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[rebellious]

i was always told if you dont have any thing good to say dont say anything at all. step four is about forgiving yourself. idk how long iv been trying to do that. i think this process is driving me crazy . it has reopened doors i wanted to stay closed. since iv started this my thoughts continually haunt me. day four n iv had 3 hours of sleep. I cant continue like this. im going insane.

[SimplyBreezy]

Dear Rebelious,

I know things seem very difficult at this moment, and your thoughts are eating at you. It is where I have been many times. But in going through the steps, each day is a day closer to healing. It may not seem this way right now, but the enemy is giving you these haunting thoughts and making you feel like you can't carry on. But the Lord has the strength you need to carry on. Your burdens are heavy, place them before the cross. The Lord's grace has set you free, all you have to do is believe in it and feel it there within you. His Spirit is strong within you. I have faith that you too can overcome these thoughts and feelings because the Lord is stronger then anything that the enemy can throw at you. I know because I was in some pretty dark pits myself and He brought me out of them. He will do this for you too. Just keep hanging on to the right hand, the hand of our Father and your storm will pass and you will feel free and at peace.
Have a blessed day in the Lord and I will be praying for you to find the peace you are searching for and needing.

Sincerely,

Breezy

[mlg]

Rebellious, you know what's going on sis, with the reliving of all these thoughts? Instead of forgiving yourself and letting go you are dwelling on the past again. To forgive you place these thoughts in the past, and you replace them with thoughts of where you are going with the Lord. You replace them of what you want to be for the Lord. When these past thoughts try to plaque you, pull the weeds immediately sis. Turn on some Christian music and sing, til the thoughts disappear. Come in chat and chat with others to help refocus your thoughts on the Lord. Read some in the Bible, and learn about Jesus. Come on sis, you can do this. I know you can let's finish the race...I'm here running with you.

luv ya

[Dora]

Continue to pray. Continue to let the Lord lead you through this. Don't give up. Healing takes time. Be patient with yourself while you heal.

Forgive because God did.

God bless you dear one.

My prayers are with you.

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Hello Rebellious,

I have read your story, and believe me i know what you are going through. It is rough, but forgiving your self can be done. It may not happen over nigt, but in time it will. I went through the same thing myself for a lot of years. The sad part is that i didn't have a clue that i needed to forgive myself, and others as well. With my mouth i could say i had forgiven others . I could go as far as telling others that i liked myself. On the out side i always had a smile on my face but on the inside i was lonely and afraid. I lived in fear for a lot of years. I couldn't go forward because i always had thougths of the past. This is what fear does. It hinders you from moving forward, and enjoying life. I wanted the thoughts to stop and go away but they didn't. I told my fears to God and told Him that i was too weak to give Him my burdens and gave God my permission to take them. He did, and today i am free. I still remember the things from my past, but it doesn't hurt anymore. I can talk about all of the bad things that i did to myself and others and not cry. You will get there my friend.
The enemy is stilling your joy and your strengh. You must not throw in the towel or give up. You already have the victory through our Lord and.Please read roman 8:1. . 1Corinthians 10:13 . 2 Corint.10:5. and Matth:11:28-30. May God be with you my friend, and i will lift you up in prayer. Love you. COG ( Child of God).