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[harmonizer]

God bless all,

I just needed to express somethings. I've never been at this place in my life. I guess I've "arrived" at those times when all you have left is faith in God and what ever comes or happens, just happens.

I sit in my parents home day in and day out, watching the day go by. Watching my son run around clueless of hard times. He's playing and smiling. But me, feeling down, hopeless at times, and waiting for God to do the miricals that He promised.

My dad came home from work today. He had an accident on his job. He's 66 and the only one working in the house. I hate see him walking around, limping because he sometimes has to work on back of a garbage truck. He's actually a roll off driver, but because of times, he sometimes has to be on the back of the truck. They gave him 3 day off and I he needs the money. I hate being a dependant now. And it seems like all HELL is coming against us. Why now? My wife is sleeping, a little sick. My brother-in-law's car has messed up. He's 4 hours away in school. He has my mother -inlaws car and now she's out of car. We can't help her. No money at all. It's killing me! It's like what else can go wrong? Oh, not to mention I had to go to the hospital last week with an asthma attack. No benifits.... Lord, what did I do so wrong that I have all of this to deal with this? It's taking a toll on me. The home is so stressful. What am I doing? Waiting and praying, but it's very hard. All of the things that could attack me are. How long, Oh God

[Mackenaw]

Hello Harmonizer

God bless you this day.

I know the things that are going on may seem confusing, but it is vitally important that you seek The Lord more than ever right now, and allow Him to be strong in you.

A month ago, on January 14th, you posted that you and your wife were seeking Free Christian Counseling, and had gone to one session. Did the two of you continue going?

Also, you mentioned then, there was a job that you were going to apply for -- did you apply for it?

During these type challenges, I often find myself focusing on the things I don't want to happen, more than the things I do want to happen. In other words, I find myself focusing on the negative "what ifs", as opposed to the hopeful things.

Perhaps if you bundle up your son and take him for a walk, or a ride in his stroller, and check out God's creation -- breathe in some clean, crisp air and pray, it'll help you break the negative mind thoughts.

Harmonizer, spiritual warfare is just that...warfare. Suit up, Harmonizer, put on the full armor of God. God has given you the ability to work. The Apostle Paul worked as a tentmaker when money was tight, and he did so with a mind after God.

Volunteer once a week at the local library. Volunteer once a week at the local hospital. You might be surprised what doors God will open to you when you just step out in faith.

Harmonizer, I don't minimize what you are going through -- no, not one bit. But, you must continue to seek God, with a hopeful heart, my brother.

You continue in my prayers. God's blessed will be done.

God bless you.
Love,
Sister Mack

[momof3]

amen..all i can say is amen. Praying for you, too, harmonizer. God's will be done through this time in your life. Seek His will in this.

in Jesus,
luv momo

[mlg]

Harmonizer, we are here for you and I am praying for God's will to be done in your life. I agree with Mack harmonizer...Hope is still here...and Faith...keep believing that God has all the answers and that He is still in control.

luv ya

[vahn]

Hello Harmonizer

Glad to see you again .

Brother , right now , as I type , I'd give anything to switch places with you . But then again , I don't do hate either !! In that what I mean is , I don't even dislike anyone , let alone hate anyone bad enough to wish them my situation on them .

What am I doing to not let my situation overtake me ?

Exactly what these ladies suggesting . Keeping my eyes on the Beam , and not letting myself veer off "Course" . How am I doing that ? Again , like Mack is suggesting , helping someone less fortunate than me .
Someone asked me , in fact this morning , "How can anyone be less fortunate than you vahn ?" ... I showed them , took them to a soup kitchen , went to the back of the counter , and handed them an apron !

This too shall pass brother , do things that'll get you out of your head , and the best and quickest way to do that , ... is by getting into somebody else's head .

In Christ , our Lord

[harmonizer]

Thanks all for the post/ encouragement.

Sister Mack, yes, we had gone to the free counseling. I go to individual counseling on Mondays. The job didn't go through; however, I've taken the test for the census jobs...just waiting. I'm also waiting to hear from a tutoring position and a minister of music position. I just have to wait...

You know it's funny. Before all of this, I thought life was okay. Good, but okay. I new God was still in control and working things out. But now, it's like 'God where are you? Hey what are you doing? Okay you can stop now..."

You know, I have to level with myself and through it all, I'm "seeing" what's in my heart. I know without a shadow of a doubt that when times get hard, I will always run to God and ask whats going on? I don't thing I'll give up my faith nor turn away from God. You know the funniest thing...In my logical world, it only makes since to run to the Almighty instead away from Him. I don't think that the devil gets it sometimes.

Truthfully, I'm praying that God will increase my trust in Him and strenghthen me so that in any day of great adversity I will be able to stand and maintain my trust in Him. At times I feel like Gideon. I'd rather go and hide. I just felt a little down.... Anyway, I have to keep pressing forward and focus on what I DO have. God bless you all.

[Dora]

Aw Harmonizer it brings me a smile to see how you were down in the dumps and came to your brothers and sisters in Christ. Now you're all smiles and stronger for it.

Keep trudging forward brother. Don't ever give up.

You see how that child responds to life? Dads got it all, so he thinks. We are to be as little children. Trust dad, He's got you and yours.

Sending prayers for you. His will be done.

[mlg]

Amen Harmonizer...now your typing...focus on the positives not the negatives...God hears your prayers and He will answer...hold on my friend....something good will come of all of this you've been through.

luv ya

[realtmg]

GBU Bro.

Keep the faith.


Real

[goldieluvs]

wow am i so very late on this thread. I wanna add a hearty amen to what others have said and am glad things are looking up for you. God certainly takes care of us.

One thing i wanna add, if you're in the states they have programs called well here they are called Vocational Rehabilitation where they evaluate what you're good at, assist in locating jobs, sometimes paying for school or clothing or transportation to assist in employment.

GBU