Lani's journey through the Many Called, Few Chosen Program

[Lani]

"Peer Pressure"

OK.... there is so much I'd love to pick out like this and comment on but then my journal would be three times as long as the step itself and I fear no one would read it so I've picked a few instead.

most people don't want to endanger the LOVE of their friends and family for anything.

If their love, that of a friend or family member, is "endangered" by His truth, is it really love in the first place? Why do so many place conditions on such.... "I love you, if you always agree with me"... "I love you, but don't challenge this".... this makes life so complicated! Why don't people just say "I love you" period and end there, in thought, word and heart. This is why people learn to live in the way of the world... because their first experiences (as children) taught them such and I know it goes back generations their parents taught them, and their parents before them taught them and so on and so on.... but to me that is no excuse. Who else is willing to stand up and say "How I was raised by my parents was wrong, I choose what is right in God's eyes and really... I don't care to hear how wrong you think it is but I will share the truth I know. And, while we are on the subject, let me give you a copy of the guide I use." ... stepping off soapbox OK Hit a nerve, could ya tell

Per the advice of a dear sister and friend... I am going to not stop myself from sharing this next bit... You see in each walk of done, study as they are called... I share my impression or understanding of the step and on occasion a tidbit of wisdom from my grandmother but rarely more. During each, in my mind a certain memory comes as of course this is one of the points right? But I stop at my understanding and leave the personal part out, mostly because I simply don't share... it is part of my upbringing (parental influence), but I am trying to overcome it

To allow each of you to better understand or know me... I will strive to push through and share what comes to mind in future steps. In meditating on the ways of the world and how we are to overcome them.. this was brought to light...

My father was a very worldly man, though he hide behind the Bible while doing so. He could quote scripture like no one I knew, though he didn't live by the Truth contained therein. If I asked a question (because I didn't understand or because I knew better.... the time I spent with my grandmother was priceless) all I was told was "Go to your room", "Don't disrespect your elders", "Honor your father" etc. so I spent a good deal of time in my room, problem (for him) was, in my room all I could do was read and I often picked up my Bible and my grandmothers notes (admittedly to verify what I was saying was truth based in His word, so rebellious in nature). In turn I learned more truth and challenged him more and ended up in my room again.

Looking back it is funny because I developed a solid foundation of Papa's truth and it has been my strength through everything because I learned early to lean on Him. But as a child, I was rather lonely though no one would ever have suspected such. I always wished I could play or visit with friends or talk on the phone.... but you see, that protected me from learning the ways of the world. This is also when I started talking to Papa, Jesus (who I called my brother), and the Holy Spirit, throughout the day. My siblings were for the most part doing what kids do... playing outside, visiting with friends, talking to whomever.... but once in a while, they would sit and listen to me read... those were my favorite times.

I know that I am odd (in this world) but I rather like that label Please know, I am sharing this only to allow you to better know me NOT because it brings hurt or pain and I am not asking for pity or such. My past has made me who I am and while there is a great deal of hurt, there is a great deal of blessings also. In truth, I'd not trade any of it, because to trade one hurt is to loose one blessing... no thanks

OK...Here I go again....

What about LOVE? Most people believe in LOVE ... Don't they know that God is LOVE?

This right here is the problem!!! No, most don't know that truth fully... "God is LOVE"... they believe in a "rules with an Iron fist".... "Best image of themselves" God who wants to punish everyone and make Heaven impossible to reach.... this is a lie I fight to bring truth to everyday with one hurting soul or another. It is so sad to know that people think such and I will work until my last breathe to help others find AND understand His real truth.

How then, can a person believe in LOVE, and not in God?

Well... is it belief? What most perceive as "Love" is in fact "conditional, crud-filled, world-influenced, love which falls short of the unconditional pure LOVE God offers us each day. Sadly, this is likely because that is the type of love they received growing up. The beauty of His plan though, is that God knows each heart and He gives each of us the ability, will, desire and strength to attain that Love when we seek His way.

Today was a great step I so enjoyed reading the Faith and Holy Spirit added studies also.


Basically (the way I understand it).... peer pressure is something we all face, at each level of life... many dismiss it as a childhood thing... but it's presence is endless.
We, being based in Faith make a choice to lean on God and our knowledge of His will to rise above poor choices dispite our friends urging....

now to add my "odd" view

Peer Pressure is not always a bad thing. You see, (in my opinion) if you have "friends" who are Faith.. or Christ rooted (brothers and sisters)... rather then worldly.. they can, by simply being there, create a positive pressure on us to strengthen our own faith or understanding... The positive or negative impact is all based on where our friends are in their walk and how we view such.... or more to my point... it all comes down to who you surround yourself with.

I work to remain a positive example of what I understand my purpose in His plan to be. All I do is meant to honor Him and reflect His will. I pray that this is what others see and it encourages them to seek His truth.

I am, of course, the eternal Optimist!

See you for step 5!!!!

Luv y'll!!!

Peace and Luv in Christ,
Lani

[mlg]

Lani, I must begin by saying thank you for sharing you with us here. Now I have to say something...you are so blessed to have received something at an early age that I just came to have a little over 4 years ago...and that is Jesus and the knowledge of His word. I know at the time you were in your room a lot...you never probably figured that all those times you were reading the Bible...you were using the Word to contest with your dad....but in reality...I see something more....I see you being prepared to answer the calling of the Lord...I've had to study so hard these past 4 years...and still wish I knew more and had learned a long time ago...you are so blessed.

Now...off to the subject of love...seems to be a topic the Lord has laid on my heart a lot lately....you know what I see about love? People are so easy to accept it...but not so easy at giving it away. And what's more.....I've been in a room full of people recently and everyone was talking to me...but I felt absolutely invisible..because they were talking because they wanted something and not because they cared about me....broke my heart....because love talks to others just to say hi, just to be a friend, and just to care...not because it's seeking something in return...

Ok, so I'll step off my soapbox now

luv ya sis...your doing awesome with the steps.

[Tam]

wow I have know you how long now and you are actually sharing! That is awesome Lani. Thank you for letrting a little of you out for us to see. God is so good to all of us isn't He/
You are doing totally awesome on the steps. Keep up the hard work.
I am so proud of you for taking a step on letting us know the real Lani.
Love you sis

[vahn]

Is it Tuesday yet ? Just kidding !
Wow Lani did you have a thing or two to say about this study or what ?

You know for the longest time I didn't even have a clue of what love was , (meaning-wise) , all I knew was the fact that I loved , an emotion , that almost always needed to be either protected , kept secret , don't show it to anyone except the ones I thought would be "nice" to share it with . And , in the process those very "ones" for one reason or other would not be there in my life any longer , and hence , and naturally so , when I found myself being "hurt" or disappointed by the people's circumstances (which , most of the time was out of their control ) I started blaming the love factor . And needless to say , in time and repetition of the same circumstances , whenever someone said love the "Hurt" sign came on , in flashing red neons ! So the whole idea simply got chucked right out the window along with the "idea" of God altogether , let alone a loving God at that . But fortunately , the hunger for God stayed but I was simply filling the gap with all sorts of other emotions that the pain they were causing was overriding the "pain" that love "would have caused" instead .

To make a long story umm , longer , See I had never given myself the chance to find out what love WAS , all I knew it was an emotion of some sort that needed to be expressed or else ! Can't keep it in , which is the precise reason as to why it hurts and not the expression of it . Even our Father Himself had to do that , "He so loved the world ..." He had to express it , and He did it by giving us His only Begotten . Well was that the answer for me or what ? I mean here , birds beget birds and cats beget cats right ? Well connecting the dots , God can only beget God ! And since God is Love , then Love can only beget Love right ? And you know what else ? There is absolutely no such thing as pain in Love just simply because there is no such thing as pain in God ! So , why do we go around and say things like "Oh I love my God , but love hurts " , Kind of comically absurd isn't it ?
Yesterday I was sharing a reading by Emmet Fox with a very dear person a passage where he says "Let love continue no matter what !" Just as God continues no matter what ! So does Love , we simply don't have a choice in the matter do we ? Christ is within us all because we accepted Him as our saviour , and with that we inherited the Love that came in the package , and He said to us I Love you because the Father Loved you first , so you see , we Love our Lord because He Loved us first , so , another dot connection tells me , in order for me to receive love I have to give it first ... no matter what ! You don't give you don't receive .
He gave us His Love first , then we received , and we love Him back for that .

All I have to do is instead of chucking the Love idea out the window , how about chucking my past experience with it out the window to let the new experience in to grow and flourish .


In Christ

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[deetu]

I know that I am odd (in this world) but I rather like that label Please know, I am sharing this only to allow you to better know me NOT because it brings hurt or pain and I am not asking for pity or such. My past has made me who I am and while there is a great deal of hurt, there is a great deal of blessings also. In truth, I'd not trade any of it, because to trade one hurt is to loose one blessing... no thanks

I think that is what I love about you Lani, your "oddness"
You see things in a childlike way that makes things easier, happier.


I wasn't raised Christian... was Catholic but not Christian, if you can understand that. Neighbor would drop us off at church and Sunday school but parents never went yet my father yelled at me as a teenager because I didn't have any faith. When I asked him a question, he didn't know the answer because we didn't read or even know we could read the Bible.
But I do know that God was watching over me my whole life before knowing Him because there were some pretty dangerous times in there.

I'm glad you are doing this study. Your answers are very insightful.

[Lani]

Thanks to each of you, for walking with me.

Love ya tons!!

[Lani]

"The Calling"

Hmm... cannot wait to see what this step includes!!!!!

How do you know when you're being called by the Holy Spirit of God to serve Him in the way that He has designed specifically for you?

Well.... it is rather difficult to explain but for me, it is an electricity of sorts... deep within. I can only explain it as what I imagine lightning to feel like (if one could experience the power without to whole shock and pain of being hit by lightning). I feel a strong sense of expectation... something is going to come to be and when it comes my heart (or soul) will know this is what I was waiting for. Even now in the past few weeks I've had this feeling... being drawn to something bigger... and I (am trying to!!) remain patient while I await further direction. But at the same time.... I just want to get to work I remind myself often... His will, His timing.... do something else in the mean time. He always leads, of this I am certain.

Oops.... should have kept reading

Will there be rough times ... Yes. Will it be worth it ... Absolutely.

Yes... rough times come but the beauty of His love is that He is there and the rough time will end. We will be stronger, wiser, or more prepared because of it... and we will better appreciate the season of calm that follows... it is an endless cycle because the world is ever changing and we must continue to work to keep that change headed back to Him.

Are you CALLED to be one of the few, the humble, the CHOSEN?Are YOU called to be a shepherd? An overseer of His flock ..

While I've not used those exact words, I pray so... ever day. I pray He will use me to reach another, as many as He sees fit, in whatever way He so needs. On occasion I find myself starting to think "What will I say if.... what do I do if... how will I" but the problem in those thoughts is..... "I" and in that moment my focus changes. I rely on Him always for the truth that needs sharing, the comforting word, the understanding smile, the compassion of my heart... He leads, I follow.


I have never viewed myself as "Called" but more as "willing" to do His work. I've been a comforter, encourager, motivator, supporter, spiritual cheerleader my entire life. Sometimes people just need someone to talk to (someone willing to listen), other times they need truth... His truth... but mostly all just need to be reminded that they are not alone. At least this is what I've experienced. I am always honored when someone chooses to share with me. I've never seen His work or will as "optional" because the work is always there and if He brings the opportunity to me, I am ready to share His truth. It is hard to explain... sorry.

Papa is first, always... even at my "job" anyone who knows me knows if they need to talk my door is open... of course this is why I always have piles of paperwork But people.... hurting people, those who need His love have always been my priority because that is what He put in my heart. One thing I should admit since I am sharing more.... when Papa has laid a person on my heart and I know something is weighing on them.... whether they care to admit it or not.... I can be kind of ... hmm pesty? constantly there... not that I push (well I don't think I do anyway)... but I often remind that person that I am here if they ever wish to talk... often they return only a short time later and say.... "How did you know?" To this I always say "Papa told me" and we go from there. Oh, and I always have a spiritual sledgehammer handy when walls become an issue and I am NOT afraid to use it! :p

How I am led to help varies often... not because I have endless ability (who does) but because I am always available... I am open to His work any time and I will drop everything to help someone else. I have been told that I am "incredibly patient" and this makes me laugh because I pray for patience everyday... I see this as something I have to work on yet others see the quality as "strong" again it comes down to my theory: We are not meant to see our work which honors Him... we must seek it in others to appreciate His light and will better. If we could see it within ourselves we'd not be compelled to reach out to others.... but again this is just my odd way of thinking

Upon reflection of today's step I keep hearing my grandmother..... and several others who told me growing up that I would be a teacher; that I was a teacher at heart and God's will was for me to teach others... well as a child I envisioned stuffy classrooms and long days in a place where worldly lessons were the focus... rebellious me.... No Thanks But as I've grown I've realized, Not all teachers are in a classroom and all lessons don't revolve around the fundamentals of our worldly existence... but for those teacher that are in a classroom... God Bless You!

I was elated when I was asked to teach the 3-4 grade Sunday School class.... it brings great joy to see that spark in their eyes when they understand something shared.

But more so, the peace of spirit that comes when a hurt soul says "I never thought of it that way".... "I understand"...."Wow"..... "I like that".... or "Thank you for caring" it is in that moment, for that moment, my soul finds peace.

Jesus called us to use the opportunities God gives us to serve our brothers and sisters, to always honor Papa plan and to remain humble by our weaknesses. All are pieces of His greater purpose. The sooner we accept that we need not be perfect to serve Him, the easier our spirit will breathe.

Awesome Step 5!!! I enjoyed that

See you for Step 6

Peace and Luv in Christ,
Lani

[mlg]

Lani

One thing that really came to mind when reading your shared words was that you said that you never really thought of yourself as called but as willing....I think that when we choose to be willing...God will call us more...see if we fight God in our calling..He will get tired of the fight and move to someone else who is willing...so acceptance is first to be able to work for God.

Also, as I was reading along, you shared that you are a comforter and encourager...I am as well...but I'm not really a cheerleader so to speak...I'm an encourager in a different way...but together as parts of the body of Christ...we bring encouragement in different ways and that's what makes the way God works so special...kinda cool how we can both be arms...but different ones...are you the right or the left?

Anywhoo...see ya for the next step sis.

luv ya

[Lani]

"Ordained"

Wow... what a lovely thing to ponder.... I envision God speaking to those He has chosen to speak His will and Shepperd others in His truth. I imagine it to be a lovely moment for all who experience such. It must be truly beautiful.

When I was just about a teenager, I had this dream, well I am not sure you can call it a dream. I had gone in to have surgery, to remove my tonsils... lovely childhood rite of passage as my father told me a few days earlier. In truth I was rather old for such, but I had been ill and my tonsils had become too enlarged as a result... so the decision was made to remove them.

Anyway.... I remember the anesthesiologist said, "count backwards from 100" and put that awful plastic smelling mask over my face. I started to cry and said I was scared... but following his request I started to count: 100, 99, 98... don't remember saying a number after that... but everything got fuzzy. I said again, "I am scared" In that instance, everything was very light... whiteish but kind of lime too... like glowy... hard to explain. I couldn't see anyone but I heard, "Why are you scared?" I remember a smile coming over me and I said... "Hmm I don't know" ..... "Good then you aren't really scared" "Now, let's talk while you are here" followed. I remember bits and pieces of the conversation that flowed from that point. I learned that I would face some rather dark times, loss (but no details where shared) and that I was going to get rather sad, but that no matter what Papa was with me, waiting, watching, comforting, guiding and I would be fine. I said, "Yes I know He is here always. Will He use me?" But I woke up before I heard an answer.

I had vague memories of this dream in sporadic bits for the weeks that followed. Everyone dismissed it as "We dream funny things under anesthesia.... move on" etc. I spoke to my grandmother about it some time later... once I had a few bits to share.. and she said "When He wishes this truth to be revealed, He will show you". I didn't fully remember this "dream" for some time.

My brother was working 2nd shift and I was home alone. I was feeling unusually drained... I remember thinking... stay awake for just an hour Mikey will be home then (we would always talk when he came home).... but I couldn't stay awake and I could fight it any longer. I fell asleep on the sofa... figuring he'd be home soon enough, we'd talk for a few and then I would go to bed. I woke up at 2:17 AM, heard "someone" say "Remain willing" and in that instance thought.... wow is that all of it? was there more to recall? (having re-experienced that first dream) I sat dazed on the sofa pondering what was shared.... I remembered that I was going to say good bye to the earthly vessels of several I was close to, though I didn't realize then "who". I was also told that I am to help all I can, in whatever way is shown but nothing specific was shared (that I recall). There are other bits I remember, but I will wait

The phone rang at 2:24 AM, which surprised me, it was a police officer asking for my father... I could hear in his voice that something was wrong but I couldn't figure out who.... my father and mother had been together earlier that night so if this man was looking for my father that ruled both parents out... my brother was likely in bed, so it wasn't him, my grandmother was in GA and this man did NOT sound like home.... so I rushed to my fathers room, knocking on my brothers door as I passed... I knocked on my fathers door for a bit, but got no answer so I opened the door... He wasn't there. Neither was my mother... so I told the officer they weren't available and said let me get my brother he is older.... I ran to his room and opened the door thinking, either he is up cause I knocked before or he needs to get up NOW! But... my brother wasn't home. I told the officer my brother hadn't arrived yet and therefore I was the only person there to talk to. He gave me his number and said when your father returns... "tell him to call me immediately".

What seemed like an eternity passed... I called several people at "An ungodly hour of the day" (several stated this) in an effort to find any of my missing family. I finally resolved to simply wait for my brother to return then man would he flip out cause no one was around... but where was he? So late? I sat on the sofa and talked to Papa.... I prayed endlessly in those moments... asking that He be with whoever was hurt or sick and please let me speak to them before they pass.

Then, the reality of my "dream" hit.... and I recalled something new.... "It will all begin with the person you view as your everyday rock" ... my brother! Something was wrong with Michael.... something very bad was wrong.... so I called the officer back.... the sun was nearly rising by now and I said "Look, I know I am just a kid, but I know something is wrong with my brother... where is he!" He attempted to tell me that he could not say and I was less polite with the words I used though I do not recall what I said... Finally I said, Look just tell me what hospital... I know he isn't dead yet and I HAVE to talk to him before he passes... well this sentence caught Officer Not so heartless off guard because he asked how I knew that and I said "Papa told me" which of course confused clueless.. cause he said "if your father is there, I need to talk to him" I said, No, not my Father... PA PAAAAAAAAAAAAA. you know God.. have y'all met? I need to get to Michael before it is too late. He told me which hospital and offered to have someone pick me up.. I said, "No thanks, I can manage... He said he had no doubt." I got to the hospital in record time. Thankfully I knew the nurse in ICU, she was our neighbor... and I said Shelly, I don't know what the rules are but I have to talk to him, get me a phone if you must but we have to talk. She told me he couldn't hear anything, he was in a coma... I said "You know better" get me a phone please... well she let me in... and said "Don't worry rounds aren't for 2 hours... after that if your parents aren't here, I can't promise anything. I sat with my brother for I can't tell you how long, talking about Papa, telling him this wasn't his time, he had stuff to do, stay strong... etc. Then I prayed like never before and cried. Shelly told me he had been hit by a drunk driver... he had very little trauma but of the injuries he had.... the worst was a piece of fence had come through the windshield and went into his abdomen.... I learned that this was rather serious because of all the bacterial in ones stomach and he would have to be carefully monitored... I should remain hopeful that he would open his eyes... I knew he would and did a week later. I was crying when he "came to" and he said... I hate to see angels cry freckles... what's wrong? I looked up at him, unsure he was actually speaking... cause I'd heard my pet name several times in that week.... but when I realized it was him I said, "Oh, thank you Papa" I ran and got the nurse and said He talked to me... she said there wasn't any way for him to talk because he had a breathing tube placed.... well I argued... but she was right I said Mickey tell her what you said.... he opened his eyes but couldn't speak... she was shocked at even that and a furry of white coats raced in several directions.... I leaned over and said... "You know, there are easier ways to get attention bro."

But anyway.... He lived for a few months following that accident and we talked endlessly about God... I had to know in my heart he would be in Heaven when I was done here or else I wasn't ever going to leave... :p

Two days before he passed he said something that echoed from my dream... He said "Freckles, you have an awesome gift of setting people at ease. Of helping them understand His way and bestowing His grace on their hearts. He will use you to reach many in the months ahead because there will be great pain. You will later go through a difficult time, probably because of all the pain you will witness but it is ok to take a step back, for you. He is always there and will always have you. There will be people there to comfort you but you will resist thinking you are strong enough... when the darkest moment passes you will find renewed purpose in Him. You make people smile, your energy is contagious, and He will work through you as long as you remain willing and focused. Let His light show in all" I looked at my brother and said.... who are you? He smiled and told me "Well in the words of a dear spirit I know.... I am His, that is all that matters." I said I loved him and I would see Him again in Heaven.... He said Oh yes you will! We hugged a prayed... and I said good bye.

Yes darkness followed... Michael's passing was just the beginning. In the year that followed I said good bye to 9 friends from school.... each died in car accidents... each happened late at night, one accident killed 4 of my friends, another I lost 3, and the last, 2 passed. The accident that included 3 friends was the most difficult, because not only were they very close friends, or because it was the most gut wrenching accident, but because I should have been with them. As I was leaving, they were parked outside waiting... and my father said "You cannot go" well long story short...my father was NOT someone you argued with, unless you lost your mind. I was so angry.... I said I hated him for never letting me do anything fun... and if he didn't have a heart of stone, he wouldn't prevent me from enjoying this time in my life.... well talk about eating your words.... but I didn't do that for years. Each accident was difficult to handle because I was left to encourage all the other friends hurting from it... aside from other things.

This painful period ended with my father passing when I was 19...and true to what I saw and what my brother shared before he passed..... I spent a rather dark time blaming God, though I knew better.... human nature argh. But my renewed purpose in Him was bigger then I ever could have imagined. I am blessed beyond understanding. Not only with a rather remarkable little boy... but also by the opportunity to continue to reach out to others and to be His light in a rather dark world.

Anyway back to the topic.... Yes I think God ordains.... God alone calls those to serve Him... Recently I had decided to pursue a "degree" in Christian Counseling. I chose an accelerated program because that is just who I am, but quickly I became overwhelmed.... it because too much and I started to loose my focus. In prayer I asked Papa.... I know this is where I need to be, where I am meant to go. I love people and nothing fulfills my passion like reaching out to a hurting soul and sharing your Grace... why am I caving? You are seeking mans approval for work you already do.... was my answer. I pulled back and reduced my schedule to part-time which is huge for me. I still feel a draw to this field and since stress has lessened, I know this was the right choice.

See you for Step 7!!!!

Peace and Luv in Christ,
Lani

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[Mackenaw]

Hello Lani

Thank you for sharing your powerful and deeply moving testimony.

Revelation 12:11 And they overcame him (the enemy of our souls) by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony; and they loved not their lives unto the death.

God bless you, Lani.
Love,
Mack

[deetu]

wow Lani, that would make an interesting book... help to reach others that way too.
humm... just thought of something. Patricia King is having a Christian film festival. That story would be wonderful to submit. Maybe can be made thru the place you are attending your courses. humm....

[Lani]

The Holy Spirit

well this, I could discuss all day!

I was first introduced to the Holy Spirit when I was very young. My grandmother use to tell me to ask the Holy Spirit to surround me and keep me safe.... so each day before I left the house (for school) I did just that.... but for me the Holy Spirit is female.... You see, I had the Father, Jesus (a brother to my thinking) and now enters the Holy Spirit..... well since God is neither male nor female, but both, and having created both, I decided I needed a sisterly protector..... when I explained this to my grandmother she smiled and asked who could argue such..... I pray that is ok with Them, Him but I've never felt compelled to change it, so I am guessing it's all good... No Worries

So... this tradition continues today.... only now I do so before I even get out of bed. I ask that Her light shine through me to comfort all who need His truth and mercy.

As I have stated previously, I am in constant conversation with Papa... well the Trinity really. I invite each of them with a prayer that goes something like..... Father watch over me and guide my steps to help all who cross my path.... Brother Jesus, please walk with me so that I can feel your love and strength in all I do, Sister Spirit, please protect me on this journey... keep me safe from those who seek to harm me and please use me to share in whatever way is needed for that moment...... well it is longer but that is the basic premise of what I say to them first thing in the morning....

And yes, on days when I am rushing for whatever reason, If I fail to do so before I get out of bed, I always end up stubbing my toe at some point.

I so love the Holy Spirit, for this essence is what links each of us to one another and most important, links us back to Him, a lifeline to His love always.

I do invite her into each activity I involve myself in daily, I express different things while do the dishes or vacuum or whatever. I ask where I need to be vs where I am now and how to get to work on it. It is a relationship I strive to make stronger each day. I think the Spirit is the one facet of the Trinity that is often overlooked

Aww, I wish I had more to share on this one.... seems odd but I've said what is in my heart... sorry!

That was fun!!! See you for Step 8!!!!

Peace and Luv in Christ,
Lani