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[mlg]

Tam...you have a huge mess of thoughts that have built up over the years....sort of like a closet where you open the door and shove all the junk inside you don't want anyone to see and you close the door...and you do this for years and years until one day you open the door and everything comes tumbling out on top of you! Well that's where all the thoughts are coming from...you've allowed yourself to build those bad thoughts for so long and never cleaned them out...until they are a constant in your mind...but you are now doing the right thing and you are counteracting those bad thoughts with the good...and for everyone you dismiss one more pops up...but you WILL get to the end...and then can just begin work on the daily thoughts instead of all the ones of the past...don't give up...Keep fighting that good fight!

luv ya

[Dora]

You're not alone.

I am so proud of you.

As gentle as a dove is the sound of it's wings can be startling. Know what I mean? It's the unknown that is scary. Trust is the answer. I believe it will come to you in portions. Like the onion peel. Each time He calls you to take a step closer to Him this is what you'll feel. The fear. The pain. The weirdness of it all.


You can do this. You're doing soooooo good. Sure you're not sharing all the junk, are ya? But that's ok as long as you're being honest with the Lord about those thoughts. He's the one that brings healing. He's the only way.

I love you. Thank you for posting.

[Tam]

I heard this song in the wee hours of the morning and wanted to share the lyrics with you

Kirk Franklin

"Imagine Me"

Imagine me
Loving what I see when the mirror looks at me cause I
I imagine me
In a place of no insecurities
And I'm finally happy cause
I imagine me

Letting go of all of the ones who hurt me
Cause they never did deserve me
Can you imagine me?
Saying no to thoughts that try to control me
Remembering all you told me
Lord, can you imagine me?
Over what my mama said
And healed from what my daddy did
And I wanna live and not read that page again

[Chorus:]
Imagine me, being free, trusting you totally finally I can...
Imagine me
I admit it was hard to see
You being in love with someone like me
But finally I can...
Imagine me

Being strong
And not letting people break me down
You won't get that joy this time around
Can you imagine me?
In a world (in a world) where nobody has to live afraid
Because of your love fears gone away
Can you imagine me?

[Bridge:]
Letting go of my past
And glad I have another chance
And my heart will dance
'Cause I don't have to read that page again

[Chorus x2]

[Vamp:]
Gone, gone, it's gone, all gone

[mlg]

Glad you shared...I hope you sat and absorbed the truth shared in those lyrics.

luv ya

[Tam]

Day 8 Trials and Tribulations

Well today is day 8 and to be honest with you not sure if I was ready to move on or not but gotta keep going. Day 7 started out really good but then by early evening..it went down hill. What happen, I have no idea, something triggered tho.
Everywhere you read lately in here it is all about getting your thoughts under subjection. Throw out the bad thoughts and replace with good one.. My thoughts are like a woodpecker is to a tree. He just continounly pecks It can drive you bananas if you sit and listen to him to long. So you shooooo him off only for him to go to another tree and start the same thing again. Just that continual nagging sound that you hear. Well that has been my thoughts. Continual and nagging.

What am I doing you ask? Well let me tell you....when the bad pops in I innediately find a good to replace it with. ( I honestly feel like I am running out of the good ones) I go to the scriptures and read. I keep a scripture in my pocket all day and am continually pulling it out reading it.
My headphones stay on my ears at night. (Nothing but uplifting Praise music on there) I keep praise going at work all day. What else can I do. I look for the good in every situtation. I am doing all I can do and I feel like it is not helping. I already feel defeated even if I know that I am victorious.

It seems the harder I try to get rid of the thoughts the faster they come. I was reading a book last night and it talks about the core of the problem. My core is my thoughts. THey are what I heard all my life, they are my foundation and they stink! I have been working on laying a new foundation but the weeds keep missing it up. So I pull them out and I have to start all over. It is just not working. Where is God in all this? Why don't I feel like He is there? Why can't He help me catch my breath for a little while and then work again?

I know everyone is going to say that God is right there and I really want to believe that but I don't know that I can. Everyone says to keep asking God what you should do and He will tell you. Well that is easy for you to say because I see Him running in a different direction even though I know that He isn't. I was beginning to know that He loves me just a little and then poof it was gone. WHere did it go? I have no idea.

I don't know....maybe this is the way God made me. Maybe I am working against His grain. Maybe this is my purpose in life. Who I am to question things. Maybe I should just stop trying and be content and happy with who I am and stay in my own little world so that no one gets hurt. I really dunno.

There is a lot of garbage to take out and it seems the more I take out...the more it multiplies. I am tired. I am weary....I can't do this anymore! I really really really want to give up this fight but from what everyone says, I know that I can't

Oh well gonna shut it off here.
Tam

[mlg]

Hi sis good morning...you know that you will receive what you believe...so if you believe these steps aren't working...then they won't...and if you believe that God isn't there...then He can't be...sis...you have to work on what you believe now...it's not so much the weeds in your mind...but also your Faith and your Hope that you need to dig into as well....Faith is what brings us the things hoped for....so start believing the Truth of the matter...that you can be healed in Jesus name...and that Jesus is there with you...what everyone else says doesn't amount to a hill of beans if you don't believe in the Truth....it's what YOU believe that really is going to make the difference in your life.

You mentioned you may not have been ready to move on from yesterday's step...I really encourage you to go back and read over that step again....there is obviously some work there that you feel still needs to be done...so go back and do it.

luv ya sis

[Dora]

Tam the battle may get thick, just keep trudging forward. Here if you need me, you know that. Love you much!

[deetu]

Hey Tam, got a suggestion for you.
Instead of reaching in your pocket for Scripture, or your music, reach for Holy Spirit instead. Make that relationship stronger... ask for help from Holy Spirit... how to pray... what to do at that moment when that woodpecker is pecking at your brain.
Scripture and music is good but reaching for Jesus/Holy Spirit is better because then you will start to trust that He is there within you instead of reading or hearing it. That relationship is what the enemy is trying to keep you from knowing.

[Tam]

Dee you said

ask for help from Holy Spirit... how to pray... what to do at that moment when that woodpecker is pecking at your brain.

I do that all day long. I beg the Holy Spirit to come and help me I beg God to hold me. I beg them to make this stop! I hear what you are saying....

Why isn't it working? Why aren't I getting any better? What is wrong with me?

[Dora]

Does it all hinder on the measure of faith you have that God will do these things?

Are you feeling it's for all others but not you. And thus snatching the faith behind the words.

Just a thought. I don't know the answer to the question. But praying for you.

[Tam]

Why isn't it working? Why aren't I getting any better? What is wrong with me?

YUCK!!!!!! GOt out of this post and thought about these words and need to counteract act them please.

This is working maybe not as fast as I would like and maybe not that I can see, but it is. I believe it is.
I also believe that I am getting better. I may not be able to see the evidence in my own life yet but I have to trust that God will hold to His promises to me and I do trust that. Nothing is wrong with me! I am right where God needs to be right now and He loves me!

Ok sorry just had to clear that up. No I am not sorry. I had to clean the trash out some.

Tam

[xxJILLxx]

Hi tammy,

We see a few things going on here...

God does not want to be in a vending machine relationship, He wants an intimate relationship with us.. if we put in a dollar than we get a candybar. Let say if that was the case we pray, we get an answer. Why is it that we taken the candy and put it aside and put another dollar in there and we havent enjoyed the candy that we got already?


Instead of concentrating on what u dont have, how bout concentrating on what He did give you already. And enjoy it, or at least try to.

The music is not going to establish a relationship with Him, but the music is going to relax you so that you can go to your Father without a "woodpecker hat" on yr head.

When you pray are you telling God what He needs to do? IN other words..God is not doing what we want Him to do in the time we want Him to do it. We need to be open to God telling us what He wants us to do and be content with that. Being content means turning our will over to Him and letting Him have His will for us. Not our own will.

Listen sis, i know you are tired... so if you know you are tired that means you are working too hard. Relax and enjoy the candy He gave you already.

We love you
God bless
♥Jill n vahn