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[Angel of Hope]

I did the next step and it was about forgiveness, forgiving others and myself. Wow, how many times I have begged God to forgive me for a sin I have done. I begged for him to help me overcome the sin. I kept feeling like a failure when I repeated the same sin over and over. I got to where I hated myself for doing this. I just knew God couldnt forgive me after I was suppose to be a Christian.I knew the things I did was bad, but I was tempted and thought what could it hurt, since I wasnt actually doing these things in real. Sad way of thinking. But my conscious would bother me soo bad and I knew it was wrong. I would continually beg God for help with this problem. When I would ask forgiveness from him.. I just knew he couldnt forgive me again for the same sin. I never felt free from the sin and felt so quilty.I would forgive others easy.. even though it hurt me when they did something bad toward me.I had a family member treat me wrong and bad growing up.. and I almost hated him. I finally realized I had to release this person to the Lord and forgive him and love him through Christ. I had alot sadness and hate growing up with my real dad and stepfather. This whole thing on forgiveness and forgiving myself has been so hard. I see now that God want forgive me if I dont forgive myself. I have learned over time that hating and not forgiving people only messes your life up more. It has took me along time to forgive and it is taking me longer to forgive myself. I will do that the best I can now after this study... since I dont want God to remember my sins after I ask Him for His forgiveness. I will Let Go and Let God Remove this problem . Thank you God for your Greatness and Love toward us all when we dont deserve it. I love you soo much God and Thank you for every blessing and struggle in my life... since my problems have caused me to learn more about your Grace and Love for your children here on earth!!