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Re: J's journal
So awesome!!!
Perhaps when you think of the issue that angers you, turn your thoughts to expecting God to change things some day. And begin to thank Him for caring about that problem, for being involved in making things better. It wont be this way always.
Way to go sister!!
Perhaps when you think of the issue that angers you, turn your thoughts to expecting God to change things some day. And begin to thank Him for caring about that problem, for being involved in making things better. It wont be this way always.
Way to go sister!!
Sorrow looks back, Worry looks around, But faith looks up! Live simply, love generously, care deeply, speak kindly and trust in our Creator who loves us.
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Dora - Posts: 3759
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Re: J's journal
Awww that's great...sometimes we need help in "seeing" the real issues behind what is causing us continual hurt from the past. I believe this study is pointing out to you many things you didn't realize before...and therefore you are able to now begin to come with terms with these issues of the past...and relying more on God and less on yourself. I know you are pleasing your Father Keep it up.
luv ya
luv ya
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mlg - Posts: 4428
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Re: J's journal
Step 5 cont'd:
I have spent time driving in my car alone today listening to my worship CD's and it felt great! Everytime my minds slips to the in laws I pull myself up and think about God.
When thinking about what brought me here, it wasn't just the Mother in Law. I lost my closest friend to cancer in the Autumn, she was far too young and I have struggled so much to come to terms with her loss. I expected to feel sad but it has been so intense. I then was very ill for 3 months and was hospitalised several times. My job, which is so stressful had really dragged me down. My marriage hit a rockly patch when I was ill which made me confront my husband's questionable commitment as he was considering leaving at a time when I was so ill. It all felt too much.
A close friend of my is a committed christian and over the past two years whenever I have had trouble she randomly contacts me. I usually don't tell her about my troubles but she is there and talks to me about God. It was strange there was never a pattern to when she would get in touch, but it would always be immediately before or after something has caused me real upset. I always felt God had a hand in this.
I feel so much better and more positive this week. Its strange, the older I get the more I feel the need to build a better relationship with God if I can.
Thank you God for bringing me here.
I have spent time driving in my car alone today listening to my worship CD's and it felt great! Everytime my minds slips to the in laws I pull myself up and think about God.
When thinking about what brought me here, it wasn't just the Mother in Law. I lost my closest friend to cancer in the Autumn, she was far too young and I have struggled so much to come to terms with her loss. I expected to feel sad but it has been so intense. I then was very ill for 3 months and was hospitalised several times. My job, which is so stressful had really dragged me down. My marriage hit a rockly patch when I was ill which made me confront my husband's questionable commitment as he was considering leaving at a time when I was so ill. It all felt too much.
A close friend of my is a committed christian and over the past two years whenever I have had trouble she randomly contacts me. I usually don't tell her about my troubles but she is there and talks to me about God. It was strange there was never a pattern to when she would get in touch, but it would always be immediately before or after something has caused me real upset. I always felt God had a hand in this.
I feel so much better and more positive this week. Its strange, the older I get the more I feel the need to build a better relationship with God if I can.
Thank you God for bringing me here.
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jayney - Posts: 91
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Re: J's journal
A friend of mine says if we didn't have bad days...we wouldn't know what good days were. I think that we need the good days as you are having this week...to help us endure when things aren't so good...we always have hope of a better tomorrow...and this is what keeps us going...I'm glad that you are having some good days...you deserve them.
Keep growing with God...you are doing well.
luv ya
Keep growing with God...you are doing well.
luv ya
Do you know my Jesus? Do you know my friend? Have you heard He loves you? If not, I'd like to introduce you.
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mlg - Posts: 4428
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Re: J's journal
Step 6:
Miracle Grow. I have made my chart of the things I need to do everyday. Reflecting on myself I know I need to slow down and take the time to enjoy and appreciate some of the things in my life. For many years every night when I pray I always try and find 3 things from that day to Thank God for I can see now that if I slowed down there would be so many more.
Because I am so stressed, rushed and anxious all the time this makes me a very angry person. What people fail to see is this anger is rooted in fear. Life terrifies me sometimes, bad things happen, I struggle to keep up with all I need to do and am constantly resentful because my husband is not supportive and doesn't help me. I spent so much time focused on the negative when in fact I have so many blessings in my life.
I so need to Let Go and Let God. Where is all this insight coming from?
Its all good.
Thank you God
J
Miracle Grow. I have made my chart of the things I need to do everyday. Reflecting on myself I know I need to slow down and take the time to enjoy and appreciate some of the things in my life. For many years every night when I pray I always try and find 3 things from that day to Thank God for I can see now that if I slowed down there would be so many more.
Because I am so stressed, rushed and anxious all the time this makes me a very angry person. What people fail to see is this anger is rooted in fear. Life terrifies me sometimes, bad things happen, I struggle to keep up with all I need to do and am constantly resentful because my husband is not supportive and doesn't help me. I spent so much time focused on the negative when in fact I have so many blessings in my life.
I so need to Let Go and Let God. Where is all this insight coming from?
Its all good.
Thank you God
J
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jayney - Posts: 91
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Re: J's journal
Holy Spirit...weee! Do you feel His presesnce in you? I sure do....so He's beginning to open your eyes huh? That's wonderful...and now that you see and recognize...you can surely begin putting it aside...change the way you react even when you can't change others and the way they act....you are doing super.
luv ya
luv ya
Do you know my Jesus? Do you know my friend? Have you heard He loves you? If not, I'd like to introduce you.
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mlg - Posts: 4428
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Re: J's journal
Step 7:
This seems a tough one. My mind is full of so many years worth of bad thoughts and feelings. I don't know where to start. I can see that I need to forgive others so that God will forgive me.
How can I remove all the memories of the bad things that happened to me?
I think I will begin by focusing on the present, which I have already been doing. When I find my mind slipping to think of unpleasant things that make me anxious or angry, I keep thinking Let GO and Let God, until my mind moves on to something else. Its working!! Once I get the hang of tackling and ejecting new stuff, then I will start exploring the older stuff.
My husband mentioned his MOther last night and inwardly I didn't feel the surge of rage, I felt nothing.
My question for anyone reading this is about church.
I would like to go and be with God and I know the bible talks of him listening when there are more people gathered together in his name. I live in a rural community so my choices are limited.
Where do I go? I feel I can't attend a Church of England church as they don't believe in Divorce so I don't feel thats the place for me. I know very little about the individual religions, are UNited Reform and Methodist similar?
What are Gospel?
Anyways, some advice would be very welcome. I shall go now and think about what I have learnt this morning.
THank you Lord for bringing me here
This seems a tough one. My mind is full of so many years worth of bad thoughts and feelings. I don't know where to start. I can see that I need to forgive others so that God will forgive me.
How can I remove all the memories of the bad things that happened to me?
I think I will begin by focusing on the present, which I have already been doing. When I find my mind slipping to think of unpleasant things that make me anxious or angry, I keep thinking Let GO and Let God, until my mind moves on to something else. Its working!! Once I get the hang of tackling and ejecting new stuff, then I will start exploring the older stuff.
My husband mentioned his MOther last night and inwardly I didn't feel the surge of rage, I felt nothing.
My question for anyone reading this is about church.
I would like to go and be with God and I know the bible talks of him listening when there are more people gathered together in his name. I live in a rural community so my choices are limited.
Where do I go? I feel I can't attend a Church of England church as they don't believe in Divorce so I don't feel thats the place for me. I know very little about the individual religions, are UNited Reform and Methodist similar?
What are Gospel?
Anyways, some advice would be very welcome. I shall go now and think about what I have learnt this morning.
THank you Lord for bringing me here
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jayney - Posts: 91
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Re: J's journal
church is wherever God leads you to be with other people gathered in His name. the building doesnt matter. oasis has church in the chatroom on sundays...and the chatroom also has ppl gathered in His name almost all the time. pray that He guide you to where He wants you to be for this time.
praying also
praying also
i am stillstanding...saved delivered and healed.
Gal 2:20
20 I have been crucified with Christ; and it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself up for me.
Gal 2:20
20 I have been crucified with Christ; and it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself up for me.
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stillstanding - Posts: 464
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Re: J's journal
Hi hun, if you feel led by the Lord to head out the door and attend church...then I encourage you to follow His will. As far as what church should you attend...why don't you visit some churches...and attend the one you feel most at peace. See God's will brings peace...and when you enter the doors of the church that is for you...then you will know you've found a church home.
My prayers will be with you as you venture out on this journey.
luv ya
My prayers will be with you as you venture out on this journey.
luv ya
Do you know my Jesus? Do you know my friend? Have you heard He loves you? If not, I'd like to introduce you.
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mlg - Posts: 4428
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Re: J's journal
Step 8
I relate to so much of what is written here. Temptation is everywhere. I so often when praying have random thoughts pop into my head about people and things that have hurt and angered me. Over the past few days I have recited to myself LET GO AND LET GOD. It works!! Yesterday I had a pleasant day but I felt really happy. I can't remember the last time i felt like that.
The devil scares me as I know he will try hard to turn me away from this and it scares me to think how he will do that.
Over the next few weeks I will visit some churches and see where I feel I fit.
Thank you God
I relate to so much of what is written here. Temptation is everywhere. I so often when praying have random thoughts pop into my head about people and things that have hurt and angered me. Over the past few days I have recited to myself LET GO AND LET GOD. It works!! Yesterday I had a pleasant day but I felt really happy. I can't remember the last time i felt like that.
The devil scares me as I know he will try hard to turn me away from this and it scares me to think how he will do that.
Over the next few weeks I will visit some churches and see where I feel I fit.
Thank you God
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jayney - Posts: 91
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Re: J's journal
Step 9
I feel that the number 40 cropping up so frequently in the bible may be significant to me. All of last year I was dreading turning 40 as I felt my life was unhappy and a failure as I had not achieved any of the things I thought I would. Now that I am 40 I keep thinking about the need to build my relationship with God and its like a niggle that hasn't gone away over the past few months which seemed to suddenly come to a head with my mother in laws latest terrible behaviour.
There are many things I need to change in my life, I must try not to swear so much, I must stop thinking negative things. I realised I have lived in fear for years, fear of what may happen, financial fear, job fear, fear of failure, fear for my children, fear my marriage will end. Fear and anxiety are with me all of the time.
On two separate occasions since beginning this programme I have briefly felt real happiness, I cannot remember when I last felt like that. It was a beautiful feeling. I know its because I am opening my heart to God.
I have sinned a lot in my life and know I have a long way to go but I am making a start.
Thank you God
I feel that the number 40 cropping up so frequently in the bible may be significant to me. All of last year I was dreading turning 40 as I felt my life was unhappy and a failure as I had not achieved any of the things I thought I would. Now that I am 40 I keep thinking about the need to build my relationship with God and its like a niggle that hasn't gone away over the past few months which seemed to suddenly come to a head with my mother in laws latest terrible behaviour.
There are many things I need to change in my life, I must try not to swear so much, I must stop thinking negative things. I realised I have lived in fear for years, fear of what may happen, financial fear, job fear, fear of failure, fear for my children, fear my marriage will end. Fear and anxiety are with me all of the time.
On two separate occasions since beginning this programme I have briefly felt real happiness, I cannot remember when I last felt like that. It was a beautiful feeling. I know its because I am opening my heart to God.
I have sinned a lot in my life and know I have a long way to go but I am making a start.
Thank you God
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jayney - Posts: 91
- Location: uk
- Marital Status: Married
Re: J's journal
On two separate occasions since beginning this programme I have briefly felt real happiness, I cannot remember when I last felt like that. It was a beautiful feeling.
Isn't it amazing!! That is the peace and joy that comes from God when we trust in Him and his provisions over our lives.
He's so awesome to bless us this way. Keep seeking Him and His will sister.
God loves ya and so do I.
Sorrow looks back, Worry looks around, But faith looks up! Live simply, love generously, care deeply, speak kindly and trust in our Creator who loves us.
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Dora - Posts: 3759
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