I am sorry that you don't see the beauty in that. Blood doesn't make family. And I forgive you all being such gossips.
I forgive my Husband. I know it is not easy for you, you work 7 days a week, so neglecting a lot of things here has happened, us, our home, ect.
But most of all I ask Gods forgiveness for blaming my heavenly Father, it was my own responsibility to seek your truth. Instead I blamed you for the Moms, my brother, the loss of my best friend, the loss of my daughter, the birth of my disabled son. Instead of learning though you my Lord, I listened to the liar. I became angry & resentful standing on an underpinning of fear & self doubt. Oh I have fought hard the urge to drink away this pain or to numb myself with drugs.

Now for a little Miracle grow & healing. My affirmations in God. #1: God made me, I am not a mistake. #2: God made me mentally disabled & it is beautiful, I am not dumb. #2: God loves me for who I am. I am in strong with Gods help. #3: I have Gods love to protect me & guide me. #4: God is always with me to comfort me. Thank you God for all who love me, you have always provided me with all I need, thank you God for leading me here to heal. It feels good to really cry for the first time in years.

Now I will let go & let God....( this I will say a million times a day ).

In Gods Love & Strength Always
4getmenot