Christianity Oasis Forum

[mlg]

Wow sis, that is like so awesome how God has brought you this far, and is opening more doors. Now you've enrolled in college again, to allow yourself to finally get the career that will make you happy. I'm excited for you.

God has never wanted to see you fail sis, and He truly wants to give you the desires of your heart. Keep accepting His blessings.

I can just hear your heart singing for Jesus...I've got that joy, joy, joy, joy down in my heart...where?...down in my heart...where?...down in my heart

luv ya sis

[josinella]

I screwed up two days ago, I got off track. I remember a sermon our minister gave about how we mess up in the mist of a blessing. I guess when Satan is really angry and busy. I got chastened by God but not in a negative way. He gave me insight! He let me see what He has made available for me to use in my daily life and how Satan has blinded me about this. I felt bad that I didn't figure it out myself but God let me know that it was alright. It's like is fine tuning me.

God allowed me to become aware of His many blessings that He has given me and gave me the strength to face some challenges the next day. Everything with school is going well. When I prayed to God and asked Him to remove the financial burden that going to medical school has been in my life, He did, I didn't know how He was going to do it, but I most certainly see the path. I have to faithfully follow His path for me.

As far as purpose, I am seeing a little more clearly where God is taking me. He is using my previous education, life experiences and my compassion for people to reach out and help others. I have actually been an online counselor for teens which was a rewarding experience. God posed me with a challenge last week and I spoke out for Him. I don't believe it came from my mouth. I just called on Him and it flowed.

I do have to learn how to call on Him when I'm in trouble. I think it was Pine that asked me what I think about when I get moody. I'm very compassionalte, giving and deeply caring and I don't know why my life is so devoid of intimacy. I don't get low as often as I used to but it still happens. It's like I am totally out of control and my best description of it is "I can't stand myself." Then I go do stupid stuff that sets me back.

This time God was merciful and gave me wisdom. I asked what I should do when I start to feel like this and He said to focus on all things good, pure, positive because this is where I would find Him. I feel like David must have felt when he was dancing for the Lord! It's like the light came on in my brain. I will focus on this in all things!

[mlg]

Awww sis, you got it. We fall down, He lifts us back up. Sometimes we do slip up, as the enemy is always lurking nearby waiting to trip us up. That's when we need to immediately turn to the Lord to help us get back up, and not let the enemy keep us down.

I see how God is moving in your life, with the lifting of the financial burden, putting you into school, etc. and I know He is guiding your path. I hear you say you have a gift of compassion. There are so many others in this world who are hurting, and just need someone to listen. God isn't done with you sis, He is gonna use you to reach these souls.

Keep walking in step with the Lord sis.

He loves you so much and so do I.

[Dora]

Hi Jose
God is good. I see his goodness in your life.
He's patiently walking beside you as you grow in him.

By hating yourself you hinder Gods work in your life. You are hating Gods creation. Once you begin to love yourself a whole new world opens up to you. It is difficult to receive someone elses love when you don't love yourself. After all, Christ loves you why shouldn't you.

You love deeply. It is difficult to find people who love so deeply. The bible tells us in the end times love will wax cold. There is so much selfish love in this world. Don't allow your love to wax cold. Continue loving deeply even if you can not find anyone who loves you back as deeply as you love them. Focus on how God loves you and love him with all that deep love you have for others. He will return your gift of love with even more love and acceptance. Possably there is one who loves you as deeply as you love only you haven't received their love because you tell yourself things like you don't deserve it, or it won't last, or there is something they want.

God bless you Josi

God bless you.
Sending up prayers for you.

[josinella]

Yep, you guys are right. I have told myself in the past that I don't deserve love. I am trying to see what God sees and I am trying to be more positive to myself. This is where God is working on me the most.

Yeah, I'm the kind of person that stops when I see a female stranded on the road, or someone that looks like they're in distress. I've been told I'm a bleeding heart, I just think I care. There are a lot of hateful people out there, like the one at my son's baseball game tonight. I have to learn, though, not to let those people get my back up.

I'm getting better, I just have to learn to call on God more, or let Him call the shots!! At least, I feel like I have really overcome the hateful thoughts and getting better on being more Christlike. Reading the Bible really helps because I get to see how others called on the Lord and worked out problems.

[mlg]

Sis you stated you have to learn to be more Christ like. I think this is something we all strive to do daily. Once we work on something in us that we see isn't Christ like, then we will find something else as well. When you finish the counseling program sis, I want to encourage you to check out the Virtuous Woman study. It is a very enlightening study. It will truly help you grow some more in your journey to be more like Christ.

luv ya sis

[josinella]

Haven't logged in for a while. I'm not sure I am in the right place. I have been busy and this week is going to be rough. I feel alone! I feel His presence trying to keep me. I am used to helping others but I feel so very selfish. It seems as if the focus has just been on me this past year in transforming me. I realize that I got this way over a long time and it takes time.

I will be giving testimony in a couple of weeks at my church. It is part of what God has revealed is His plan for me. I am a strong person and I take very good care of others (very loving, supportive, compassionate). But right now I feel alone (but I feel He is here). I just feel like crying, maybe He will hear me and give me insight. I thought I was on the right path but I feel in my soul He is taking me to a deeper level. It doesn't feel comfortable at all.

[mlg]

Awww josie, my sister your feeling the flesh. Focus yourself back on the Spiritual. God may be taking you to another level, and often that can be scary, but as you well know God won't leave ya, He'll be right there with you. Trust in Him sis. He loves you remember. Sis, your not selfish if your taking time to grow your relationship with God. That is much needed in refreshing virtue. When you spend a lot of virtue on others, you must make time refreshing. Don't give up sis. God is still very much in control.

luv ya and glad to see ya back

[josinella]

I'm a matriarch and feeling it this week. For me to say I'm tired and want to cry says a lot because I'm not a crier. I am thankful today because with all that I am feeling, I didn't give in to sin. I've got to go to Him and let Him work it out.

After I read your post, Mlg1279, I went upstairs and cried and gave it to Him. It seemed really discouraging because I didn't feel His presence. Maybe He is testing me again. I'll get through this, flesh or no flesh. I just need to addres the need and quit worrying about being politically correct. He is trying to get me on His path i.e. I'm not wonderwoman and I don't have to do it all. Even He got His feet washed. Satan lives in me by getting me to feel overwhelmed and isolated.

Someone from my church reached out to me today. I wasn't expecting that. That's how God is working in my life. Due to the transformation, I am in transition i.e. I am surprised at the reaction of a few of my old friends to my new life. God is surrounding me with "new" friends. People need to know this happens. All I can do is pray for my old friends and hope that they come to know Christ. My new life is exactly that: new, untried, scary, different yet Christ-centered. And Satan constanly finds new ways to annoy me but I can't give in.

You are right about taking me to a new level. I don't feel haughty being used by Him. People are really starting to notice. It is like some of the people at church are protecting me. I had a run in with one of the deacons at my church questioning my countenance (when I'm tired it shows, unfortunately). I let him know that God is working on me from the inside out and that it is not for Him to judge me or rush God. I also quoted Romans 8:28. It happened so quick. But it has left me to wonder why God has chosen me for this because I don't feel as worthy as the task He has set before me.

[mlg]

aha...why God has chosen you sis, is because you are willing. See God calls many but few choose God's calling. Sis, I'm wondering if you have ever done the Many Called Few Chosen program here at the Oasis. If not, I think it would be a great time for you to think about it. It will reveal more about what God wants to do with you...as far as His calling. It's a great program. Here's the link http://www.christianityoasis.com/ManyCa ... /Forum.htm

As far as those tears go...they are good for the soul sis...they are a cleansing, and sounds like one that you needed.

Keep sharing sis, I'm here for ya.

luv ya

[josinella]

I took the test and scored pretty high. Hum, yeah. He has been busy in my life this year.

[josinella]

I just feel (as you have read) like I am on an emotional roller coaster ride. I'm constantly questioning everything going on. It's not Satan, it's like He is trying to get me to submit more to His will, and submit some more & more. Like allowing me to see His power and glory in my life but on a larger scale than others. It's sometimes hard to talk about because I feel like no one would believe me.