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[kimby]

I don't know the legality of posting on a portion of a step...but I am going to do it anyway.

I think it is finally starting to get through to me...Satan has taken the truth, twisted it, and fed it back to me. And I have gobbled it up. I see now that I need to push back from his table and find a new place to dine. I have a feeling that might not be as easy as it sounds. I have been eating from his menu for a long time. It doesn't taste twisted, it tastes right.

*Since I started this I have thought I could skim over the issues here, hit the highlights but keep the deeper things private, under wraps. But where is the accountability in that? Where is the healing in that? No more. I'm diving in. The first few may be bellyflops...but I've got to try.*

So what are these twisted lies? I doubt I have found them all, but a couple have become obvious...at least obvious in those moments of clairty. I need for them to become obvious all the time! Earlier I said I struggle with the idea that God loves me. It's more than that. Put simply, most of the time I don't believe it. One that I am just starting to see is the lie that I can have secrets from God. This one is hard to admit because I am beginning to wonder if it is Satan that has fed me that one, or if I have done it myself. Another....God can forgive me....that has been the easy way of saying...but I don't think He will.

Bellyflop into truly honest and open complete...I hope I didn't splash anyone!

I turned off the light last 'night' at 530 in the morning after doing a part of the third step. Should have crashed, but could't sleep, woke before nine, mind off and running again. It felt good to be able to see past the fog of the previous day a bit.
But I know the enemy can attack again, and that concerns me. A few days ago I was feeling great and the enemy retaliated. I don't want that to happen again and I think I am trying to cautiously feel great today...just in case.

[deetu]

Post whenever you can or want kimby... no legality to it. Pretty lax in this place so you can post as your spirit leads.

It is amazing how getting something in the study can change your whole outlook on everything else. God put it together so you can understand it....one day at a time. But yes, it is important not to skim over parts because the enemy will put blinders on you so you can't see the thing you need sometimes.

Woo Hoo! Proud of you kimby!
And don't expect the gloom. Start walking like it doesn't matter now because you are seeing God loves you and you are important. Enemy doesn't like the light...John 3:20

[Tam]

kimby I am so glad that you have seen the lies for just what they are LIES. The enemy so likes to take everything and twist it into a lie for us.
You know his trick now so throw it back in his face.

OUCH!!!! I hope that didn't sting your belly to much when you did the belly flop into the truth ha ha

You keep pressing in my friend you are doing an awsome job!

I believe in you sis!

[vahn]

Hello kimby

This morning I woke up to the tune of Psalm 37 . (Good offensive strategy against whatever the enemy had instilled in my head while sleeping and not "looking" is to grab a sWord)

Ps.37 reads :

Don't worry about the wicked or envy those who do wrong .
For like grass , they soon fade away . Like spring flowers , they soon wither .

Trust in the Lord and do good . and He will give you your heart's desires .

What that is saying to me is that don't look at the negative , and you wont have to "fight" it , because the enemy is a lot stronger - he'd being doing this stuff for ages , he has a lot of practice - but rather , instead of paying the enemy any mind at ALL , we just focus on the good , and do good regardless , and our Lord will see to it that the enemy's head gets bruised without us having to lift a finger .

Keep up the good work , you're on the right Path .


In Christ our Lord

[kimby]

I saw a t-shirt today...it read...

"Anything you cannot talk about controls you."

Wow!

If I wasn't encouraged before to keep talking and being honest...I certainly am now!

[kimby]

I did what I thought I could never do. I took what I didn't want Him to see and let Him have it. I think one of the walls just got knocked down.

[want2Bfree]

Kimby;
I woke up this morning feeling pretty lousy about some stuff I did yesterday. After all, I'm supposed to be on my way now. I just completed both, Christian Counselling and the Many Called Few Chosen steps, yet, here I am again. I guess I could let satan have his way, and stay down on the mat and wallow in self-pity for awhile. However, been there, done that for way too long. I'm just here to tell you Kimby, that satan will be around whispering lies to you. Especially if he thinks he's losing you. Be prepared to fight back with scripture, and listening to God's voice instead. If you fall down, welcome to the club. It's OKAY!!
God still loves you and expects it. Pray and ask forgiveness. Believe you are forgiven (yep, it's hard) dust yourself off pick yourself up and keep on going. You Can Do It Sister.
May God Bless You and Keep the enemy's attacks at bay while you continue to grow in the truth of His (JESUS) love.

[momof3]

Hi Kimby, God bless you in this!

One of the toughest things for our carnal minds to believe is that God does love us and does forgive us. Satan would have us believe a lie that has been planted in our minds and trapped there by worldly ways of understanding. He takes the very thing its always been about and tells us God's grace is for everyone else but us. Its so hard to believe that He who created the universe could love us...but if we stop and listen...its always been about His grace. Its always been about His love and mercy.

He knew from before He created you who you would be, what you would do, every thought you would have..He knows you intimately. He created you, after all. He sees you through the eyes of love...pure, sweet, honest, perfect, neverending, unconditional love...a LOVE we really dont have any concept of until we understand that its not about us..its not about where we have been, who we are, what we have done..its all about Who He is, what He has done, where He has been...

In the moments of doubt...look at the cross. That is true love.

One of my favorite passages is in Jesus' prayer for us right before His crucifixion, in the book of John. I believe its the 18th chapter.

Remember when you dont like yourself...He created you in His image..for His glory..just the way He wanted you. The world will tell you one thing, but He makes no mistakes. He wants you to understand that His grace and love are freely given to His children and YOU are one of His children. No good thought comes from anywhere but Him. Replacing those thoughts can and must be done...replacing the lies with the truth will set you free.

and also remember, none of us are good. He is everything in us that is good. Oh, how He loves you. If He had to die for just you alone, to spend eternity with you, He would have. Embrace that thought..know that its true.

God bless you on this journey. He is right there with you.

In Jesus,
luv momo

[deetu]

[Dora]

Oh wow!!! You are doing awesome Kimby. God is amazing. He is working with in you. Cause He loves you to pieces!

I love you to!

[kimby]

I'd like to go to bed right now, but I suspect that come tomorrow morning the enemy might just try and convince me that nothing changed tonight. I would kind of like to have it in black and white to help prove him wrong.

Words cannot express how much I did not want to do the study today. I knew I needed to and I knew I couldn't put it off, but my nerves were a mess all day just thinking about it. I would say yesterday's attempt at the study was an abysmal failure...but without yesterday I don't know if I would have learned what I did today. I am realising that sometimes God shows us hard stuff, not to hurt us, but to put us in a position where we can see the truth.

I learned something about Him today...He is good. I put my hand in His..maybe we'll go for a little walk together before I rest.

[deetu]

Love it! Little by little