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[sandrad05]

I am trying very hard to go through these studies.
It seems to be making it harder on me than helping me?
I understand that the devil does not want me to find what this study has to offer.
But, as most everyone knows here I am dealing with my mother who has cancer. and my mama is not a burden. It is very trying. But, it is not too much. The burden comes from the other respondibilities that I carry. If all i had to do is tend to my mama. I would be ok. But every day I have bill collectors calling. And stay in a state of loose my home, my car, the ele. being turned off. etc. Every day I am making phone calls trying to find help. THere are many places out there but they all say the same thing. Everyone has a story. If we do this for you then we have to do it for everyone. Or we help the cancer patience but not the caregiver.
it causes a great deal of emotions to stir. And a battle all of its own trying to stay in prayer and in a faith walk.

The Lord has been very merciful to me. I have seen him work miracles in our problems. He has caused the person who I am buying my mobile home from to forgive two months rent. She just lost her mother to cancer.
she came into my home and sit with me. And we talk about how I can make the payments from this point on. She told me she would work with me. The thing she has done is by God's hand. You see she too is still making payments on this mobile home and depends on me to make my payments. This mobile home was lost for a year. She paid a man to move it to a storage and he left it in a vacant lot. She could not find the man and she could not find the mobile home. She continued to make payments on this home. She had moved to Ca. where her mother was to care for her. She now also has her mother's mobile home in Ca. that she is trying to pay for.
She called around to the mobile home dealers here in this area trying to see if anyone had see her mobile home. She found the man that I got my mobile home from and he had said there was an mobile home sitting in a vacant lot down the road he got the vin# and sure nuff it was her mobile home. It had set there a year the windows were broken out along with much more damage. He charged her for moving the mobile home to his lot. And also a storage fee that she still is paying on. When I came along and made a deal for the home. He again charged her a fee for selling it.
She does not see one penny of the notes I am making until his gets all of his first. And though I have not paid my part she must still pay him. So you can see the kind of bind I have put this women in. Yet, she is willing to give what she does not have. It is God. She too is set on an income.
Please pray for this women for her unselfness.
I only have a year and few months left on paying this mobile home off.
But, what I am trying to show is how God has intervene to help me. I know that the Lord is working everything out with no doubt. But there is still the road that must be traveled.
And dealing with all these people every day is like walking through line of people lined up on each side of me and I walk through them and as i do they take a swing at me. it is very stressful and consumes me.
I wish I could just deal with my mama, and then pick my life back up. It is so overwhelming. I know not getting any sleep and renewing my strength is not good. But neither is there an answer to that. Again I do not feel my mama is a burden just everything else.
So I begin this study and it feels as if it to is asking more out of me than I have. Am I right trying to do this study now? Or should i wait until things calm down?

Besides my mama the only other important thing to me is my walk with God. I will not turn from him. He is my refuse, my tower of strength.

I feel energized when i read about others in the forums, and feeling as if I can help with an answer. But trying to deal with myself is just the opposite.

Any advise would help.

Thank you,
sandrad

[mlg]

Sandra, I want to begin by saying pray on the path to take and God will bring you the answer...as it will come in the form of peace.

I believe these steps do hold healing sis...but I also know that you are carrying a heavy load at the moment...and may not be able to receive the full benefit of the steps as it is hard to focus. Maybe you might want to consider reading a Christian Walk Study daily for awhile instead of doing the steps. Remember the steps are always here...and you can come do them any time. But I'm thinking a Christian Walk Study daily might be better medicine for you at this moment.

Also, as far as those phone calls from bill collectors...you might consider changing your phone number to give yourself and your mom some peace through this time. Just a thought sis...

My prayers are with you. May our Father provide the things you need.

luv ya bunches

[Dora]

Oh Sandra I do know the stress of bill collectors.
Dreading the mailbox and coming to a near panic every time the phone rings.
Even on Sundays!
Keep your eye on Him during the storm.
He is the one that can bring you peace with in even when everything else seems to be crashing down.
My prayers are with you.

[sandrad05]

Thank you so much Pine for the encouragment! I really do love you people here at Oasis!





sandrad

[sandrad05]

Thank you so much Pine for the encouragment! I really do love you people here at Oasis!





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