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by **Tracy L** » Wed Mar 25, 2009 12:26 pm

Dear sister, I can relate to trying to "feel" loved by God. Even after I was saved I had a hard time cuz I couldn't grasp the "unconditional" love that our Lord offered. I had such low self esteem growing up that I relied on "people pleasing" to get my feeling of being worthy of love. Then after I met Jesus those feelings got worse (I listened to lies from the enemy that I was still worthless....arghhh). Don't listen to the enemy. Drown him out by listening to God and His Word. None of us is worthy from our works or our deeds. We are only worthy cuz of Him. He knew none of us could measure up, even the greatest ones in the Bible, they failed to measure up. I know it is hard but you just have to keep drilling into your head and heart that He loves us because He just wants to. It will take time. Took me yrs to forgive myself and totally accept that Truth but I am praying you will "get it" much sooner so you can bask in the Joy of that "unconditional love".
Tracy

by **Mackenaw** » Wed Mar 25, 2009 5:40 pm

Childscry wrote:sorta bummed that i dont have the love thing down tho...frustrating to see others praiseing and loving God when i dont have that zeal yet. Maybe im in that Thankful stage ...i dunno...

Hello Childs *hug*

I praise and I worship, but I have to admit -- most time when I start doing so -- it's not because I feel like it. Most times I my body feels like crud and maybe the trials and tribulations of my life seem real big and spooky -- but I praise and worship Him anyway. I choose to believe He is Who He is, and Almighty God does deserve my adoration.

Check out some of the Psalms. About half are written by David. Many, if not most, start out with him talking about his enemies and how down and oppressed he feels. Then he confesses his faith in The Lord, that He is worthy of all praise and love. He continues in his praise of God. Often a Psalm will have the word "Selah" at that point. It is considered as a pause -- however, if you examine what is taking place in the Psalm -- how the wording changes. Suddenly David seems empowered in the love and joy of our Lord. Why? Because David was ushered in by The Lord -- he was taken into the holy of holies -- he feels the presence of The Lord and all the things of this world fade and all David is aware of is Almighty God.

The place he was ushered into is unseen by the physical eye, but it is a very real place. It is in the presence of God.

I've been ushered into that place a few times. It's is amazing -- and I can't really explain it, but it is real. That is what keeps me going in those low times when my body feels so very weak and life seems overwhelming...the memory of being in His presence, I remember that awesome love, even though most times I saw nor heard anything. But, being in His presence is so awesome, I seek Him all the more because that awareness of Love is the best and the memory of it is unlike any other.

Keep seeking Him, Childs. He loves you.

God bless you.
Love,
Mack

by **ChildsCry** » Wed Mar 25, 2009 6:57 pm

See thats what i mean.

by **mlg** » Wed Mar 25, 2009 7:01 pm

Yes childs, but your time to be there will come. Don't compare your walk as I said earlier. Tell ya what, why don't you try praising God with some of those Psalms David wrote that Mackenaw talked about. Find one that fits how you feel about God and His love. Share it as your praise to the Lord.

luv ya

by **Mackenaw** » Wed Mar 25, 2009 9:29 pm

Hello Childs *hug*

There is a song entitled "Take me in" by Kutless that you may want to listen to. Listen to it 7 times in a row. Sit quietly and just listen to the words with your heart open to God.

God bless you, Childs.
Love,
Mack

by **Tracy L** » Wed Mar 25, 2009 9:47 pm

Yes, I forgot the Psalms. Definately read what David went through. He had some really rough days sometimes too.
I remember some things I went through and I was feeling so condemned when God took me to the Psalms David wrote after he had committed adultery and murder.
Really lifted my spirits.
Love,
Tracy

by **ChildsCry** » Wed Mar 25, 2009 11:44 pm

k ty.

by **ChildsCry** » Thu Mar 26, 2009 8:56 am

Day 7

hmmmmmmmm

I dont think i think too much on the past these days...the only thing i struggles with is the unknown depression..which has been happening less and less...since i have been reading the bible....but it still comes and leaves me totally seperated from everyone.

I think im just getting tired.

by **mlg** » Thu Mar 26, 2009 10:15 am

I Praise God from where He has brought you from, to where He has brought you now. You have grown so much sis, and as time moves forward, and you continue to grow closer to Him, your wings will become even sturdier, and you'll be able to fly for as long as you want. Keep your eyes on the Lord above.

luv ya sis

by **ChildsCry** » Fri Mar 27, 2009 3:34 pm

Day 8

Ha. Yeah just think yourself free! *rolls eyes* i can be free from my past . And am. its just dealing with the results of what it made me...which is a mess anyways..but i know God can transform me..might take a while tho...but it will get done. you cant just make things disappear. dig up a box of old worms, you can bury it but the stink dont go away. I see their point..but annoys me how you can be dealing with something one day and then that person says to get over and make it disappear all in one step.

Hoorah. I Know ...they arnt really saying that..just how i feel today. I know we are to take thoughts captive and thats what i been doing better at.

by **Mackenaw** » Fri Mar 27, 2009 4:25 pm

Hello Childscry *hug*

When we first start seeking God -- to get to know Him and to build a relationship with Him, most of what comes out of our mouths is confession of sins. We are called to confess our sins. Seems easy enough because, for the most part, that is all we can see. But we should never lose sight of the power that is released when we are seeking God. God is releasing the power. We may not see it, recognize it -- but it is there.

Then within a measure of time, we start confessing faith and hope. May be just little glimmers at first, but again -- the power is being released. God's power.

I'm seeing your confessions of faith now -- little glimmers, but they are bright -- because it is God's power.

I remember times in the past that I was trying to lose weight. Even if the scales showed weight loss, it didn't appear to me that I looked any different. But then one day, someone would mention that I looked different. They had noticed the change in my appearance -- but, they couldn't really put into words what looked different. Then, suddenly it seemed like everyone started noticing -- even me.

Well, I just wanted to let you know that I see the change. God's power working in you is evident. Keep seeking Him, dear Childscry. Your confessions of faith in Him are starting to glow. God's power is on the move.

Glow little glowworm, glimmer, glimmer. *BigGrin*

God bless you, Childscry.
Love,
Mack

by **mlg** » Fri Mar 27, 2009 4:37 pm

You know childs, what's interesting is that the writer isn't saying get over this in one day, but they are saying to one way or another get over it. We can't let the past rule us forever. Take the time needed to heal, but do heal, and don't stay in the past. You keep coming along childs in your healing. It's amazing how God has done a work in you already. He's got more work to do in you, and I can't wait to see what happens.

luv ya sis

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