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what day is it ?
by vahn » Tue Mar 10, 2009 1:02 pm
I was going to start this off as day 1 - again - type of tile for a subject , but experience tells me there is no such thing .
I had learnt , and still practise , the same principles of a 12 stp. prog . as I do this one , which by the way are very similar . the 12th step reads as , "having had a spiritual awakening as a result of these steps , we try to practice them in All of our daily affairs ", so seeing it in that perspective , there is no such thing as "go back and do it again" type situation , since I'm supposed to practise ALL of the steps Everyday , in Everything I do, including harm done by others. That , is the main purpose it was suggested by truly caring people I met here at OASIS .
In addition to the 12 steps , the support group I'm involved in also has 12 Traditions to be practised as well , and the 12th of that one suggests that we place these principles (stps & trdtns) befor personalities.
It's that tradition , that I had neglected to heed , that led me back into this warfare that I found myself engaged in, and my focus being directed to winning-at-all-cost , and getting even , an-eye-for-an-entire-head aditude that I had been carrying, led me right back to where I was the first time I found myself typing in this forum.
Well, maybe if I was to type the extent of the gratitude I'd like to express to God , OASIS , and all of the COOLies (in that order) that are going out of their way to lend Jesus' hand to me before sinking , and just "cut-n-paste" b'tween the lines , my fingers would not be as sore afterwards.
Now, on with it , Inability to forgive other's actions that were taken which all but seperated me from God once again , is (or should I say was) the main reason of receiving that suggestion as God's will for me to do so. Just by reading step 1 made me realize how far off I had veered from His purpose for me and totally neglected it , 'cause I was too wrapped up in figuring out how to take matters in my own hands and get away with it , and needless to say, upon taking a good look , and as , I think it was Pete , that said , examine yourself , no, 'twas David , in one of his psalms, something like "examine me Lord and create in me a pure heart" (dont rember the exact words , the the concept is the same ) , I found a full scale tornado is in progress inside.
Well, the first thing I read in day 1 was, IF OUR LORD CAN CALM THE SEA ...
IMAGINE WHAT HE CAN DO FOR YOUR SOUL .
Hmmm. Buuut , immediatly I go "yeah but , my case ..." then I read Matthew 17:20
"and nothing shall be impossible unto you." "..."ye shall say unto this mountain, Remove hence to yonder place; and it shall remove" I'm going ok , ok , I got it already ! sheeze ! and almost left it at that right ?
That's when it dawned on me "hey , vahn , you're trying to take matters in your own hands and you are feeling GUILTY about it , that's what your problem is , you're going back into that " step aside Lord, I'll take it from here" atitude , which you know darn well that it not the the way to go about this, for "Vengence is MINE ," says the Lord , and here I am steppin in to His biz once again.
So, I get back , an d read more , and I start laughing ...Matthew 18:3
Verily I say unto you, Except ye become as little children, ye shall not enter into the kingdom of heaven"
Need I say more ?
I had learnt , and still practise , the same principles of a 12 stp. prog . as I do this one , which by the way are very similar . the 12th step reads as , "having had a spiritual awakening as a result of these steps , we try to practice them in All of our daily affairs ", so seeing it in that perspective , there is no such thing as "go back and do it again" type situation , since I'm supposed to practise ALL of the steps Everyday , in Everything I do, including harm done by others. That , is the main purpose it was suggested by truly caring people I met here at OASIS .
In addition to the 12 steps , the support group I'm involved in also has 12 Traditions to be practised as well , and the 12th of that one suggests that we place these principles (stps & trdtns) befor personalities.
It's that tradition , that I had neglected to heed , that led me back into this warfare that I found myself engaged in, and my focus being directed to winning-at-all-cost , and getting even , an-eye-for-an-entire-head aditude that I had been carrying, led me right back to where I was the first time I found myself typing in this forum.
Well, maybe if I was to type the extent of the gratitude I'd like to express to God , OASIS , and all of the COOLies (in that order) that are going out of their way to lend Jesus' hand to me before sinking , and just "cut-n-paste" b'tween the lines , my fingers would not be as sore afterwards.
Now, on with it , Inability to forgive other's actions that were taken which all but seperated me from God once again , is (or should I say was) the main reason of receiving that suggestion as God's will for me to do so. Just by reading step 1 made me realize how far off I had veered from His purpose for me and totally neglected it , 'cause I was too wrapped up in figuring out how to take matters in my own hands and get away with it , and needless to say, upon taking a good look , and as , I think it was Pete , that said , examine yourself , no, 'twas David , in one of his psalms, something like "examine me Lord and create in me a pure heart" (dont rember the exact words , the the concept is the same ) , I found a full scale tornado is in progress inside.
Well, the first thing I read in day 1 was, IF OUR LORD CAN CALM THE SEA ...
IMAGINE WHAT HE CAN DO FOR YOUR SOUL .
Hmmm. Buuut , immediatly I go "yeah but , my case ..." then I read Matthew 17:20
"and nothing shall be impossible unto you." "..."ye shall say unto this mountain, Remove hence to yonder place; and it shall remove" I'm going ok , ok , I got it already ! sheeze ! and almost left it at that right ?
That's when it dawned on me "hey , vahn , you're trying to take matters in your own hands and you are feeling GUILTY about it , that's what your problem is , you're going back into that " step aside Lord, I'll take it from here" atitude , which you know darn well that it not the the way to go about this, for "Vengence is MINE ," says the Lord , and here I am steppin in to His biz once again.
So, I get back , an d read more , and I start laughing ...Matthew 18:3
Verily I say unto you, Except ye become as little children, ye shall not enter into the kingdom of heaven"
Need I say more ?
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by mlg » Tue Mar 10, 2009 2:20 pm
Vahn, you know something....I sensed a dangerous feeling about you, when you first came back to the Oasis. I now realize that the dangerous feeling was from you thinking that you should take revenge...instead of allowing God to handle things. Did you know that if you pray for your enemies...it is like heaping coals on their head? Let God be God, my friend, and you work on allowing Him to heal you.
It is so good to see you are beginning the steps. I pray that God will bring peace to your heart and mind, as you walk along this journey.
luv ya
It is so good to see you are beginning the steps. I pray that God will bring peace to your heart and mind, as you walk along this journey.
luv ya
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