Christianity Oasis Forum

[dabs316]

I am struggling with feelings of "not being a whole complete" person. I am feeling like I don't really know who I am. I feel I don't have anything to offer to someone else where they would desire my company or friendship. I have been existing on this planet, taking up space, but not really living. I know God is trying to teach me by bringing me into a Bible study group of wonderful, spirit-filled women. While I want and desire so much to have a sincere connected relationship to them, I fear it. I don't really know how to love and be loved. I am struggling with immature feelings of jealousy and envy of others' ability to make heart-to-heart relationship connections so easily. I feel angry at God that I feel this way. I'm embarrassed to admit these juvenile feelings at my age. I desire to turn these feelings of jealousy into well-wishing and joy that others are able to enter into this special heart-to-heart relationship. I have feelings that go from worthlessness to feelings of haughtiness even before God (which is a characteristic of satan which I despise and of course which God despises) and arrogance (I have nothing to be arrogant about within me) and false pride. I want to learn how to process these feelings that are worldly and of the flesh into thoughts and feelings that are of God. I don't want God to be made at me because of a haughty heart or a stiff neck. I want His thoughts to flow in me. I want His ability to forgive others (even when it is only in my mind) so that I can have His power in me and be pleasing to Him. I want to walk in the ways He has prepared specifically for my life. I don't want to just exist anymore. I want to live. I want to love and be loved. I want Jesus' love in me to give to others.

[deetu]

Well, welcome dabs!! This is a great place to find those wants!!!
The study is a great study... keep with it, even if you feel it's not working....it will get to stuff you didn't realize

Look forward to see you in chat

[vahn]

Hello dabs

Welcome aboard the Oasis

First , right off the bat , please let me assure you you are EXACTLY How and where our Father wants you to be .
It appears that some-thing(s) is blocking you from the Sunlight of the Spirit . Well , this is exactly what the "steps" help us do , first we find out what they are , then we get rid of them , it is a process of getting rid of , as opposed to "gaining" , 'cause you see , the Light of the Spirit is already within you (obviously) . So lets get to ridding ourselves from the "blockage" .

There will be more coming along to help you out , but in any case , If you need anything , please don't hesitate to ask ok ?



In Christ , our Lord
vahn

[vahn]

Hey !! How did Deetu beat me to it ?!?!

[mlg]

Hi dabs316, welcome to the Oasis! We are so glad the Lord has led you here. God has much to show you...and you are now on your way to growing and healing.

I hope you will visit us sometime in the chatroom.

Take care and God Bless

[Christianity Oasis]

You have chosen to share your true feelings and thoughts.

Wise choice ...

You will do well on this path.

God's will be done.


Luv ya

[sbennett]

Im so glad God led you here! You will find friends in this place...I did. I pray you follow the Paths in the counseling and that you find joy in the Lord!

[Dora]

Hi dabs!!

No need to feel like you're all alone in those feelings. We all have them or have had them or will have them to some degree, I'm sure.

Honesty with yourself and with God is going to help you overcome these things quicker.

You'll love these steps. You have a willing heart which is what God desires.

Saying a prayer for you. God bless and keep you.