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[Dora]

God is love.
Love so great he would sacrifice his son so we could be forgiven our sins. Our sins are removed as far as the east is from the west.
We still don't know how far the east is from the west. Scientists with their huge telescopes are still finding more in all directions. It's bigger than my mind can imagine.
If his forgiveness is bigger than our universe then his love is also.
His love dwells in us. That's a great big love in us. I just gotta tap into it. I tell ya the truth today is I'm not feeling it. I mean I know his love is there for me, but why can't I share it in the quantity that he shares.
But it's there all the same. A love so great the universe can not contain it is inside of me. Cause God is in me. Why then is it hard to love sometimes. I don't mean to say I am dwelling in hate. But love is patient and kind. Right now I am grouchy. Two sick kids crying and getting into trouble and I'm running out of patience. If I got a great big love in me, why am I running out of patience? A few grouchy people and a couple small unfortunate events happen and and I'm this instead of

God is in me and God is a love so great, am I missing something here? Shouldn't I be able to tap into the qualities of love every moment I need them.

Something just happened that made me giggle. A dog and a toddler seems to bring about laughter everytime. Something about that dogs big floppy tongue and a toddlers laugh can change my mood everytime. Maybe that is it. Looking for and expecting the good, happy moments amongst the unpleasant moments and holding onto those that are good and letting go of those that are bad.

Truth is next. Well the truth is I was feeling grouchy and unGodly.
Bearing false witness against my neighbor is an easy law for me to uphold now. It wasn't always this way though. There was a time people couldn't believe what I said because I never told the truth. Made up stories for attention, stretching the truth about situations so people would be on my side and turn against the other person, causing them emotional pain. So glad I am freed from this now. It was any ugly way to live. Sure it still is a temptation some times and it sometimes is hard to tell the truth. My struggle now is being honest with myself about myself. I've shed so many ungodly qualities that I can get to feeling good about myself (self-righteous) and start seeing errors in others (judgemental). Ugh! What a nasty dirty place that is. Pride comes before a fall.

Attitude: ~ Optimism ~ I admire people who are optimists. They seem to find that joy that I'm always looking for. Always been a pessimist myself. Misery likes company and there are so many negative thinkers our there. But God's been working on changing me. I think about 6 months ago God showed me I had a bad attitude and need to start taking responsibility for this and not just accepting that I have always been that way, always will be that way. It's getting easier to be an optimist. When I'm pessimistic I feel I'm throwing pearls to the pigs. But when I get self-righteous I feel like I've fallen face first into the pigs mud. Well we all know it's not just mud. That's how nasty self-righteousness is.

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Pine, step 2 huh sis? Looks like it brought about lots of thoughts, some negative, but in the end the positive shined through. So glad you are doing these, you are doing well and God is smiling on you, as you grow into a better you for HIM.

luv ya