Christianity Oasis Forum

[anne marie]

Day 1
Today I am feeling overwhelmed with sadness, confusion and doubt. I am searching for clarification and relief from the pain.
I am asking God and Jesus to take my pain from me and show me the way I should go. My spirit has already become calmer.
I believe that God wants me to look inside myself for things that I have neglected and could improve upon in his name.
Though my faith is strong, I know I am not attentive enough to Him and have not put Him first in my life. I believe that this is one of the things he wants me to improve upon.
I have hope and faith that I will come through this with His help.

[Mackenaw]

Hello Anne Marie

I'm so glad that you decided to do the CCCC Study.

I'm joining you in your prayers to our Lord, in the name of Jesus.

God's blessed will be done.

I, and others, will be here as a support to you as you take this journey with The Lord.

God bless and keep you.
In Christ Jesus' love,
Sister Mack

[Tam]

Hi Anne Marie So glad to see you doing the steps also. Prayers are with you sis.

[anne marie]

Thank you for your support Tam and Mack!! I feel so thankful and blessed to be here.

Day 2
The weeds that have been growing in my garden I am ashamed to say.
They are fear, doubt, distrust, anger, judgement of others, faithlessness.
all bad, all negative. all bound to come true due to my lack of faith and trust in God.
I am more sure today than yesterday that God wants me to purify myself and put Him first in my life. I would not have so many weeds in my garden if I had. It is a hard lesson, but one I am determined to learn well from. I have cost myself and others pain because I allowed these weeds to grow. I have lost so much that God blessed me with.
I am learning to "let go and let God".

[Tam]

anne marie
We have all had some of those same weeds in our gardens. The trick is now that we know what they are to pull them out and to not let them grow and fester anymore. Do let the shame of what weeds they are overwhelm you at all. ( by the way...shame is a weed sis)
You are pressing in and doing good. I believe that you can and will do this.
God is on your side sis.
Keep pulling.

[Dora]

I am so excited for you anne

The Holy Spirit has already begun work with in you. He's sooooooooooooo coooooooool like that!!!! Just turn around and there He is. We are so blessed to be able to call Him dad, Lord, Savior, God.

Thank you for sharing your weeds with us. Getting them into the light is a huge part of the process. If we hide them, we can carry guilt that goes along with them and that is not Gods plan.

You are going to love this program and you are going to do well. I just know it.

Jesus loves you and so do I!!!

[anne marie]

Thank you all. Your words of encouragement and support are just as valuable as the steps. Thanks for the fyi on the shame too, Tam!
Day 3
Reading of God's forgiveness and grace soothes my soul and gives me hope. Makes me feel stronger and that He has already taken the burden from my shoulders. Though I am no clearer on actions, my trust that God has a plan and it is going accordingly eases my mind.
I am looking forward to Step 4.
Have a peaceful evening all

[anne marie]

Day 4
I have arrived at the hardest part for me. Forgiveness. This I am sure, is what God has intended to be the biggest lesson for me. Yet, by working through this site and the previous three steps, I dont think it will be as hard as I imagined. I feel strength and hope in God that I am on the right track and right where he wants me to be. And that feels soooo good!!! My mind and soul are soothed. I am so blessed to have been directed here for the gifts I am receiving.
Peace.

[Dora]

That can be a hard one for many. Glad to hear you are finding peace.

Thanks for the smile. You are doing well.

[Tam]

Oh the forgiveness step
Man was that one hard for all of us.
But look at you saying it is now as hard as you expected it to be. Progress sis....you are making progress.

Yes I agree that you are right where God wants you to be. Trusting Him
You are doing well
Keep up the good work

[mlg]

hello anne marie, welcome to the Oasis!

Something I noticed today in your shared words was the calm and peace that has come over you...that would be the Holy Spirit working within you...He is already helping you...and now you will be able to forgive and be what God knows you can be. God has so much He wants to show you and so much He wants to bless you with. When you begin to grow closer to Him...and find that His grace is sufficient...then you realize that you too can extend grace to those who have harmed you...including yourself.

Praying for you.

Hope to meet you in the chatroom.

Take care and God Bless

[anne marie]

Tam, Pine and Mlg:
Thank you so much for your encouragement and support. To know that others are kind enough to do this in my time of need is surely a gift of God. Though I am going through a hard time right now, I am aware of how much God is watching me and providing for me now, when my need is so great. I am able to say that I have at this time, many positives too. Trust, Trust in the Lord. I am going to go back and reread Step 5 again. It was a difficult one for me as many of the problems I am experiencing now are on the list. Today, my faith is wavering.
Thank you so much again.