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[Dora]

Been praying for you Tam. Love you much.

You know as moms we tend to hurt more for our kids than what they are hurting.

Sometimes we do this out of guilt.

[mlg]

Tam the one thing you can't do is look at everyone as if they are going to hurt your children. What one person did does not give you a right to be suspicious of others...unless they have given you a reason to do so. Your children are struggling yes...but they need your love and protection...not you suffocating them...there IS a difference....

I hope you know my words are shared with love sis.

Rest in God...He loves you and those kids dearly. He heals all things...never forget that.

[Tam]

I know that mlg That is why my son is at a ballgame without me tonight. I am trying my best not to suffercate them. I know that God has them and He is control. Just the mommy wanting to come out in me. I have to trust God with them . I have no other choice! They are not mine but His.

Thanks for loving me enough to not be scared to say that.
Love you sis

[mlg]

I love you dearly...you have been there for me many times...and you always care.

luv ya

[Tam]

OK so no more tears. Time to rise up and to Trust. Time to beat the enemy on his head. I am tired of the devil trying to take my family away from me, he has missed with my children and that means WAR!!! Any mother knows that when you miss with her babies you miss with her heart
Well I have had enough. curses that have been placed on me are NOT tricking down to my kids. Generational curses are being broken and freedom is coming to my kids!

In having to deal with all this with my kids I finally seen that the devil was trying to make me pull all that mess up again. Mess that has been placed under the blood. Mess that no longer has a hold on me. The one thing this has done is shown me that Jesus loves the little Tam and it shows me how much HE must have hurt for me. WOW The thing that the devil meant to use to get me down is going to make me stronger. It is helping me to rise up and fight even more.

I know that this will be a journey. But it will not be a bad one. It will not be easy but it will be a journey of healing for me and my kids. It will be healing for my husband if he will allow it. I am praying that GOD use this to bring us back to the family that we need to be. I was sitting at the band competiton yesterday with my daughter laying her head on my shoulder and watching my son thinking. Thinking about what went wrong, where did things go sour? WHat happen to use...we used to be a very close nit family. What happen? hmmmmmm then it donned on me....this all started right after the abuse took place. The blame, the hurt, the guilt, the shame all that has almost destroyed my family.. Well NO MORE I want my family back, I want my kids back and I will fight to the bitter end with everything that is in me to get that because the devil is NOT having this anymore. It is time for God to be GOD in my home.

Please pray for my husband that he will forgive him and that he will learn to know what an Awesome Father we serve and that he will allow HIM to begin to heal his heart. Please pray for my kids so that they will see that they did nothing wrong and that Jesus loves them dearly. Please pray that God would give the whole family a hunger for HIM.

I love you guys bunches!!

[mlg]

Prayers for all of you Tam. May you become a family that God can use to bring glory to His name...one with a testimony...not a testimony of the past...but a testimony of where God is going to take you.

luv ya sis

[Tam]

Just gonna vent ......don't feel like you gotta read this...

Today has been a struggle. Our phone system was missed up at work so everytime someone answered line 2 it disconnected line one. Just flat out hung up on the person ......How Rude...I have been called every name in the book and said I am so sorry that I think that sorry is now my name..(lol) Things out of our control and yet people think that we should be able to fix them.

Hmmmmmm......Kinda like us with God huh.....things get outta control and we wonder why He didn't fix it...why this is going on and why isn't He stopping it ? I had to go to the source to let them know that my phones was missed up....I could try everything in my power but would be able to do nothing about it. These people wanted me to make the phones stop disconnecting them...I couldn't I DON"T know how.

Well that is what I was talking to God about at lunch. I was like look now ...I don't know how to fix this but could you please make them stop with the language and the name calling? Then I sat there thinking....things get out of control and I try to fix them only to fall on my face again. When if I would just cry out to HIM to begin with it would be a whole lot easier on me. But I still sometimes gotta learn that the hard way. I try to do it myself and I flop. Well I did today...I went back to my old ways ....I tried to do somethings myself and I absolutely fell flat on my face!!!!!
So do I stay here and mully grub or do I get up, brush me off and move on. I choose the later....I get up, say I am sorry, bruch me off and move on. This is a leaning process and it will take me a little while to remember that He is in control and not me.

So I will start tomorrow new and trust that He can handle things better than I can.

[deetu]

Look how fast you have gotten up this time No more falling in a hole, no more wallowing in self pity.... isn't it great?
Thank you Lord for this new understanding.

Father, I ask that you help Tam's plea for her family
Bring her husband back to the head of the household
Bring them all back to you Lord
In Jesus' name I pray

[mlg]

Amen sis...so proud of you! I know God is smiling.

Things aren't always gonna be peachy in our life...but we can sure not let the trials of the world steal our joy...we can sit in the peace of Jesus...yippeee! How awesome He is to us.

luv ya

[Dora]

Yeah Tam Look at you! Good job sis.

[Tam]

Ok so this afternoon has been absolutely horrible. My daughter gets home from school and wants to talk. So I agreed to talk. Talk never really happened. The blame started and I lost it from there. There was lots of truth in what she said. Not saying it was all true but the truth was there. I always sent her and bubba with her daddy to that place. I never went with them. If I had been there she would not have gone in the woods with A. She would have been with me. If I loved her I would not have needed a break from her and bubba. That made her feel like I didn't want her. Like I wanted her to go away! There was a lot more said but I think that you get the just of it.

Then came the I hate you mom....why don't you just leave us (me bubba and daddy) alone. We all hate you.

How do I deal with all this. How do I even begin to say things are going to be ok? I give it all to God the best I can. I told her that I loved her and that I understood why she felt that way and that I was sorry. She replied with never talk to me again. I wish you were dead!

The counselor said that things would get bad but wow...I never dreamed they would be like this! I have got to be the strong one here. I have got to just let her have her say. To be honest I don't know if I can do this or not....but do I really have a choice?

Not sure how to handle all this other that Pray so that is what I am doing. I am praying alot and unloading here. I hope that is ok

Tam

[Mackenaw]

Hello Tam

You handle it, just how you are doing it. You pray, you tell her you love her, and you vent, when needed, to us -- knowing we'll be lifting all of you (you and yours) up in prayers to our Lord, in the name of Jesus.

God's blessed will be done.

Tam, I know the guilt we carry, as mothers, when anything bad happens to our children. Continue to lay it down at the feet of Jesus. He is your hope and your daughter's hope, and He loves you all so very much.

God bless and keep you, Tam.
Love,
Mack