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[jenp]

Well I have decided to give this 14 day challenge a try. I am hoping that it strengthens my faith in the Lord and brings me even closer to Him.

I have been thru a lot in my life. Living on the streets, drugs and alcohol. But God never gave up on me and for that I am grateful. I 2001 He grabbed me and held me tight as I cried in His arms. I will never forget that day.

Well thats all I have for now.

God Bless

[dema]

God bless you. Take your time. And take time to love on yourself.

[Mackenaw]

Hello JenP

That kind of Hug is not easily forgotten. Wooooooooohooooooooo!!! Thank You Jesus!!!

God bless and keep you, JenP.
Love,
Mack

[Dora]

Welcome to the path Jen.

God bless you on this journey.

[jenp]

Well after 2 days of staying on Step 1 I have moved to Step 2. The reason I stayed is simple... my life got busy. Thats my problem. Its not that I dont want to spend time with God is that I am so busy that my life interferes with it.

I am looking forward to Step 3 2moro. Today I am doing ok. Been busy and have a headache but i am ok. Just really been thinking about my life and the direction it is going. I have over come many things and I am determined to over come this.

[Dora]

God bless you in this journey Jen.

[jenp]

Well i have done step 3 and accepted God's Grace. This is a hard one for me. I have a hard time forgiving myself of past sins. Believe me if you read my testimony (which i will post on the forums sometime) you will see why. I mean its hard to think that the Almighty has sacrificed His own son for me. The Prince of Peace died for me.

I watched the Passion of the Christ and I just cried. The pain He went thru was just awful. All of that for a lost soul like me? Hard to believe let alone accept.

But as I end this I will accept it. I will live with it and thank God for it.

[Dora]

Amen Jen

Expensive blood shed for all of us.

Have a good day sis.

[jenp]

Okay, so todays lesson really hit home. I am on step 4 and it talks about forgiving yourself. This is so hard for me. I have lived a life of sin and sometimes I wonder how God could forgive someone like me. I mean i have hurt many people in my path and even tho most of them have forgiven me i still dont forgive myself. At least not completely.

So I guess I need to really work on this matter and really read some more.

[Dora]

awww Jen

It's good to see you working with the Lord to continue this path of healing.

God loves ya and so do I.

[humblevisitor]

Forgiving myself has been the hardest part for me too. I tell myself I knew better...which I did, but I think that is true of everybody. Somebody once said to me that if God forgives you who are you not to forgive yourself. Those words sound good but its still hard to do. I think the truth, now, is that is one of Satan's strongest weapons against us...that we can't forgive ourselves. It takes time and as everyday passes and I practice what I am learning I feel better and better...I am sure you will too.

[Zemirah]

(((((((((Jen)))))))))) wondering how you are going with all of this