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[inHishands]

Enemy of my soul-

This one wasn't so hard to get...Satan wants my soul, my thoughts, my heart, my body, all of me...Well too bad! All of those things and then some belong to God! I am human and did inherit sin however, it will not define my salvation. I will continue to try to resist temptation, I will continue to pray everyday, I will continue to share the word of God with whoever will listen to me, I will continue to do everything I can to live a Godly life. I know I will fall, but I also know in my heart of hearts that He will forgive me, that He loves me and will never forsake me. My heart is filled with so much joy because of God's love for me. I have so much more to learn and so much more growing to do but man...God is so good! He has such a gentle way of dealing with me and showing me what i'm suppose to be doing.

I have been in a relationship for almost 2 years. We do live together and it's weighing heavy on my heart. I know it's not the right thing to do, however, I don't have the means to move out right now so I have to wait to get on my feet...It'll come soon. Anyway, I've been trying to develope a stronger relationship with God. I've been trying to do the right thing, to live for Him...so I've been feeling guilty about having sex (I've been doing the steps everyday and not reading ahead or anything like that) so today, I read Stepping stone 8. Wow! It's amazing how God is speaking to me. I had a conversation with my boyfriend last night and told him that I was trying to strengthen my sprit and faith. That I am trying to do the right thing and that having sex felt wrong to me. I fully expected him to freak out, but he didn't really say anything. I assured him that I did love him but I just needed to find myself and know that I was making God proud of me. Then I read the lesson today and it just reassured me. Thank you God for giving me strength.

inHishands

[mlg]

Yes sis, the enemy of your soul is always running to and fro...but it doesn't mean you have to fall into his sneaky traps. As you grow with God you will begin to recognize the signs of temptation more easily and you will begin to develop ways in which to use God's strength to help you fight the temptation.

As for you and your boyfriend sis, does this not seem like the one that God wants you to marry? Is marriage not an option? Just wondering.

luv ya lots

[Dora]

inHishands I am certain God looks on you and smiles.

He must love the way you accept his grace to cover your sins. That you understand you will fall and aren't allowing that to hinder you from moving forward.

The way you have such a strong desire to please him must make him proud.

God bless and keep you dear one.

[inHishands]

I'm not sure if he is "the one". I've been struggling with that for a while. I know I love him and care for him. He loves me so much and will do anything for me...but there is something missing. I don't know if I'm inlove with him anymore...or worse, if I ever was. The spiritual connection is missing. He's Catholic and only goes to church on the holidays. We've talked about faith and religion and he knows I am a woman of faith. I've asked him to go to church with me but his response was "is this going to be a 3 hour extravaganza?" so I said never mind and now go alone. I only listen to Christian music, so he got in the car one day and asked if I would change it. I told him I didn't want to listen to something that was going to belittle women or be sexual or violent so he let it go and has not asked me to listen to anything else (in my car, he listens to whatever he wants in his). I've been praying on this for a long time. I need for God to guide me and show me if this is who I'm suppose to be with and if it is...I pray I can feel the love I'm suppose to feel when I look at him.

[Dora]

Sounds like you are seeking a spiritual union with this man. There is hope that he can be reached and a spiritual fire will begin to burn with in him.

Praying for him and for you as well.
Gods will be done.

[inHishands]

Yes, I am seeking a spiritual union but I also want to know that I'm inlove with him. I don't feel that I am.

[mlg]

Sis I pray that you seek God's face in this matter, and if it is the right union then you will be married shortly instead of living together, and if it's not that you will allow God to open a door for you to move into your own place, or to your own room if you can't afford to move out yet.

God will provide all your needs, but you have to trust Him to do so...and then let Him work.

Praying for you.

luv ya

[deetu]

Hi
I just wanted to jump in here to say my husband is Catholic (I was saved after we were married) He goes to church on Sundays but isn't filled with the Holy Spirit. I sometimes wondered if I should be married to him because it is so difficult to be me, loving God around him but I believe that he will come to love God the same some day. And that will make him a different person.
So I pray that God makes Himself real to my husband.
To fill him with the Holy Spirit.

Don't know if that helps you any but felt I should tell you.

[Dora]

Yes, I am seeking a spiritual union but I also want to know that I'm inlove with him. I don't feel that I am.

It is possible if there was spiritual unity you feelings towards him would change.



luv ya

Gods good and perfect will be done.

[inHishands]

I've prayed alot about this and will continue to do so. Last night we were in the car and he started singing a Christian song (Jesus Freak). This was our conversation:

Me- "How do you know that song?, Oh you must have heard it in my car" Him-"No, I told you I used to listen to that stuff before, I actually Youtubed it the other day"
Me- "That stuff?, you say that like it's a plague or something"
Him-"No, I used to go to church every sunday and went to see Jars of Clay"
Me- "So you used to be more religious/spiritual than you are now?"
Him- "No, it wasn't that I was spiritual or religious"
Me- "So you went to church because your parents made you go basically"
Him- "Well yeah, that was the major reason but sometimes I would be there to pray about stuff I was thinking about"
Me- "babe you should always pray about everything. Every major or minor decision or issue you have should be prayed on. A job change, home decisions, family decisions, anything. I volunteer at church and prayed about it because how am I suppose to know if it's something God wants for me right now unless I ask for His guidance?"

He changed the subject.

[mlg]

Hmmm interesting conversation...like someone who knows that God is there and watching, but yet refuses to acknowledge His existance.

Just wondering sis, how long have you been witnessing to him?

luv ya

[inHishands]

When we first started dating we would talk about God, but I never pressured him, never in a forceful way because I was still finding out who I was..however, when he came over he saw that I had a couple of pieces of art that were "religious" (i.e. a blessing over the door, I got from a friend who went to Israel, a picture of 2 hands and poem that referred to Him giving me strength, etc...). He never said anything about it. At that time I lived in Erie, Pa, I moved closer to home about 6 months later. I bought alot more stuff and put it up, but still he said nothing. I would ask him if he liked a certain piece and he would say "yeah, it's nice" but nothing further than that. When my father got diagnosed with Pancreatic Cancer a few months ago, I asked him to pray with me and he has a couple of times but it feels like he's doing it to comfort me rather than because he wants to pray. I know he is sincere about asking God to heal my dad but if my dad wasn't sick he wouldn't be praying for him...you know what I mean?