my mental health

[Emilylynn]

This is my second post here in this forum so am a little nervous
I have a few mental health problems first being Schizophrenia , i hear voices and see things some times i have delusions
Some of them i believe that the devil is coming for me and that i am evil ...it was just a few days go i truly believed it
Other times i have believed that my dad is still alive ( my dad died 2 years ago he killed himself ) and that i saved him from dying and there has been other things as well
Also because of the voices am too scared to go out on my own because i think am going to hit people because the voices tell me to do it ...i also have social anxiety because of this and i rarely leave the house
i also self injure and have an eating disorder as well as depression.
There are point where i am suicidal and my husband has to lock all the medication away so i dont OD on them as i have tried so many times to kill myself
Most of the time i want to be with my dad but am trying so hard to be here for my family and my husband
I dont have kids just cats and we arent having kids because both feel its be unfair on a child to deal with our mental health problems and deal with a kid
So we just have our cats there a handfull some times as it is
I try to remember that Jesus is always with me and i need to look postively at things
but its still hard

[mlg]

Hi Emilylynn,

My prayers are with you and your husband. May the Lord guide your steps each day. May you know He loves you and can help you carry the burden of your illness. Don't give up hope.

Take care

[redbandit]

Hi emilylynn, I'm so sorry you are feeling so bad! Have you talked to a counselor or therapist? *hugs* i will be praying for you

[Mackenaw]

Hello EmilyLynn

God bless you this day and welcome to Christianity Oasis.

I'm so glad The Lord led you here, and that you have introduced yourself. I look forward to getting to know you, EmilyLynn

There are many blessed Holy Spirit inspired studies on this site, that have helped me grow in my relationship with The Lord. I encourage you to check them out. Here is a link to a list of studies: http://www.christianityoasis.com/Keywor ... tudies.htm

I love what you shared at the end of your post when you said:

I try to remember that Jesus is always with me and i need to look postively at things
but its still hard

Yes, EmilyLynn, Jesus is always with you and He loves you so very much. And, Yes!, we all need to look more positively at things, even when it is hard. So, thank you for that blessed reminder.

God bless and keep you, EmilyLynn.
In Christ Jesus' love,
Sister Mack

[Truesovereigncrown]

Hi EmilyLynn
so sorry to hear about your health problems,i have suffered from depression my self in the past and been on meds for it.
Ive felt that i was trapped alone at the bottom of a well so many times in my life,but Jesus was there and pulled me out.
Jesus is always going to be there for you,and always listens to his childrens prayers.
prayers have gone up for you and your husband,and there is power in prayer so keep holding on.
God bless you.

[atang]

I am so sorry. I can't even imagine what you are going through, but I will keep praying for God to give you peace.