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by **Dora** » Mon Jul 06, 2009 6:24 pm

Hello Josi *hug*

Amen to the last paragraph.

Why do you hate Gods child sis? Don't ya know you are his workmanship created in Christ Jesus? Don't be so ruff on Gods girl.

God loves you and so do I!

by **josinella** » Mon Jul 06, 2009 10:04 pm

Thanks all for the love reach out and words of encouragement. I feel the Holy Spirit flow between us as He does when we are gathered together in His name.

I need to follow through on stepping stone 2 and put up notes around the house that are encouraging reminders of God's many talks with me. I am in the midst of transition (transformation) from believing that the glass is half empty to the glass overflowing with the Grace & Mercy of the Blood of the Lamb.

I built a wall around my soul that no one could penetrate. God just jumped in one day, as if to say Enough is Enough. It is hard for me to believe that He has chosen me to do His will. I guess I need to stop questioning and just accept it.

I can't articulate enough how loving God has been with me this weekend. I couldn't stand myself but God was with me and told me the truth about my soul. He is breaking down my hateful belief system. If God can see a loving heart, why can't I?

I know that I will get better, it's like learning how to skate: I just have to let go of the wall and get out there. He's not going to let me fall. Even if I do, He will be the first one to pick me up and get me going again! I've got to put my trust in Him!!!!!!!!

by **mlg** » Mon Jul 06, 2009 10:26 pm

yes sis, make sure you follow through with the directions of each step. It's important that you complete each step as it is written to receive the full effect of the healing God has for you.

Why can't you love yourself as God loves you? Because your still looking at the past instead of where God wants you to be. Because you are looking at the sins of the flesh, instead of who God is in you. Love yourself like God does sis, because God now lives within you. How can you not love that?

Have a wonderful evening sis.

luv ya

by **Dora** » Tue Jul 07, 2009 6:55 am

Josi

I can't articulate enough how loving God has been with me this weekend. I couldn't stand myself but God was with me and told me the truth about my soul. He is breaking down my hateful belief system. If God can see a loving heart, why can't I?

Take every one of those words God has spoken about who you are in his eyes and memorize them. Speak them to yourself daily, 12 times daily.

Glad to see you are starting to let Gods little girl live.

by **josinella** » Tue Jul 07, 2009 6:55 pm

This is the confusing part of my renewal, significant people in my life have told me that I need to let the little girl die, including ministers. I feel like I am fighting demons, and my self confidence is low. I am really trying to hear God and believe in Him. I think sometimes people mean well, but are not on-track with God's plan for the individual. That's what makes this scary. The only reason why I am hanging on now is God is real and He has made His point abundantly clear.

I am taking steps to walk by faith and let people in. I visited a church member today, and I am rebuilding my relationship with my stepson. I am going to his game today. I am also allowing God to handle my problems more and more.

I still have inner core issues that God is pressing through. It is like He is dealing with me constantly on this. I am afraid that I have repressed something that He is trying to surface. Sometimes I feel like I am on the verge of grasping it, and I lose it. I want to be me again and serve the Lord. He says that I am already doing that.

I will be glad when I get through this. It is like I am okay and then I am overwhelmed with feelings of this memory that I can't completely grasp and I'm reaching to Him to help me with it. I think this is why I can't stand myself. It happened this weekend. I blamed it on being tired. It keeps me doubting and isolating myself. Like I want to be alone when it hits. God just keeps telling me to be honest with my feelings, I am on the right path. I never thought I was the type of person capable of repressing feelings.

by **Dora** » Tue Jul 07, 2009 8:05 pm

Josi

I just realized the KJV bible calls us little children 28 times.

I'm thinking this means God sees us as little children.

Matthew 18:3
And said, Verily I say unto you, Except ye be converted, and become as little children, ye shall not enter into the kingdom of heaven.

1 John 4:4 Ye are of God, little children, and have overcome them: because greater is he that is in you, than he that is in the world.

As far as wanting to be alone Satan wants you to go off alone so you are weaker. Though time alone with God is so very important.

I think of that verse about how it is better to be two so when one falls the other can help them up. I can't find the verse though. Will keep looking.

Would you like to share this memory? Get it out in the open so we can help you with it? We are so use to hiding our sin because of what others will think. We are so often judged so heavily. Yet here you will find no judgement.

Love you *hug*

by **mlg** » Tue Jul 07, 2009 8:24 pm

Sis, sorting out one's feelings is often one of the most difficult parts of the Christian walk. Feelings and emotions are deeply rooted within us...to be able to control these we have to lean more and more on God and less on our own self. I am one that gets my feelings hurt easily, but I'm learning to not allow things to touch my feelings as much. That when I notice that my feelings are being touched, to immediately go to God and hand over whatever is bothering me. Therefore, my emotions can't have a chance to grab a hold of my actions.

Keep working on growing sis. God is doing a work in you. Just take one step at a time.

luv ya

by **Christianity Oasis** » Tue Jul 07, 2009 9:05 pm

josinella wrote: significant people in my life have told me that I need to let the little girl die

The most "significant" source in our lives, has told us ...

Matthew 18:2-3 ... And Jesus called a little child unto him, and set him in the midst of them, And said, Verily I say unto you, Except ye be converted, and become as little children, ye shall not enter into the kingdom of Heaven.

One of the "significant" sources is WRONG.

Which one ya think it is?

Allow the child within to be set free from the Spiritual prison.

TRUTH sets us FREE.

Luv ya

by **josinella** » Wed Jul 08, 2009 1:21 pm

I don't know what it is to be "like a little child". I was a little adult that was never alllowed to be a child. This feels like what God is trying to bring me to, being who He sees me as: myself. This week has been awful but I am not suicidal, not really depressed. I just want God to help me get through it so I can do His will and get on with life. I hate it when I get like this.

Pine, I think you might be referring to the relationship that Jonathan had with David in the days of Saul. The loved each other to the soul. I have never had a relationship with anyone like this. I yearn for this. I do love the Lord and I know that He loves me. But it is hard for me to love myself and I know He knows that. I think that is why later He has been so wonderful, sticking by me in this and urging me to seek Him, through Him through others. It is hard for me to reach out to people when I get like this.

I am so glad that God gave me with wisdom & strength to be the parent that I am. My kids are very well adjusted and know the Lord. Sometimes the way I love and treat them is so vastly different than how I was treated that it really lets me know how deeply entrenched my family was with Satan. The confusing part is that they went to church religiously. I am coming to see that I was in the middle of a spiritual battle, as a child, with my family. I think they tried to 'beat' God's grace out of me. It is them that I hear when I try to reach out to people and draw back. It is them that I hear saying that people won't understand and think I'm crazy when I witness.

These are the things that God has been countering in me in the last year. He has brought things up that I thought I would never remember and given me His wisdom. He sees the good in me, as well as the bad. It is the good that He loves, encourages, and connects with in me. Like He did when I was little. God has reached inside my wall and is speaking directly to me heart. But it is that little heart that is broken, Pine, it pushes away and I honestly don't know why, when I should welcome Him.[/i][/b]

by **mlg** » Wed Jul 08, 2009 1:59 pm

josinella wrote: It is them that I hear saying that people won't understand and think I'm crazy when I witness.
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Sis, you remember when Peter was preaching and John were preaching?

Acts 4:13
Now when they saw the boldness of Peter and John, and perceived that they were unlearned and ignorant men, they marvelled; and they took knowledge of them, that they had been with Jesus.

They were thought to be unlearned and ignorant. Those that don't Jesus, will often say how crazy Christians are. In reality they just don't honestly know any better, because they do not recognize Truth. Don't let other people's perceptions stop you sis, because as we all know, Jesus knows the truth.

As far as not knowing how to be the little girl...my sister being a child comes by being free. It's like the catepillar that turns into a beautiful butterfly, but at first it is all wrapped up in a cocoon that holds it captive. Continue allowing God to bring freedom to your heart sis, and then you will find that little girl. She wants to come out and play you know.

luv ya sis

by **Mackenaw** » Wed Jul 08, 2009 2:24 pm

Hello Josinella *hug*

God bless you this day.

You stated:

It is them that I hear when I try to reach out to people and draw back. It is them that I hear saying that people won't understand and think I'm crazy when I witness.

So what if people think you are crazy? Throughout the whole Bible you'll find where God's children were regarded as crazy. The Word, itself, calls us a peculiar people. We don't fit in. We've been separated out. It's like trying to fit a square peg in a round hole -- it won't fit.

I truly understand what you are saying and asking. Lots of "religious" people have taught you this and that, but now...what are you to believe? Were they ALL wrong? And how come I'm not happy and where are my friends? Am I ever going to be loved and treated well?

Well, I don't know all the plans God has in store for you. But He does. So, who better to get to know? This 14 Day Path Study is just the beginning

And while you are on this journey, God has brought people into your life -- all of us here who are corresponding with you. Just look at that for a moment. In a couple weeks time, God has brought many people into your world. I know we are not there in person that you could see us or get a hug, but we are there with you in mind/heart and in Spirit too -- praying for you.

Mark 4:28 For the earth bringeth forth fruit of herself; first the blade, then the ear, after that the full corn in the ear.

So is it with relationships, with understanding and in life when we seek to walk the path that He, God, has for us. Some seed is still germinating, some is just starting to sprout, some there are signs of the blade, etc.

We've all been planting seed our whole lives. Lots of it was bad seed -- due to our own sin, some due to wrong teaching. But there has been some good seed planted too. We're still battling to weed out the harvest from the bad seed planted. But now we have a Helper -- The Holy Spirit. Yeah!!!

Time to plant more good seed, and watch it grow -- patiently *BigGrin*

You are doing well, Josinella. Your children, there are now planting seed of their own. Keep on the path. Keep seeking the Lord with your whole heart.

God bless you, Josinella.
Love,
Mack

by **josinella** » Wed Jul 08, 2009 11:02 pm

I went power walking today as I usually do. This is my time to really connect with God about life. I hear what you all are saying. I am committed to God but I also need to put my full faith & trust in Him. I need to trust that whenever the Holy Spirit hits me it only matters to Him what comes after.

God is very accepting of me. I fell hard spiritually last night but rather than chasten me, God gave me love, understanding & encouragement. He has allowed me to see the next step of His path for me. I'm going to do more to take care of myself & love myself better. He let me know that this will take time and that there will be support there, no more flying solo.

I'm going to love the little girl (it's even hard to say). It's difficult (unresolved feelings). But I got to trust God to handle it, no matter what.

Thanks again for this ministry!

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