Christianity Oasis Forum

[kimby]

Wait? Is that? Can it be? Progress?
Yes! I think it is!!

Don't know about anyone else, but when I mess up I tend to beat myself up. It feels like that's what I deserve so if no one else takes care of it for me I handle it myself. I get to determine the length and severity, the seriousness of the crime...makes me the one in control. Kind of miserable thing to be in control of though.

I made the wrong choice yesterday, listened to the lies, placed my trust in them instead of in truth. I suppose in some ways this is a dual victory...because it didn't take me as long as normal to recognise it. The thing is once I did...I wanted to fix it. I didn't want to let Him do it, it was my mistake. I 'knew' I was forgiven, but I still 'felt' bad. Guess which one I chose to run with? Someone once pointed out to me though that grace is immediate. There is no requirement that I feel bad and beat myself up for an appropriate length of time before grace and forgiveness kick in. I'll admit it...I wallowed for a while. I sat and beat myself up, berated myself and condemned myself....a lot of 'self' going on there...a lot of trying to handle it myself. That isn't what He wants. Last night He talked to me about the difference between doing and being. I am quite comfortable doing for Him...not so much being with Him. Need to learn to switch that up a bit...get it in the right order. It finally hit me though last night....I was still 'doing'...still trying to fix the mistake myself....when all He want was for me to 'be' forgiven.

Yes...I am pretty sure...progress.

[Mackenaw]

Hello Kimby

God bless you this day.

Sounds like you have had some awesome revelations. Praise God!!!

You said:

I am quite comfortable doing for Him...not so much being with Him. Need to learn to switch that up a bit...get it in the right order.

Amen!

II Timothy 2:6 The husbandman that laboureth must be first partaker of the fruits.

God bless and keep you, Kimby.
Love,
Mack

[kimby]

Okay, I need a little help here.

I have been sitting and staring at this miracle grow chart for about a week now. I have a few things on it...but no where near ten in each grouping. So I figure, I can't keep using that as an excuse not to do it, or admit that I need some help.

I have chosen the latter.

I know I need to decide for myself what goes on, but any and all suggestions to help get me started would be very appreciated.

[sbennett]

Kimby....put what you KNOW you will do...even if its only 3 or 4 things and start it. You can add the others as you see you need or want them. I just did not have the time to fit in 10 things....so I did 5 the first time. Pray about what God wants you to focus on and that may help you. I bet HE will bless you in all your efforts...even the small ones!!

[Dora]

Okay, I need a little help here.

I have been sitting and staring at this miracle grow chart for about a week now. I have a few things on it...but no where near ten in each grouping. So I figure, I can't keep using that as an excuse not to do it, or admit that I need some help.

I have chosen the latter.

I know I need to decide for myself what goes on, but any and all suggestions to help get me started would be very appreciated.

May I suggest taking it slowly. Going at this with vigor but baby steps. Making sure you do not over whelm yourself with putting to many big things on this list.

What brings you closer to God? What brings you peace?

What are things you need to work on? Maybe you feel guilt cause your momma taught you to fix your bed everyday but you haven't fixed it in a week. Fixing your bed could be one.

Maybe you eat to many crumpets at 2am on Saturday mornings. Or was that Friday morning?

Think of things you want to do. Where are your day dreams? What did you want to do when you grew up or before you grew up?

What are your talents? Maybe if you can't think of any you could revisit the what did you want to do when you grew up idea.

Take a look at Proverbs 31 and see if it holds ideas for you. Maybe something will stand out for you.

If 10 is impossible this week. Start with 5. Work your way up.

Maybe you need to stop beating your self up as much. And rest in His grace more often or quicker.

Maybe you always wanted to learn to dance or sing.

Perhaps you need to be more diligent in brushing your teeth.



What ever you choose sister, make it a good time between you and God. Something to bring you closer to Him instead of something that binds you. Something that releases you and brings you closer to where you want to be. Not a drudgery.

[kimby]

I've had a realisation over the last few days...All those things that have kept me from Jesus, that have caused me to avoid Him, run and hide from Him...they aren't real...or they aren't important. They have done a very good job of making me think they were and of keeping me from Him.

They've told me He wouldn't want me, so I stayed away. They've said He will be angry, so I have hidden. They have told me He is disgusted by me, so I have run. They have told me lies about Him, and I have believed.

They have told me I am not good enough, so I don't draw near. They have told me it was my fault, so I have feared His punishment. They've called me worthless filth, so I have hung my head in guilt and shame. They have told me lies about myself, and I have believed.

They've had an awful lot to say and have been allowed to speak for a very long time. Well, now, I think it is time for them to be quiet! I would much rather hear what He has to say.

He says not guilty, so I can lift my head. He says He loves me, so I do not have to fear. He says I am worth it, so I can draw near. He has spoken truth, and, at least for today, I am choosing to believe. I am choosing to be near and not run, to look to Him instead of hide, and to allow Him to wrap His arms around me and simply be with Him.

[Dora]

Yes! Amen!! Good job sis. Way to go God!

[deetu]

woo hoo

[Tam]

awwwwwwwwww!!!

Proud of you sis!!!

[vahn]

Amen kimby .


Reminds me of the two others on the cross on each side of our Lord .
(or maybe the ones on our shoulders on each side of our heads ? )




In Christ , our Lord

[dema]

"The joy of the Lord is my strength"

That sounds so good and easy and wonderful. I've known it for years.

"Let go and let God."

"Sufficient for the day are its own troubles"

"Look at the lillies of the field"

I know these things and I believe them the vast majority of the minutes in a day or a week. But still I personally struggle.

These things are strength and power so Satan tries very hard to rob us of them.

Jesus came that we might have life more abundantly. Satan wants to make sure that doesn't happen.

[Dora]

Amen.

Yet we really don't KNOW these things until we KNOW them.

Keep seeking Him sis. Hold tight there are good days coming.