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[mcfrissa]

in NA we say "we didn't become addicted in one day, so remember, easy does it" you're totally right in everything you said. I've been taking thyroid medication almost all my life, I was born without a thyroid gland, and usually my dose is well maintained, but it turns out the last 2 months, my dose has been too high, which can cause feelings of extreme restlessness and anxiety, so they're lowering my dose again, so hopefully, once my dose is normalized, some of that anxiousness and restlessness will be lessened. that would certainly help things, we'll see.
mcfrissa

[vahn]

Hello Mcfrissa

I would like to ask you a question , in the hopes that maybe we can be of better service to you and others who may be passing by and benefiting from this forum .

Is there anything that you would like to be helped with that is preventing you from taking the steps ? Last I heard , you were "considering" it ... IF ... you had time (your words) .

Do you want to get well ? Or maybe you already have all the answers already , If you do , that is GREAT , how about sharing some of it with us , maybe we'll find out what we missed .
But , though it is unsolicited , just help me out a bit on this if you would please . Last I checked , sober meant free of alcohol and , the first word in Alcoholics Anonymous starts with alcohol .

I needed some eggs and bread the other day , no matter what aisle I looked , even tried different stores , checked all the shelves , I found myself greatly disappointed time and time again , because Radio Shack kept running out of eggs and bread right before I would get there ! But .. I gotta admit .. They did have some nice shirts there that were on sale ..

[mcfrissa]

I don't have all the answers, I apologize if I sounded that way, cuz I certainly didn't mean to sound that way. I don't know if it makes any difference, I'm in NA, not AA, although alcohol is a drug period, there's no difference, whatever the addiction is. As I've mentioned before, I'm suffering from depression, and I also discovered that my thyroid medication has been too high for the last 2-3 months, which increases depression, anxiety, restlessness, and blood pressure. through depression, my relationship with my higher power, Jesus Christ has suffered, and my program has suffered. the simplest things in life have become hugely overwhelming to me, I question my own sanity numerous times a day. I"m not saying I'm the only one who feels that way, or that other addicts/recovering addicts haven't ever felt that way, or that it's an excuse for anything, but for me that's how I feel, I've become emotionally and spiritually numb, and things like my program, my relationship with Jesus Christ is like eating cardboard, and I absolutely hate it. absolutely hate it. I wish I had all the answers, cuz this sux.

[vahn]

Sis

I am glad to see you finally opening up a bit , now we have something to work on .

I hope you are still hanging on to your sobriety , let me congratulate you in advance if you are .

I don't know about your area , and , though I am a drug addict as well , I choose AA as my primary recovery source . But in any case ... Where I come from we have what we call "chip" system , what we do is pass out poker like chips and medallions of different colours to commemorate various lengths of sobriety or abstinence and those "lengths" are , 30 days - 90 days - 6 months - 9 months - and , finally 1 year . There is a reason for those intervals of time , though some places give them out for each month , but nevertheless , the intervals I mentioned are very crucial times in our recovery , sort of like milestones , those are the hardest times .

What usually happens is this , the first 30 days we ride high on a "pink cloud" being freed from all the headaches that accompany our binges , we are eating better , sleeping better , physically feeling better , everyone's off our backs and so on and so forth ... comes the next 30 days where reality starts settling in and all that "glamour" of our first 30 days starts to wear of and we find ourselves getting into a rutt of some sort , (kinda getting "boring") so to speak and in an effort to "rekindle" the excitement of the first 30 days we start coming up with ways to do so , and in the process , we get our first taste of disappointment , and it goes downhill from there ... all kinds of feelings (that we had always tucked away or drowned with our drinks and drugs) begin to surface , now we have a "problem" ... these feelings are and always had been real , however , this time we don't have an escape route , and they seem to be intensified (we make them bigger than what they really are) and without proper guidance (sponsorship) by the time the 90 day mark approaches we're going googoo gaga , all hell breaks loose , what we call is white-knuckling , "I will NOT drink no matter what" all the while we are acting as if we had never stopped drinking and worse . But having gone through all that , and we get our 90 day chip , guess what happens ? We start getting confident , saying things like " See ? I made it ! .. ALL by myself , no sponsor , no steps nothing !!" OUCH ! another thirty days comes our first Birthday , Holiday , Job , Home issues , rent , bills , debts , old acquainteses , vacation , next thing you know it's WW III , WW II revisited , the bomb drops and we explode !

Then , if we are lucky enough , the next time we come back , we say things like , I went to AA , NA , CA , GA , and all the A's you can think of , I had 30 days once and three month the other and 6 yet at another I even made it 9 months once , but you know what ? We rarely hear 1 year , and when we do we never hear them say the "Once" word any longer , you know why ? They got a sponsor and worked the steps and dealt with all the issues that you are mentioning right now , ONE ISSUE AT A TIME ! ONE DAY AT A TIME !


Luv ya
In Christ , our Lord

[realtmg]

Thanks for the wisdom and caring for others vahn.

Luv ya Bro.

[mcfrissa]

I got through day 38. definetely one day at a time. thanks for all the really good info and advice, I do appreciate it. going for day 39 tommorow!
mcfrissa

[Dora]

Yeah!

Look at that courage and strength you're gaining.

Praying for you.

[mcfrissa]

I'm halfway through day 40, thanx so much!
mcfrissa

[realtmg]

Thank HIM!


Luv Ya.

Real

[Dora]

yeah! You made it! One day at a time just like the guys said. Now one more.

praying for you!

[mcfrissa]

thanks so much everybody! I am thanking my God also, it's not easy, definetely one day at a t ime, but that's the best way to go. later!
mcfrissa

[realtmg]

Stay humble and grateful and do not hold resentments. This is were we fall.


Luv ya



Real