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[Ann_is_Alive]

i posted back in october that my sissy was dieing. she died october 16th. she died a horrible, painful death - brain disease that ate her mind. it tore me apart. her bday was march 5th. ive been a mess the last couple of weeks. when she was diagnosed, she hired an attorney to take care of her final arrangements. and before she died, she wrote a poem and instructed the attorney to give it to me on her bday. she knows me so well, she knew i needed to hear this.

FYI, the title is what me and sissy would say to each other when we knew what each other was thinking. sissy liked roses and i like tulips. we combined the two. i would say tuloses and she would say roslips

Roslips and Tuloses

Dark sky awash with moonlight.
Shivering takes over.
Solitude fills this cool night.

Chilling wind strokes my bones bare.
Looking skyward.
The veil of constellations I stare.

Their names carved on the gray tombstone.
Your tears fall, fall and fall.
Emotional destruction left by stabbing cyclone.

Pierces through my soul seeing you so forlorn.
There is no 'you' now I am all alone.
The rustling leaves remind me so I mourn.

I find myself nowhere to be seen I scream in disgrace.
Blame lies with evil, psychopathic personality.
Shadows cast on your pale face.
I realize I have gained immortality.

Moonlight flickers through the black cloud.
You blame yourself that I am gone.
Profound sadness like a shroud.
Sis it was them who did wrong.

Nocturnal sky.
Light up as you pass by
Painfully watching you cry.
Asking God why? Why? Why?

I want to wipe your tears.
I am helpless in my helplessness.
I am long, long gone now.
You do not see the blessedness.

Sweet Angels and God above.
I beg a favor.
Release her grief to the Mourning Dove.
Sisterly love will never waiver.

Tell her she is where I am spiritually.
Tell her my brain was once wracked with disease.
Tell her that now it thinks with ease.
Tell her I am where she is everlastingly.

Remind her once shackled she spread each wing.
Remind her she spread them over loving ground.
Remind her now I know what love can bring.
Remind her now I know that love is abound.

Tell her no shrouds.
Tell her no black clouds.

It's my birthday!
Sing Happy Birthday!
Loud and off key!

And smile!

And be happy!

Cuz I am!

I love you

Sissy



thank you for listening


ann

[deetu]

((hug))

[dema]

I'm so thankful that she sent you that poem.

[Ann_is_Alive]

ty both so much.

it hurts. it hurts alot. a whole lot.

i miss her very very very much.




ann