Christianity Oasis Forum

[Shan]

Thank you Mack & Pine.

Today has been a day of reflection. Thinking back to when I started the first stepping stone, I was like wow, there are answers and I'm not alone. It has been truly transforming my life, these studies. I really like the miracle grow! It keeps me accountable to staying on the right track until it starts to become a habit. I'm loving that God can replace bad habits for good ones. I'm sad for all the years I allowed these bad habits to control my life. I'm still anxious, I want to do this. I want to change and become the woman God wants me to be. The Holy Spirit is going to become my best friend! He is so loving and gracious. I'm reminded of a song that says " I know that you are for me, I know that you will never forsake me in my weakness." Thank you Father God for never leaving me and for always loving me especially when I didn't deserve it.

[Shan]

I'm so blessed. I am so thankful and rejoicing in the Lord today for his faithfulness and goodness.

I'm sticking to my miracle grow exercise and it's really so simple what we can do to replace the ugly, negative, sinful thoughts, emotions and actions in our life with. The activities I'm filling my time with are helping me to control my thoughts, pull out the weeds and plant seeds. When an emotion comes up that is uncomfortable I stop and examine myself. I talk to God about it! I seek His Word, the TRUTH and let His light shine upon the darkness. It's not easy but by God Almighty its possible!

"Let everything that has breath give Him praise!"

Thank you Jesus for saving a wretch like me! Thank you for saving me from the enemy. Thank you for saving me from myself! You are so good, I just wanta shout!

[Shan]

Day Fourteen! What a victory! I stuck with it and will never regret it, if I cried easily I would be shedding tears right now because I actually stuck with this and the results are soooo good. I'm not healed yet but I found the right medicine, Amen. And I know that if I choose to set His medicine back on the shelf to try another kind (God help me not to) that He will forgive me. I've learned that's what life is about for me. Trusting in God, in His medicine, taking His vitamins. I've been looking for healing and soothing from other sources for so long but they never worked they were counterfeit.

I never knew how BIG God is, how much His love overflows for me. I know now after laying all of my sin at His feet and nailing it to that cross with Jesus. I get it. Now I'm shedding the tears.

No more self pity. I'm not who I am because of what's been done to me. I'm who I am because of what I've done with the breath of life God has given me. That's what makes me special and I am special. I'm a wonderful child of God, woman, wife, mother, and friend. Okay, tears are pouring now. He is just so Awesome!

Trust has been established!

May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him so that you may OVERFLOW WITH HOPE by the power of the Holy Spirit. Rom 15:13

Trust = no confusion
Trust = no doubt
Trust = Faith
Trust = success
Trust = peace
Trust = joy
Trust = sanity
Trust = understanding
Trust = Hope
Trust = Love

I'm glad to know the journey is just beginning not ending.

[=Lily=]

Hi Shan,

Thank you so much, I'm so encouraged. I'm keeping that note in my heart. I choose not to be double-minded.

I'll keep you in my prayers my sister.

God bless you.

Lily

[Shan]

My thoughts for today's journal entry.

"I Need You To Love Me"
by Barlow Girl

Why, why are You still here with me
Didn't You see what I've done?
In my shame I want to run and hide myself
But it's here I see the truth
I don't deserve You

But I need You to love me, and I
I won't keep my heart from You this time
And I'll stop this pretending that I can
Somehow deserve what I already have
I need You to love me

I, I have wasted so much time
Pushing You away from me
I just never saw how You could cherish me
'Cause You're a God who has all things
And still You want me

Your love makes me forget what I have been
Your love makes me see who I really am
Your love makes me forget what I have been

[Mackenaw]

Thank you, Shan, for sharing that song with me. (((hugs)))

Thank You Lord \o/ \o/ \o/

Congratulations, Shan, on completing the 14 Day CCCC Study. The Truth shared in that Study will forever serve to make you whole in Him. I was happy to see that you have also begun the Many Called Few Chosen Study. It, too, will bless you, because it is full of His blessed Word. Jesus is The Word \o/ \o/ \o/

Jesus said He is the Truth, the Way and the Life. Amen! He IS!!!

God bless and keep you.
In Christ Jesus' love,
Sister Mack

[Dria1983]

Hi Shan,
your journey really encourages me I completely relate to everything you were saying I am definitely a control freak and I have many issues with trust the only person that I have ever been able to trust is my mom and although she has always been there for me she tends to throw things in my face when she gets upset and its crazy because she is a Christian but that is something she struggles with but learning to trust is such a hard journey and until reading your post I had just decided that its just who I am what life's trials and tribulations have placed in me. I pray that this 14 days help me to become a better person and that GOD molds me into who he wants me to be.

[Shan]

Dria,

I stand in agreement with you that God molds you into who he designed you to be. Amen

You know something I've learned through these stepping stones is that there are just some weeds like doubt that are deeply rooted and they choke out anything good in our minds. And it's like you might see a glimmer of something good planted in that mind of ours but were so weak in the spirit (by our own allowance) that Satan has his way with us. It's ultimately our responsiblity to decide what thoughts (bad weeds or good seeds) we allow to grow and control our mind, spirit and body. Our mind is the battlefield between God and Satan may we never forget that. That's why I love this verse in 2 Corinthians - Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ. Amen. That is the power of God and I'm so greatful to Him for giving us that power.

Shan