Christianity Oasis Forum

[mcfrissa]

I'm struggling with depression, addiction, ADHD, TS, and OCD. Ever since my dad died in 2003, I've developed a crippling fear of death, for myself, especially my mom, it is sucking the life out of me, and has taken my joy and peace in Jesus Christ. except for fear, panic, and shame, I have become emotionally and spiritually numb. I am desperate for God's peace and presence in my life again, but I don't know how to take that first step of faith and let go of everything, and allow him control in my life again. Depression is making it difficult for me to function at the most basic levels of life, I am scared that I'm not capable of having a job, supporting myself, having my own car, etc.. the thought scares me greatly. I was born with little thyroid function, by the time I was 2 yrs old, I had no thyroid function at all, unfortunately doctors didn't realize this until I was 4 yrs old. most people consider me to be a miracle, but I secretly worry that I may have suffered some sort of brain damage having been hypothyroid for so long. I feel like I'm drowning, and this time around, I don't have any hope of rescue.

[momof3]

heya mcfrissa...so glad you are here! I agree that you arent here by accident and that the Lord led you here to find healing. All of the studies goldie posted to you are excellent, Holy Spirit inspired tools given for just that. Take you time through em and know that the fear you are feeling isnt from the Lord, sis. He is ready, willing and able to heal you. Again, im soo glad He led you here.

looking forward to getting to chat with ya.

God bless you!

in Jesus,
love momo

[realtmg]

Hi Sis.
I'm have been there. After many years I finally realized that God id God and that He is in control IF we let HIM. The closer we get to Him and seek Him; more peace comes. It takes work. Prayer, reading His word, and getting out of self and helping others.
Step out in faith because He really does love you and will take care of you.
I had to not only pray ,read, and do what I thought was His will; but, I learned to really love Him for who He is and to be grateful day by day.
I am glad you shared this with us and keep seeking as you will see he will reveal answers for you little by little.

GBU and welcome to Oasis!

Real

[mcfrissa]

Thank you so much for the wonderful words of encouragement! I accepted Christ as my savior when I was 9 years old, and he's proven his prescence in my life so much, I watched my dad die in 2003, and it was too hard to remember those moments and images, so I started to block out those thoughts, and I think I eventually realized that if I can't surrender everything to him, he can't really work in my life like he wants to, and eventually I just became spiritually and emotionally numb, you can block out the bad feelings, but in the process you can't feel anything, happiness, joy, peace, etc.. I know the fear doesn't come from God, for me, having known the peace of God in my life, and then losing it, I've found myself in a very scary place, there is definetely something to be said about the peace of God. The problem is letting go of all the crap and allowing God to take control of it, I get close to point of letting go, and then I panic. Again, thank you so much for your wonderful words!
Mcfrissa
"Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful. And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds. Let us not give up meeting together , as some are in the habit of doing, but let us encourage one another, and all the more as you see the Day approaching."