Christianity Oasis Forum

[babyruth_16]

Today is the first day of me beginning this journey. I believe that God is working in me as we speak...and when it is all said and done I will see victory!
I just have been feeling like a failure lately. I think I have felt that way most of my life but now that I am older, it is beginning to manifest and become a reality. The thing is, I have accomplished so much in my life but without doing the best that I can. It is hard for me to complete things that I have started, and I just do not feel motivated to do things that will help me succeed in life.
When I look over my life, I notice how I have passed up so many opportunities and I know that it is because of fear. What am I afraid of? ...Failure & Success. Yes I said it "Success."
I have been so depressed, and not able to speak to anyone about my issue because it is embarrassing to me that I feel this way. I have children and a husband, and I do not want to fail them. But I am having a hard time talking to my husband about this as well. This is so...effective my life.

[dema]

I'm glad you are on this journey.

Are you afraid of success? Or afraid of trying and failing? A lot of people aren't willing to risk the failure. But I think all great people have failed - even Jesus had to experience being unpopular and having one of his 12 truly not get it.

Are you afraid that your husband won't be able to handle you shining? Does he need to be the sun of your relationship?

So, why ARE you afraid of succeeding? You might choose to succeed at raising children rather than taking a position with travel and a lot of time in the office. But that is a valid choice.

What is success? And what specifically is your fear?