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[xxJILLxx]

Day 5 of weaning.. not as easy as i expected, but feeling good.


There is a lil ole lady i will call "Francesca" (name meaning is FREE) she is an alcoholic, and the nurses had to carry liqour on their med carts for her as a "prescription" Shes had a bit of serious events and falls as of late and was in a rehabilitation center and they would not give her the alcohol.

She wanted to come home to our facility, (probably thinking she could drink again) BUT it didnt happen that way, she was not in the best of health to do so, and she had been sober for a good while now, probably the longest in a very very long time...

It has not been a picninc for her and her health is declining, i have had time to witness to her and at first she thought she would not be going to heaven, Holy Spirit has got her to think on these things and now she told a family member she is ready to go to heaven.

The priest was in today to read her last rights. Thought she was going to go, the family was gathered around her. Even her newest edition to the family was there to bid her hello and goodbye. (6 weeks old) Something miraculous happened! Now mind you Francesca was unresponsive and would not wake up over 16 hrs now, had no output.

Meanwhile, there was another lil ole lady trying to cook and caught her plastic container on fire. Fire alarms go off building filled with that horrible smoke and that horendous smell of burning plastic, thank God nobobdy was injured.

Well... during all of that, Francesca woke up sat up in her bed and looked around and look puzzled as to why the priest was there. Something about that Francesca. I smiled and thanked the Lord. half hour later she was holding the newest member of her family and didnt want to give him up. The rest of the evening she was talking bout how she wanted to hold that baby again. How precious!

I love Francesca and she knows it and she says it back to me.

There are so many there who just want somebody to sit down and spend time with them and have a real conversation with them. There are happy to see me there, when i am off for a few days, they say i was looking for you, i missed you etc...

THAT my OASIS is FAMILY! Excepting them no matter what and the joy i get when the love like a boomerang comes right back to me, means i have more to give out!

I get horribly attatched to my new family members, it is not easy watching them go through the last stages of life, but i hope to bring them all the love and joy they deserve while they still got life here.

Pondering on that, that must be how our Father thinks of us... He wants us to enjoy our days here and experience HIs love throughout our days.

I love you Lord, you are an ever present source of strength. You carry me when i am weak, and you raise me up when i am down.

God bless
♥Jill

[vahn]

... alarms go off building filled with that horrible smoke and that horendous smell of burning ...

Well , I dont know Jill

Maybe "Francesca " thought she was going too (in the past 16 hrs) and was on her way .

Could it be that she also said , "Oops , wrong door , I gotta get back where I started from and try again " ??

[xxJILLxx]

Oh my vahn!


Wake up call came loud and clear hu?



I will be working with her one on one this weekend Plan on giving her lots of love and support.

Love you very much hun.

♥Jill

[xxJILLxx]

Day 9 of weaning...

i'm kind of scared to step off of this one, I still think i need to wean a bit more before i totally stop.

I have felt good, have actually slept good last nite, no insomnia. Thank u Jesus!

Spent some time with "Francesca" this weekend. I brought her in a teddy bear from home, so she can hold the "baby". She took that teddy bear and wrapped her arms around it and gave it a kiss, fell right to sleep. She slept right through the first nite i sat with her, the second nite was more one on one time with her that i was able to love her and express His love and peace over her.

Praying Father for "Francesca", keep her in Your loving arms. Free from pain, free from addiction, free from withdrawals, free from guilt and any other feeling she might have that will step in the way of her experiencing all of what u have to offer her through your peace and love. Father i pray for a safe journey home into your arms.. send your angels to comfort her and guide her to You. Thank u Lord for loving Francesca and from freeing her. Nothing is impossible for You Lord! Thank you Lord for the priveledge once again to embrace and love one of Yours. I sit in awe of you Lord... Your ways are magnificent. You are the mighty Healer. You are all she needs Lord. Your blessed will be done in all things concerning Francesca.

Join me in prayer please and lift up this soul. Thank u

God bless
♥Jill

[xxJILLxx]

boy oh boy "Francesca" is full of surprises!

The other day i had the priveledge of leading her to the Lord in prayer. Later on she asked "So what are we going to do tomorrow?" I replied well first we are going to wake up and thank the good Lord for another day.
Lord you are GOOD! Some days she is realy down and unable to do anything ( i think from too much medication.. but who am i to say) Other days she is up and and talking.

I got a lil upset yesterday, took her up to listen to some music with some others and left to go do a few more things at work and came back and they wheeled her back downstairs... She is not in "suitable" cognitive health to sit with the rest of the residents... OH MY! TISK TISK! Do they not realise they may one day be in her shoes and may be treated of the same fashion? How sad! After that episode i pampered her up with a message with lavendar lotion, it relaxes her and she fell right to sleep. So in all she was the one who made out like a bandit. I try to show these others to have compasion on others, but i can only show if they are willing to look.

Heres a lil secret for you all! Tomorrow is vahn's birthday!!!!! So if u see him give him a nudge and wish him a blessed day!

God bless n keep u
♥Jill

[vahn]

No , tomorrow is Saturday !!

[realtmg]

UH OH.................

[xxJILLxx]

Spent more time with "Francesca" last evening. Read scriptures to her and prayed with her, held her hand. As i was there by her bedside, holding her hand, our hands above His Word lying on the bed. The bridge that gaps over generations. maybe i can talk vahn into helping me post the picture. It says so much to my Spirit.

I catch myself getting too close to her, but I know deep in my soul that when she departs this life as we know it, i will see her again in eternity. She is one tough cookie. She is a fighter indeed and she has no idea how much of an encouragement she is to me. A few weeks ago i let her know how proud i was of her. Her reply "Really?" in disbelief but in puzzlement as well as to why i was proud of her. so I continued to explain to her why i was proud of her. And moreso why God was proud of her. She didnt think that God's grace was for her. Her brother maybe or her kids but not for her. I know she believes different now.

Over these past several months i have created bonds with alot these residents. and there are still a few there that i know i need to reach out to. Oh yes, my heart goes out to them and He is letting me know that i have withheld His love from some there. Some because of things i need to change within me and some that have thick walls built up around them. I have gained their love by loving them first. Love conquers ALL. Many waters cannot quench love.

It amazes me how He can love us all equally but yet so intimately and individually at the same time. There is just so much Love to go around it just oozes from Him.

I must say I am a bit saddened that i dont spend alot of time with my kids being that i work afternoons and by the time they get home from school i am gone and by the time i get home from work they are in bed. I am so grateful that i have Vahn here to help them and guide them. To be a dad to them, that they never realy had. I do miss them. I keep hoping for another solution so i can spend more time with them. My days off they seem to be busy witht heir own things, or they dont like to do the things that i like to do on my days off.

Anyways thats my thoughts for the day...

God bless
♥Jill

[angelbaby]

I am going to cry posting this, but it will be ok. I am thankful to here that someone that works in a position as you do cares. I had a couple family members that were in nursing homes before they passed away. I couldn't go visit them because I could not cope with going to a nursing home and watching them die in front of me. It takes a lot of courage and strength to do what you do. I am thankful those people get a chance to know, and I pray that my family members had someone that could that for them since I couldn't be there for them.

[Mackenaw]

Hello Jilly

God bless you this day.

God is Awesome!!! I'm so glad that you can apply your calling in your workplace, in such a profound way.

Jilly, I wanted to address your last statement in regards to finding time with your children:

My days off they seem to be busy witht heir own things, or they dont like to do the things that i like to do on my days off.

Most of life's lessons and relationships are shared in moments, and not as much in the individual goals or "looking forward to(s)" time schedules. We usually schedule vacations, or outings or doctor appointments, etc., but real life -- those times when we connect heart to heart are found in the moments. Make the best of those moments with your children.

While we may think that the "every day" things we do for our children go unnoticed by them, and are possible unappreciated, but those things you do for them and say to them in the moments are seeds that grow deeply in their hearts, which will provide an harvest for for them, for years to come. You may never hear the words "thank you, Mom" but that is not why we extend love, is it?

Have you ever noticed that perennial flowers are not quite as flashy as annual flowers, yet the perennial flowers give us pleasure for years and years to come?

God bless and keep you, Jilly.
Love,
Mack

[xxJILLxx]

Angel, dear sis, I sent you a personal pm. Love u sis.. and so does He. No tears sister.. He has us all, right where He wants us.



Mack,
Thank u sister, u have given me much to think on and because of your words i feel so much better and am thinking on ways i can reach them while i am at work, maybe an encouraging text. Let them know that i am thinking about them and that i love them, while they are still awake.
Again thank u so much sister for the encouragement. I love you sis.

God bless,
♥Jill

[ciny]

Hi Jill
Good to see that you looked back and saw what you needed to work on
i don't deal with problems to well either i am working on facing them head on now i use to sweep them under the rug so to speak and ened up tripning on it later or stuffing them. or stuffing it and it comes out like monster,
Thanks for sharing this i am pushing my way throught this with you and asking for the strenght of God to in Jesus name for us bolth amen.
Love God bless Ciny