Christianity Oasis Forum

[Purahfyme]

I am here because I sometimes I feel like I am all alone. I struggle with being close to someone because choices I have made and past hurts. Sometimes I don't feel forgiven by God and I feel like I do not deserve the love that is being given to me. I was in a relationship before for several years and now I am in another relationship with a really loving and patient guy. He has been hurt by me and other women he has come across in his life. This relationship is so different than what I have been used to in the past that I push him away. Love is present in our relationship but more from him than me I want to accept his love and give love back to him but I have so much difficulty in doing so. I mean there have been several incidents where the emotion was so overwhelming that I have had anxiety about being vulnerable to him. I tend to get frustrated by it I pray but I don't know I get anything from it I read the word and I think I try to alter what I read to fit me. I know we make our own plans but Gods plan are always greater than ours. Sometimes I believe that maybe this is not the relationship that God wants me to be in because of the fear I have but I know that fear is not from God. I know that we are to pursue love and to not just love one another but love each other deeply. In knowing these things I still get lazy and remain disobedient to what his word says. I just hope that these stepping stone will help me to change the way I think and believe what the word says and to learn to love and accept myself and my mistakes. I hope to learn to see myself just as God sees me!

[dema]

People build thick walls after being hurt a few times. It is hard to let people in. Perfect love casts out fear.

If you can be quiet and just be in God's presence, be in the peace, then God can speak to your heart. God speaks in the peace.


I'm sorry for your past hurt. I wish you future happiness.

[Purahfyme]

Thank you Dema for your reply. I will definitely try and find the peace in God's presence because I really need him to speak to my heart about some things I need to do. a lot of the times I deny what's in my heart for fearful reasons, but I am still a work in progress. thank you again

[Amaia]

Welcome Purahfyme!
Being hurt for past relationships is hard. I've been on that path before and still sometimes, but God is doing something new in me . So I encourage you to carry on!
I'm glad you have decided to start with the programme. I'm sure God will talk to you through it and through his Word.It could be great if you both could pray together for your relationship, feelings, that would help you to open up about your feelings. Praying always helps me to open up even if there's people in front of me. I'm more myself and in those times God always tells me how my heart is.
Remember that God wants the best for you both.
God bless you!