Christianity Oasis Forum

[sovern1982]

well now i know what the terrible black empty feeling inside me was. i had an epiphany reading step 11. i have had moments of clarity during prayer where i felt completely relieved and knew that everything was going to be ok. that was when the holy spirit was with me.i could always accept the concept of god and believed that jesus died to save me from my sin, but i never really understood the spirit part of the holy trinity. nothing terribly difficult to understand really, that the spirit of god all around me, all i have to do i choose to accept it. this whole program, and what im learning in church is starting to make sense to me. i struggle because i walk without the spirit of god. i allow the lies that i tell myself to block out anything god is trying to tell me. doesnt mean im going to be perfect, but now i have a pretty good idea of what i need to do. before i pray, read the bible or even do anything at all i need to ask the SPIRIT of god to be with me, to help me see his will and give me the strength to do it. i think this may be a turning point in my life. kinda nuts to say that i learned about this from a webpage but i guess it doesnt matter when or where u finally hear the voice of god and it breaks down the walls around your heart and mind does it? i mean really, if i stop and ask the spirit of god to be with me, and i listen and do what it says, i wont go off and do what i would normally do id take an action that god would have me do...now all i have to do is live this way, and it seems to me that it would be much easier for me to let god tell me what to do rather than try and figure out things on my own, especially since almost always i make things worse because i make decision based on what i want and not what god would want for me. this program has opened my eyes to a way of life i never thought possible for myself, one of peace. got a long road ahead of me, but i feel like im on a different one than i was 2 weeks ago, i dont feel like im stuck in a downward spiral anymore, i may not have made much progress yet but at least i have stopped falling.

praise god, for he is good to even the lowest of sinnners

[Ingegrity]

AWESOME! I praise Him too..for showing you He is with you always! God /Holy Spirit uses all kinds of ways to speak to us..this site, people, bible, circumstances, pictures, dreams..He knows how to get through and we are all different with different personalities and he speaks to us according to our personality etc..He is creative amen!

Even the lowest..boy, can we all go LOW..some seen, some unseen...but His grace is sufficient and His forgiveness is everlasting and He paid it all..took all our punishment to set us free and there is no condemnation for those who belong to Christ! He will guide you daily and He will Never leave you ever!!!! He loves you and embraces you TOTALLY!

Keep the faith! Your journals & honesty have blessed me, and I am celebrating with you tonight!

God bless you Sovern!

Ingegrity

[Dora]

I am celebrating with you tonight!

me 2!!!

God bless and keep you.

[momof3]

wow...my brother in Jesus,

Ive read your posts this far...and all I can say is AMEN!

Truth will set you free...His truth. You have worked very hard through this..and seen alot of things within yourself that you've had to be honest about and give to the Lord. He loves you so very much. He wont mislead you.

Have you read "The Shack" yet? It's really an awesome book. It gave me alot of insight through the Holy Spirit as to God's nature and His love for His children. We so often get in the way of what God is saying to us. Our pride..or our selfishness (yeah....we are ALL selfish...born that way) so often clogs our ears to the voice of God..He isnt finished with you. He isnt finished with any of us yet. But you have allowed His voice of truth to penetrate your heart. Keep going, my brother in Jesus. This is a daily thing.

God bless you and am praying for you.

in Jesus,
luv momo

[xxJILLxx]

hey sovern

You said

i may not have made much progress yet but at least i have stopped falling.

I have to disagree with that dear brother, I think you have made tremendous progress spiritually!!! I love the way He awakened your soul lil by lil and how receptive you have been with Him. Bein open to and being available to HIM realy realy helps us grow all the more in Him, because that begins to be our desire because we know that the way we were living our lives before.... well lets just say we didnt profit much . But all the riches and glory of His kingdom profit our souls eternally, so muchso that it need not be kept to ourselves, He gives us much so we can give much of and for Him and His. The spiritual things and that heartfelt relationship with Him is priceless.

God bless you sovern
love ya brother
♥Jill