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[xxJILLxx]

Opposition at work yet again

I dislike it, threatening to cut my hours even more to give to one of her friends and i have 4 years seniority over this employee. Where is the justice? When i talk to the owner about it he tells me to work it out between the 3 of us and hes staying out of it, but they dont budge its always me having to be cut, always me that has to suffer, til finally they get what they want and cut me completely. Mike tells me that life is not fair and that it isnt going to go our way all the time.. but i dont understand why they want to mess with my hours when i have 3 kids?? Have they no compassion? Have they no reguard?? Have they no conscience?? Of course they dont, they are lost, they are blinded. they are selfish and selfseeking and plot to take people down. And it works! Why???

Yes we are just visiting. God wants us to enjoy life and live abundantly.
paul does nothing wrong he goes through a storm of perfection... Operate with the mind of Christ.

Storms of perfection and storms of correction.

The Lord will restore my soul after the storm, where i work is no coincidence, nothing is by coincidence...

The Lord is my refuge from the storm

Isaiah 25:4,5 For thou hast been a strength to the poor, a strength to the needy in his distress, a refuge from the storm, a shadow from the heat, when the blast of the terrible ones is as a storm against the wall.
5 Thou shalt bring down the noise of strangers, as the heat in a dry place; even the heat with the shadow of a cloud: the branch of the terrible ones shall be brought low.

Psalm 107

They that go down to the sea in ships, that do business in great waters;
24 These see the works of the LORD, and his wonders in the deep.
25 For he commandeth, and raiseth the stormy wind, which lifteth up the waves thereof.
26 They mount up to the heaven, they go down again to the depths: their soul is melted because of trouble.
27 They reel to and fro, and stagger like a drunken man, and are at their wits' end.
28 Then they cry unto the LORD in their trouble, and he bringeth them out of their distresses.
29 He maketh the storm a calm, so that the waves thereof are still.
30 Then are they glad because they be quiet; so he bringeth them unto their desired haven.
31 Oh that men would praise the LORD for his goodness, and for his wonderful works to the children of men!


1 peter 5 vs 10
10 But the God of all grace, who hath called us unto his eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after that ye have suffered a while, make you perfect, stablish, strengthen, settle you.

everything is ordained the Lord has a time when its going to stop and that he is faithful and he will restore me he will establish me and ground me and settle me and strengthen me.

the greatest among you should be the greatest servant...
good weariness? is there such a thing?

how do i reconcile storms being ordained by God and the enemy attacking me at the same time. Who afflicted Job? satan is doing it.. the closing of the book it says the Lord conlicted Job.

the enemy seeks to steel kill and destroy and God uses and manipulates satan and his tactics to strengthen us because He is sovereign and He is in control.

I dont fit in the clique at work, they dont like me. that is evident. Its ok Jesus loves me and i am not here to please people.. i am here to please and honor God.

unaware storms? ones u dont see coming... I did nothing wrong to deserve this, but this is not punishment God loves me, God is on my side. God delights in me.

Thank U Lord for being my refuge! thank u Lord for the restoration that will take place after the storm.

I love u Lord
♥Jill

[xxJILLxx]

opposition...

storms...

trials...

i ask Him to mold into what He wants me to be, but when he does i forget i asked him

heres the deal

dayturn girl at work asked me if i could switch my hours to afternoons and have her friend work my night shift so her friend can pick up a second part time job... i told her absolutaley not because i need to be home with the kids during the afternoons to let them in and cook for them etc, plus we have church on wed and on mondays i have sos.

i seen revenge in her eyes.. i seen that it was going to be a battle. You ever seen the movie of bad girls who plot and scheme? thats what they remind me of (i pray for them often)

so that was all yesterday, today i get a phone call from the owner of the store

He siad customers are complaining that you are not opening the door at night for them... Hmm he got that info from dayturn girl, heresay. He also told me that he cannot receive no more complaints or he will have to let me go. WOW! ARE U SERIOUS?

crazy i know, almost unbelievable

so i told the owner that i would leave the door open so no one could come back and "complain" he told me no it is not safe, bad area

so i suggested he put in a new camera system, he suggested that he gets no more complaints, wow.. i tried to explain the situation to him about how the previous day she asked me to switch to afternoons and i told her no way, i cant possibley switch.. i dont think he believes me, even after all the truth and investigation with the manager and he seen that i was telling the truth and ultimately fired the manager.

tired... tired of the drama... tired of fighting this... tired of defending myself for nothing i have done wrong.. tired of working there...tired of the kiddish games

Lord i am tired I trust you, this is no coincidence, you are teaching me how to deal with difficult people, how to see that people will rise against me without cause or reason, teaching me to be patient and ultimately teaching me to trust you and know that u are in control.

no matter what happens Lord i know you re in the midst, i know u are there waiting for me, i know that you have a plan.

Lord i forgive them, please give me strength to get through this, make your presense evident and protect me with your angels around my mind for purity and no ill thoughts towards them, around my heart so i dont grow bitter, around my spirit so that they can minister to me. Around my job Lord, shine your light on the dark places and let the evil have no where to hide.

protect my family, my finances, my apartment... i know u want nothing but the best for me.

I trust you Lord

♥Jill

[xxJILLxx]

she wont leave me alone

peck peck peck peck

like an annoying crow at my window , peck peck peck

owner had apparently asked her if she got any complaints last nite.. she told him no but the doors were unlocked, i unlocked the doors at 5:45 am before she got there because i got a rush of customers, she made it seem to the owner that i had been defiant and had the doors unlocked all nite

drama! I called the owner and let him know the truth, then i called her back and let her know i called the owner and let him know what time i unlocked the doors and that he said that it was ok

why?

why the drama?

why wont she leave me alone? why does she have to peck peck peck

this morning she came in and i was all smiles, didnt say anything wrong, havent said anything wrong in the past, i have kept my tongue from speaking ill, havent said anything to provoke her, and i havent in the past either, held my composure.. didnt flinch

she wants reaction, she wants to see me buckle, she is just waiting to accuse me of anything she can think of... hmm who does that remind me of?

Its taking a toll on me, i need prayer, she needs prayer, the owner needs prayer.

I just want them to leave me alone. Let me go to work and let me do my job and let me go home. Without the drama.

Owner asked me if i was going to open tomorrow at 6 am i told yes of course, i am scheduled and he said well i dont think your happy with us.

I told him i dont want to fight with anybody and that im just trying to do my job.

She does not even have names of these "so called" drivers who complain it is all heresay.

God is good, He will restore everything.. His justice will prevail.
Hes teaching me how to deal with these certain kinds of people, it is not fun let me tell u that, it takes a toll on me spiritually, i feel withdrawn from oasis

I feel like it is consuming me and taking me away from His service. I type here because it is therapeutic to get all this stuff out and hopefully gain insight from my own words, possibly from others, support and prayers..
maybe im doing something wrong, maybe im not seeing something that someone else might
Maybe i need rebuked??? I take rebuke with a straight back, i dont run from it, i want to do what is right. God knows my heart, He knows i love Him, He knows im trying my hardest to get through this, I am standing tall through this fire, keeping my chin up, ya i cry at times, actuallly alot lately, the kids see me cry, they see what is going on, they see how it is tearing me down. I try to stay strong for the world to see but when i am home this is place of refuge, this is the place i let all loose.


God got me, I am HIs

gb
♥Jill

[mlg]

Jill my sister and my friend...have you done the Counseling steps? I think it might be much needed...you can even journal here in your Shepherd's journal so you can be more open. I see how this is eating at you sis and it's consuming you for sure.

One thing I think you worry about the most is your finances and how your gonna afford this or that...in all honesty that's not for you to worry about...the money that you are given is actually God's money and He knows what you need...He can so handle all of this for you...if you would truly just hand it over to Him...but instead your carrying it...letting it burden you...and therefore prohibiting God from working.

Sorry to intrude on your journal, but just really felt the need to let you know we care and are praying for you.

luv ya lots

[Mackenaw]

Hello Jilly

I've been lifting you up in prayer to our Lord. God's will be done.

Jill, I know it can be confusing as to why people would go out of their way to oppress and harass others, and for no apparent reason. Well, it would appear that she is threatened by you -- your countenance threatens her, your spirit chides her miserable spirit.

Remember the scripture about the light, and the darkness comprehended it not? She does not even know the "why" of it, but your presence makes her uncomfortable. It is Him in you that has her squirm -- because of who is influencing her -- the enemy of our souls.

Hold tight, Jill -- the Lord will make a way. He'll reveal His plans for you -- whether it is to bring change in your current place of work, or whether He'll lead you to another job. He knows how your spirit is being vexed. He loves you. Hold on, Jilly, hold on. The Lord has this.

May God bless and keep you, sweet Jill.
Love and hugs,
Mack

[xxJILLxx]

Thank you ladies, its comforting to know that i have peeps out there that i never met in person who love me soooo much!

Forgive me for being weak in battles, Hes teaching me to be stronger, bear with me

Hes been showing me that i just have to TRUST him, and that because of Him people will come against me and that i have to stay strong, but also its ok to look for support and encouragement from my brothers and sisters.

Things at work are still the same... cut my hrs to 24 hrs
The one girl at work got her car impounded and has court dates and may not be able to get back n forth to work so idk maybe i can gain more hrs there.

Just gonna sit back and see what God is doing and also got 24 resumes ready to be handed out and were prayed over by the elders at church.

Gonna venture out tomorrow after the kids go to school and let His Spirit guide me to where they are to go and see what happens.

Love u guys and thanks for being there for me, always here for u all too .

Gbu
♥Jill

[xxJILLxx]

well no phone calls for a job yet, praying GOd will open a door somewhere, guess next week ill have to try again. Make some more copies of resumes and do the same thing.

youth group last nite was good, we had a few teens from the school of the two teens lost to the dual suicide, suicide murder (not sure what happened yet still an investigation) calling hours were yesterday and today for both boys. Gotta be tremendously hard on the families around christmas.

i would think it would not be much of a christmas for them at all. so so sad my heart pours out to them. I cant begin to imagine losing a child. The enemy come to steal kill and destroy

Hes so sneaky i think of a thief

steal~ sneaks in unnoticed, surveys the victim , finds the weak spots where he could break in, a broken window that has been ignored, an unlocked door, a door that is left unlit...so sad the enemy is a punk! Preys on their weaknesses

kill~ smother, snuff out, take the breath of life, beats them up slowly... gradually over time they get weak and give in.. tooo tired to fight off

destroy~ to render useless... he kills them so they can no longer be of use or have the opportunity to be of use to God.

Jesus is LIFE!
He brings HOPE!
REDEMPTION
LOVE

the enemy is a punk

Lord breath your breath of life in these youths dry bones, breathe your breath of life over the city of Youngstown. So much murder, so much homosexuality, so much disrespect for authority, thieves..

On the way to wrk a week ago God gave me a vision

i could see the city in the distance and over the city i seen a dark cloud, and He like zoomed me in on the cloud and the cloud was not a cloud but a swarm of flies buzzing frantically and in unison. They were swooping down from the sky over the city and attacking unnoticed by the naked eyes of the victims and then when the damage was done they would regather in the swarm and violently thrash around to see whom was their next victim. People think the city is depressed but God showed me it was oppressed. Its dark, gloomy, lifeless...


1 The hand of the LORD was upon me, and carried me out in the spirit of the LORD, and set me down in the midst of the valley which was full of bones,
2 And caused me to pass by them round about: and, behold, there were very many in the open valley; and, lo, they were very dry.
3 And he said unto me, Son of man, can these bones live? And I answered, O Lord GOD, thou knowest.
4 Again he said unto me, Prophesy upon these bones, and say unto them, O ye dry bones, hear the word of the LORD.
5 Thus saith the Lord GOD unto these bones; Behold, I will cause breath to enter into you, and ye shall live:
6 And I will lay sinews upon you, and will bring up flesh upon you, and cover you with skin, and put breath in you, and ye shall live; and ye shall know that I am the LORD.
7 So I prophesied as I was commanded: and as I prophesied, there was a noise, and behold a shaking, and the bones came together, bone to his bone.
8 And when I beheld, lo, the sinews and the flesh came up upon them, and the skin covered them above: but there was no breath in them.
9 Then said he unto me, Prophesy unto the wind, prophesy, son of man, and say to the wind, Thus saith the Lord GOD; Come from the four winds, O breath, and breathe upon these slain, that they may live.

Hes calling me to the city, i think the youth is going to be a big part of this.
in February we will begin to bus youth to the church on wednesdays. I will be driving in my neighborhood and into the city. Protect us Lord, bless this ministry for your glory Lord. Prepare the workers for this. In Jesus name Amen

Hes been giving me so many visions lately, i can see opression, i can discern who the Holy Spirit resides in and doesnt. I see many things. Dreams are coming like crazy, my nathan is having these dreams too, my daughter as well.

I seen rivers of water coming out of our church and into the streets and downhill into the city.

Hes showing me to unite with other churches that surround the city. ( we are in the outskirts) Surround the city He tells me, gather the workers. Prepare, Get ready, keep watch.

I see two worlds colliding one trying to overlap the other but there is so much resistance, like a reversed eclipse the light is on top.. He is just pouring these visions on me.

Crazy? Nah... Its GOD!

Awesome God!
You Reign
Glory to the Lamb

love u guys
Gb
♥Jill

[xxJILLxx]

Spending alot of time with God and experiencing my Spiritual senses.

Seeing into the spiritual realm under the authority of Jesus and by the Holy Spirit.

He gives me visions of healings, at first when i was having these i thought maybe i was doing something wrong, but He reassured me that i am bringing the kingdom of God to our world. "Thy kingdom come, Thy will be done on earth as it is in Heaven"




God sent me some encouragers who have this gift as well, i was thrilled to know that there are other people out there who understand me, who dont pass judgement, and who are encouraging me to embrace my gifts and use them for HIs glory.

Bout 3 weeks ago there was a boy in our pew, he had limped in the church his mother had expressed that she dont know what the boy had done to his leg but he was playing around the night before and that morning he was in alot of pain with his hip. He had not previous problems with his leg. My friend motioned me to come over and pray for him, we asked him if i culd pray for him and he said yes and i asked him if i could lay my hands over where it was hurting and he said yes.

Well i prayed and as i prayed i seen his muscles realigning to original form, glory to God always, after the prayer i asked him on a scale of 1 to 10 how did it feel, i urged him to move around and test it out i also let him know he has to beleive it to recieve it. He said it was a 5 i said praise God! and offered to pray again and release His kingdom. Guys i kid u not, all through service i was looking over at the boy and i can see him testing his leg out, and i was wondering how his leg was, if it had worked or hadnt but also praying for HIs will not mine and all glory to God for i did nothing but be His hands.

well after service i went to go get nate and as i was walking back to get the teens i seen the boy with his mother, he wasnt limping ! Hallelujah! HIs mother said he is doing so much better, that wednesday night i seen his mother and she approached me and told me that he is still doing well, nno limping, no pain! God healed him! This is the first time i had layed hands on a stranger for prayer for healing. Boy did God build up my faith in Him that day! HE is so good! So that was my first step in embracing my spiritual gifts, the next step was seeing in the spiritual realm and feeling His presence, literally feeling... smelling His sweet scent and tasting HIs goodness.

Letting HIm guide me in these gifts and HIm giving me wisdom with them, on what to say what not to say and being able to describe in terms that most would be able to understand without me telling him the vision he is setting befor me.

For instance He shows me shackles around someones ankle, also that his shoes are heavy and steps require more effort than most

translated:

He is showing me that u have had a hard life and that sometimes u feel like u cant move forward, like there is something holding u back and yr steps dont come easily and He wants u to know that He sees this and to not lose heart and i want to encourage you and pray for you etc etc

IM excited on this new level He is taking me to!

Youth is going awesome! We had a focus meeting last nite and tonite we have service. They practised there dances and human videos and this saturday they are going to be performing again in front of those who are coming for food pantry at church. ing for more salvations. youth pastor also set a time of prayer and praise and worship and encouraged the teens on their walks

Tonite the sermon is going to be 'the fight for our lives' Alot of kids affected by the suicides Some of the kids falling off the youth group and trying to get them back. We dont want to leave any behind who are struggling. Keeping our eyes and ears open for these youths.

Sorry i havent been around, ihavent fallen away, just been busy with the youth group and the kids, i know yall understand

I love u guys!
♥Jill

[xxJILLxx]

I see two worlds colliding one trying to overlap the other but there is so much resistance, like a reversed eclipse the light is on top.. He is just pouring these visions on me.

He revealed to me that this is the coming of a new heaven and new earth.

He does not want us ignorant. In these last days He is simply in the process of fulfilling His promise in Matthew 10:26

Isaiah 65:17
For, behold, I create new heavens and a new earth: and the former shall not be remembered, nor come into mind.

Isaiah 66:22
For as the new heavens and the new earth, which I will make, shall remain before me, saith the Lord, so shall your seed and your name remain.

2 Peter 3:13
Nevertheless we, according to his promise, look for new heavens and a new earth, wherein dwelleth righteousness.

Revelation 21:1
And I saw a new heaven and a new earth: for the first heaven and the first earth were passed away; and there was no more sea.

thank u Jesus...

Amazing
You are wonderful o Lord
Holy Spirit open our eyes to see more of His coming
In Jesus name
Amen


wOw!

Youth was absolutely awesome yesterday.

During youth i felt His presence so strongly! During worship and praise this is what i saw

the alter turned to a gold, melted hot gold to burn away infirmities before HE could come. I seen 2 lines of angels entering on the alter shaped in a v at first then they blew their horns and the v opened up into parallel lines. The gold ran off the alter and onto the floor of the youth room and covered the youths feet. The angels blew their horns to announce His presence. when the v opened He walked through... when he opened His mouth water flowed out on them.

also seen two angels holding back a dam of water. then the 2 angels let go of the gates of the dam and the waters rushed forth and filled the room and we were immersed.

wOw


I love u Lord!

Gb
♥Jill

[xxJILLxx]

the enemy is furios.

its ok God has prepared me for this, Hes been telling me to be stronger, He s been giving me dreams about work, that the place was sold or shut down and a price was set on the door. A price that will be paid dearly.

Today just a lil while ago, got a phone call from the dayturn girl
she said Amir (the owner) wanted me to call u and tell u that u are off the schedule for the next few weeks because customer complaints.

i said what?? She said you heard me... I said what kind of complaints, she said well complaints that u havent been opeing the doors at work for customers and the new onw is that a customer came in and complained that you were being rude to him. I said are u serious? She said yes. I said ok, didnt get mad.. didnt cry... i know the enemy is using them to try to tear me down.

So prayers appreciated please for a job, Gods justice, and finances.. I know God is going to provide, but please war for me, fight for your sister in prayer, i need you guys. also my children lift them up as they see the battle before me and how my choosing to follow God sometimes brings oppostion of the world and being it so close to Christmas... i just dont want thtem to get discouraged in their new walks with the Lord.

appreciate all of you so very much, and i knew God was preparing me for this.. and i am ok.. i have a peace.. im calm... i know God is in control

gbu all
♥Jill

[Mackenaw]

I am praying for you, Jill.

God's blessed will be done.

Love,
Mack

[xxJILLxx]

and yes mack God is good!

ty for yr prayers

I tried to call the owner for a paperwork stated why i am suspended he did not answer my phone call. I called the girl and told her i would need that paperwork because verbal suspension is not binding without paper, also that i needed paperwork of the customer complaints what time they were at the store and dated and signed by the customers. Which thye have none of.

She said what do u need that for.??
I replied i just need it for my record.

duh... when u get susupended u get a peiece of paper i have never been written up or anything there, there is no paperwork of these complaints. Cmon now people u gonna suspend me do it legally, this is ludacris!

totally rediculous

God is definately in control over this and i know justice will prevail.

GOD IS GOOD AND HE IS GOOD TO ME!
wo hooo

God's blessed will be done

In Jesus name
Amen
love u guys
♥Jill