Christianity Oasis Forum

[mlg]

Sis, I must agree hearing about God's grace is not the same as having God's grace. To experience God's grace for yourself, comes by you accepting His grace. God can't force you to accept His grace, He can only offer it to you. It's your choice.

Praying that God gives you strength through the day.

luv ya

[tigerlily]

this is what i struggle with, I want to accept Jesus but i dont know theres something that won't let me, thats stopping me and I dont have a clue what, its so fustrating,

[momof3]

lil.......i sense doubt. Doubt in alot of areas..but mostly that He loves you...and can change your life. Could this be what is holding you back?

luv you, girl.

in Jesus,
momo

[mlg]

Tigerlily, I wonder if you don't trust God and maybe blame Him for some things and hence why you can't accept Him. Time for some true heart searching sis. Something is holding you back, now time to find what it is.

luv ya

[tigerlily]

I don't see why I would blame God for anything, I doubt he's done anything in my life that would require blame, I dont think I particularly blame anyone for the way my life is, its just how is it and i get on with it the best i can. Maybe because its impossible to pinpoint a single person then i lay the blame more on myself then anyone else, but i dont know.

One thing i struggle with, or just don't do, is pray, i can ask to be forgiven, but i just feel as though im talking to the air, it seems fruitless, and how do i know if i am truely forgiven, if i repent from the heart? but then how do you know if you are really repenting from the heart, especially if its likely that you'll go do the same thing again the next day?

[mlg]

Tigerlily I see a lot of doubt in yourself and in the things you ask of God. See you doubt that you are truly asking God to forgive you. The thing is, the enemy wants you to doubt. This is the way that the enemy keeps you bound in chains. As long as you are doubting, then you can't be believing. Now, the next time you profess something to God, I want you to speak it out loud and with conviction in your heart that what you say will be done through the power of Jesus. Then believe and you will receive...no doubting allowed.

luv ya

[tigerlily]

my problems are depression, lieing, doubt and this ...

Ok, this is hard, so hard and i have a distinct lack of words so i may have to be very forward with it. When i was 10 years old my best friend, the one i told you about in my other writing, the one i fell out with, told me how to masturbate, i don't how it moved from there, a few whispered words in the playground to the stage its at today, but the secret has remained with me ever since and with me only, ive never shared my body with anyone else, or told anyone else about it, i never even told jenny that i had tried it, i guess we were both young girls, i think if i remember rightly the conversation happened just after our first sex education lesson and i guess we were interested in how our bodies were going to change. Anyway, after that conversation i went home and tried what she told me and ever since that day theres barely been a week in which i haven't touched myself in ways i shouldn't, as i got older i got more adventurous and began to be more experimental with my body and perversely getting more pleasure out of it i met a guy on the internet, a friend of a friend kind of thing, and we would have erotic conversations but then i got scared of him, realised he might try to do more with me and maybe however much it was tempting to do it, i knew i didn't want that and now we barely speak, apart from when the desire gets too much. Another problem is my books, ive taken to reading books that i know might have sexual passages in that will lead to me doing things to myself.

I find that just before I start these things that im thinking of God looking down on me and knowing that he'll be ashamed of me but these thoughts always loose out in the end and afterwards I always feel terribly guilty about it but instead of doing anything about it i just put it aside and think ill worry about it later, i'll sort it later, well maybe the later is now.

and im selfish

[lizzie]

And guess what? God loves you sooo much

No matter what you are struggling with. God sees the little girl within.

We all have habits and sin areas that we need to work on. God forgives. Never forget that, and remember also that u have to forgive yourself.

Being able to identify and confess of our sins is very important. Sometimes we feel so ashamed of our sins that we keep them hidden, for fear of judgement. This is exactly what satan wants. Bringing it out into the light of the Lord helps us in taking the steps we need to overcome.

As you continue to build your relationship with the Lord, and fill your time and thoughts with Him and seeking His will, you will find the strength you need to turn away from those temptations when they come.

Lust starts in the mind first, before we ever take action. So this is an area you will want to keep close guard over. Thoughts are things. Guarding our thought life is very important.

Dont get overwhelmed ok. It is a process. We may stumble here and there, but we get up and keep going. Always get up and keep going. Quitting is NOT allowed

You are doin wonderfully

[mlg]

Tiger sis, I want you to know that we are all sinners saved by the grace of God through offering His son Jesus to die for our sins. See God knew that we would have sins that were difficult for us to fight off, and He knew that our flesh would overwhelm us at times, and He is such a loving God that He wanted to be able to forgive us when we fall.

I do want to suggest that whatever temptations are leading you to the masturbation, such as internet conversations, books, etc....replace these things with things to keep you from falling such as Christian music, reading the Bible, praying and coming to the Oasis chatroom to fellowship with others. God can heal you of this sis, if you will let Him. He offers so many things one can do when the enemy comes around trying to tempt you. Fight the good fight sis. You can do this.

luv ya lots

[tigerlily]

I knew I'd be told i should give up my books and thats about the hardest thing that you could have asked me to do, im one major bookworm, i have over 100 books at home, but if i stay away from ones that I know will have lustfull scenes in them ?


I always find that looking at creation, helps me to see that God has to exist as science can't simply explain how we were created its not possible that we can exist purely through science, what is science anyway? With my degree im always been asked, doesn't it show that science is right but really it makes me understand more about how amazing and unexplainable the world is but also how it all fits together so intricately and works so well, just like clockwork.

i think im ready to fight again, and i think i know that God exists and that im his child, but for it to really sink in I need some thinking time,

[mlg]

Yes sis, I'm sorry that is what I meant, stay away from books that will lead you into temptation. I like to read as well, and if I may, I'd like to suggest a book for you to read. It's called The Shack and it is written by Wm. Paul Young. It's a really good book, that I think you will enjoy. I know I have.

Ok, as far as science sis, the Bible expressly talks about this here is where Paul was warning Timothy to stay away from those who would try and dispute God through science.

1 Timothy 6:20
O Timothy, keep that which is committed to thy trust, avoiding profane and vain babblings, and oppositions of science falsely so called:

I'm glad to see you are gaining hope sis. You are beginning to grow. Jesus is smiling on you sis.

luv ya

[tigerlily]

Im far to tired to make any coherent comments so good luck with understanding any of this.

will this process work, so that when i want to tell lies if I tell myself the truth as well, i wont tell lie? I can envisage holding arguments with myself.

And how do you know the difference between truth and lies because sometimes they seem to be confused together ?