Christianity Oasis Forum

[Tracy L]

Ever since I got on this site, I have been giving my all to begin again with Jesus. I have given up a relationship, my hopes, my dreams, just about everything I can besides my needs (food, home, money to live on, my kids, etc.). What more does He want from me?? I have been trying my best to read my Bible, to pray the best I can, to care about others (including my sis's and bro's on this site), to learn to love like Jesus loves, to control my addictions to food and smoking, the list goes on and on. I have been giving so much and getting nothing and nowhere. I pray, cry, beg, plead for help. No help is coming and I am getting weary. I feel sometimes with all my problems that I just dont' need to be here anymore. I can never be good enough to make it. And I have never been good enough to go the straight and narrow as much as I tried in the past. I don't expect a free ride in life but I do need much help in lots of areas in my life. And everywhere I go or have tried to begin a "new life" has failed me. I don't hear directions from God like other ppl do. I have only felt His presence for a short time in my life after I got saved but He has never directed my direction even though I gave up everything for Him. What else do I have to do to get His attention!!! I am so desperate and feel so lost. It is so depressing, like why should I try anymore if He has shut all doors to my life? Where are you my Savior??

Tracy

[mlg]

Tracy my sister, when I read your words today, I feel anger towards the Lord in them. You sound as if you think He owes you something. In reality the Lord has given us the best gift He could ever give. The Gift of Eternal Life through Jesus. It's us that owe Him. We owe Him thankfulness for what we do have in our lives. Yes maybe things aren't as grand as you want them to be, and maybe you have hardships that are weighing on you, but that's why you have to continue to have Hope in the Lord. Hope that His plan for you is much more than your plans. You state that you are trying to walk closer to the Lord, and sis He sees that. He just wants this to be a life time walk, and not something temporary.

I hope you don't take my words as harsh sis, but in the Jesusly love that are meant. It's time to get up sis, and get back to it. Wallowing around in self pity isn't going to do anything but make you feel more miserable. Jesus is right there, He's saying come my child Tracy, oh how I love you, won't you let me bring peace to your life? Won't you allow me to be your best friend? Even when things are tough, He is right there, sis, He will never leave you nor forsake you.

I want you to know I'm here for you also. My prayers are with you, and may you know how much you are truly loved by all of us here at the Oasis. You are part of our family, and you are special to me and many others.

Come on sis, you can do this. Let's run this race together, I'll help ya.

luv ya

[Tracy L]

Thanks for the pep talk mlg.

Yes, I was having a bad day today. Some days are better than others, huh? I am probably just being impatient (as usual). In faith, I know He is there but sometimes that stupid carnal nature sneaks up on me and gets me in a bad mood. I hate that part of myself. I would prefer if I could just stay UP all the time but I know that is nonsense thinking.
Thank you though for your honesty and kind words.
And I surely love ya'll on here too.

Tracy

[mlg]

Yes sis we can all get impatient. And know what's even worse, we know we are facing a situation, and we worry about it, even though we know the Lord is in control, we still find ourselves worrying about it instead of just laying it at the cross and walking away. Then when God does finally step in, and the situation has passed, we find ourselves feeling "stupid" for ever doubting. Those are all tools of Satan. He tells us we should worry, and doubt the Lord, and then afterwards, Satan says now don't you feel stupid. It's part of that meanie's game. But we Know Truth and Truth gives us power, so take that power and turn a bad day into a better tomorrow.

luv ya

[flutemusic67]

Hi, Tracy. We all have lows. We all feel disconnected. We know how you feel. When you are a Christian, you begin a walk with Him. There are lots of twists and turns that the enemy throws at you. But just keep on the straight and narrow road and keep your eyes on Him. It may feel like He isn't with you or working in your life, but He is. The further you go in your walk with Him, the better you will become able to recognize the many blessings He gives you.

Keep trying, keep the faith, and keep your eyes on HIM.

God bless and protect you.



P.S. You are not allowed to leave. We would miss you! *Ties Tracy to the Oasis tree*