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[goldieluvs]

I came to Oasis several months ago. I have never done this program before. I realize sometimes i let worldly matters come first and they shouldn't. There are a couple things Im struggling with atm. One is cigarettes which i quit for a couple days and then started back again. I didnt lean on God like i should've. Another thing is that I was feeling God calling me to do SOMETHING. This was a while back, I would just sit at the forums and stare feeling like there was something God wanted me to do, but I couldnt figure it out. I didnt know what that something was. I was asked to host a singles program that bombed for various reasons. And another suggestion was presented but that hasnt seemed to taken off either. So, i am thinking that maybe God had something else in mind for me. My faith is strong today. I admit i had some hurt feelings over the situation but am letting those go. I wanna do what God wants me to do. I know I am feeling led to do something. Im trying to figure out what it is. I dunno, is it possible to try too hard and miss the boat so to speak? I think probably so. Faith is an awesome thing. Faith through God's grace saved me from myself. I have a renewed feeling of God for reasons that are far in my past that i have come to a certain amount of peace and acceptance over. Shame can be a powerful enemy and keep ya trapped for a LONG time. But the most amazing thing was when i truly cried out begging, God was there. I have learned much here and luv this place. So, Im beginning this program and will see where it leads.

[realtmg]

goldie,
I remember when you first came here and have observed your growth and concern for others. I am proud that you decided to do this program as it will enlighten how to deal with issues and what is really going on. It is time well spent.

Luv Ya


Real

[mlg]

goldieluvs, I'm so happy for you. You have decided to take the path to help you on your journey with the Lord. We all go through trials and tribulations in life, but most importantly we have to learn to put the Lord where He needs to be. First. There are so many times we have to sacrifice what we want to do, those worldly things you talked about, to do what God wants and needs us to do. Oh it's not ever easy, cuz it would be much more "fun" to go to a football game instead of reaching out to a lost soul. In reality when you place the world first, this is true, but when you place God first this isn't true. You want to spend every minute of every day working for the Lord when He is first.

This is so exciting. You will begin to heal from your hurt feelings, and walk closer to the Lord and what He has planned for you. Remember that sometimes He has a different path than we expect, and sometimes our path will change directions also. If you truly keep your focus on Him and His will, you will know what He wants. But remember again, you may have to give up some worldly things along the way, but it's worth it because the rewards you are storing in Heaven are just out of this "world".

luv ya my sister, step 1 down wooohoo, keep doing them, keep seeking the Lord, and keep growing.

Take care and God Bless

[susidivah]

Goldie!

Glad to see you pick up this study! I think God's gonna reveal much to you from it, it's a good one

I echo Realtmg in commenting on noticing your growth here... you are a delight to have in chat and in Singles and I too think the CCCC study will only help you continue the growth and your Path. Worldly things are tuff to discern and refrain from, I know from much experience! God wants us to enjoy this life but in the same token live a life that is reflective of Him. Some elements of the CCCC I found to be helpful in focusing more on these Godly things

Looking forward to reading your posts... holler if you need anything sis...

Love you dearly,
Susi

[storm]

Goldie

be blessed in your walk

storm

[goldieluvs]

Awwww I love u guys and gals. Woo hoo. If i had thought of it i just wouldve put the whole journal in one post to save room. Maybe someone can fix it. Im gonna put Day 2 in a separate post and if anyone can combine it, change it to Goldie Journal and I will know to keep posting there so as to take up less space on the site. Such wonderful brothers and sisters.,.. I luvs u all.

[realtmg]

I will change the name and make it a journel.

Luv ya


Real

[goldieluvs]

Thoughts are reading Day 2. A few came to mind. I know we are to renew our minds daily. I always thought of Jesus pulling the weeds outta my heart. Cuz thats where the hurt was.I always saw myself as broken in two. I spent several years in therapy and was fortunate in that he was also Christian. I also clearly remember how i took the Bible that my bio father had given to me and told him i could not look at it even after ripping out the dedication page. He asked me what I wanted him to do with it and I told him to leave it in a pew somewhere. A few years later he told me he had kept that Bible and said he felt like once I was able to take it back, then I would be truly healed. I need to email him. As I have finally forgiven my biological father. And i can relate to some of the root not being gotten out as sometimes even now a part of my past will come back when i least expect it and throw me for a loop. I wont go into details here mainly out of concern for the teens who may come in here. But its kinda strange in that I had sent an email out to O about possibly doing something about a particular issue in my past and then i came to this study. At first I felt like I had allready done this step and then I realized that we have to start over and over and over depending on the situation or issues we face. Stumbling blocks can turn into stepping stones! God has worked many wonders in my life. Just me being here in and of itself is His miracle. Of that i have no doubt.
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[mlg]

goldie you know what your past is now? An opportunity to share Jesus Christ with someone. I know your saying how, how can I do that with my past? The answer is simple. A soul who is lost and hurting crosses your path, that soul is now where you were in your past, they are struggling and trying to just move forward. You can show them how Jesus helped you when you were in their shoes. Our past is not meant to hold us back, but for us to move forward and to use it as a testimony to those who need to hear it the most.

It's great to hear you say you have finally forgiven your bio father, and can reach out to him now via e-mail. That my sister shows the Love of Jesus in you. Removing the past pain, to try and start new. We should do this also in our walk with Our Father in Heaven. We should allow Jesus to remove our sins, and then let them go, and start our walk again new. So many times Satan will try and use our past sins against us, but if we truly Know that Jesus has already removed those sins, then Satan can't harm us with the past.

Keep doing the steps sis, glad to see you on day 2.

luv ya

[goldieluvs]

Opps I messed up.... I meant i had left it with a Christian therapist. I have no idea where my bio father is. I meant when i was gonna email that i was emailing my previous therapist. My bad...

[mlg]

It's ok goldie, no biggy, either way at least you are now able to move forward, and my sister that is all that Truly Matters. God Bless you!!!

luv ya

[susidivah]

Hey Goldie,

I agree totally with your statement Stumbling blocks can turn into stepping stones Hopefully for everyone, all of them can make the paved Path to our Lord... sounds like you've come a long way with conceptualizing your past, and like mlg said you can use it now to share Christ with others. But also, you can move on in your journey here in the present, knowing He truly takes care of our futures if we CHOOSE to seek and surrender to His Will.

Your garden is already starting to blossom, goldie girl Keep weeding and planting...

Love you,
Susi